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𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐒𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡 p17 "Partners In Crime"

             

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                    |10 years ago|
                         
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𝐊𝐚𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐚

"One, two, three..."

It's been a week since my father locked me in the basement, all my clothes are dirty, and I'm dying from hunger.

"Four, five, six..."

I'm not screaming, crying, or any shit I used to do when my father locked me. Instead, I'm just sharpening the tiny dagger I have right now;
with my skin.

"Seven, eight, nine..."

I don't know if he has the idea of how much of lonely I am here, in this vacant basement, it's all dark, only with tiny yellow lights and some of them are already off...

"Sharpen your dagger, Katrina, don't listen to all the noises you have in your mind; just sharpen the fucking dagger."

"Ten." 

The basement door finally opened, and I could see the light, it annoyed my eyes a bit, but I raised my head to my father, who was looking at me with his...
grin.

"You know how much I hate to do this, dear, right?"

Fuck you.
I hate you.
With whole my life;
I fucking hate you.

"I'm... sorry, father."

"Little Katrin does as her father says?"

I slightly nodded, even when I didn't want to.
I will break his neck...

I will break your neck.
I will break your neck.
I will break your fucking neck.

"I'm sorry, father."

𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟.

I could feel these shitty words burning in my throat, but I had no way...
If I keep insulting or resisting, he will never free me from this damn basement.
I'm hungry...

"Stand up."
He said, based on his tone of voice, I could say he's madder now.

I can barely stand up or even walk, my legs are completely bruised, and my back is burning from many whippings.
I guess that's the love my father gives.

He doesn't even raise his hand for me to help me stand up. He only watches my suffering.
I finally could stand up, but I felt my legs shaking, and I could fall anytime.
He steps closer to me, puts his black coat on my shoulders, and holds me.
I want to push him away, put the dagger straight into his chest, and run away.
But I can't.

All of this happened right after my 20th birthday.
After my dad forced me to sleep with a man I never knew, but somehow, it was planned for me to become his fiancée.
So I didn't accept it but also punched him in the face.
And... that was all the reason he locked me up again.
I'm not unaccustomed to it.
It's kinda funny that he can lock me up whenever he likes and conceal the true identity of his true daughter.
I can say he enjoys it. He loves to see me suffering.
He never tries to hide his frigid heart and his psychotic mind. He shows it.

And I'm all numb, tired of being raped inside and out, tired of my father and the men he likes me to sleep with, only cause it's a contract.
My life is just like a contract.
I got 20, and nothing has changed. It's just the same routine.
If I make a mistake, I have to bear the blows of my father's whips.
And if I don't listen to what he orders, I have to bear the pain again.
No happiness, no happy ending, and no fair life.
I'm just a little doll to him, and he just uses me whenever he needs me.

                             * * *

After I took a shower, I went and reclined on my bed.
Stare at my ponytail hair in the mirror.
Suddenly...
The teardrops fall from my eyes, and I see one of my eyes bleeding.
Drops of blood fall with the tears as I'm trying to control it, to wipe my tears away, but I can't.
I look at the scars on my face.
What did I do to deserve all of this...
Just why...

Someone knocked on the door.

From the way she knocked, I felt safe and said:

"Come in..."
I wipe the blood and tears away.

She opened the door calmly and entered with her disappointed face.

"Oh no... I'm sorry! I'm really sorry Katrina!!!"

She came close and hugged me while she was crying and shrieking out loud. It must have been painful for her, but why I can't feel it? Why is she the only one who feels it?

"It's not your fault Anna, don't apologize."

'Anna Roza', the one and only friend I have.

She put her face in my chest and didn't stop crying. She didn't even try to calm herself.

"I could stop him from doing that... I could save you!!! I wasn't there when you needed me!"
She screamed again and touched the scars on my face with her shaking hands.
She put her hands on my face.

"He did this to you?... I SWEAR THE GOD I WILL KILL HIM!!!"

"Hey... before that, at least let me wear something."
I said and turned to smile.

I only had my bath towel and didn't have the energy to change it.
She stared at me again, and finally, she stood up and gave me some space. She wiped her tears away quickly and turned to not look at my naked body when I wanted to wear clothes.

"You know Anna... that wasn't bad timing."
I said while wearing pants.

"My life is just dismal. That's how it is, and it's not even my fault."
I said, put on my black underwear, and grabbed my black T-shirt.

After I wore my clothes, I came to Anna and held her hand, smiled at her again.
I want to show her that I'm fine, and everything will be okay. She smiled back and stopped crying. Only smiles.

"How about we grab a lunch together?"
Actually, if I don't eat up for another hour, I'm sure that I'll die for real this time.
I don't want the reason for my death to be from hunger.

"Fine... let's have some burgers..."
She said and opened the door.

"I can eat even more than that, so I think burgers can't be enough."
I squeezed her hand and laughed.

I opened my ponytail and threw my black scrunchy away.
I hate to do ponytails again.

Suddenly, a raindrop fell on my nose.

I raised my head to the sky and stared at the grey sky and grey clouds. It was as if the sky was upset and wanted to cry.

And the rain started to pour. We heard the sound of thunder and saw its purple color.

I whispered something.

"Anna..."

"Yes, Katrina."

"Do you think you'll be able to stay friends with me after I...

Kill someone?"

She turned to look at my face, I had no expression on my face, with no emotion, no feelings, and nothing, just a vacant heart.
That wants to take revenge.

"You want to..."

"I want to kill my father."

She raised her head down at this moment... I wanted to touch her long, beautiful hair. And put all of them away from her face.

Of course, she won't accept it... now she sees me as a monster, I'm ruining everything.
All I have.

"In that case... let's be partners in crime."
She said.

I stared at her eyes with a flame of hope in my heart.
She was serious. She wanted to help me.
She wanted to save me.

"Friends with secrets?"
I said and raised my hand to her.

"Best friends with secrets."
She said and held my hand.

🖤🌈𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐞🎀🌈