my best friend's sister | b.e.

n i n e

- B I L L I E -

I've been staring at the ceiling for far too long, just thinking about Kairi.

I was so rude to her at that party last night when she just wanted to talk to me and make conversation.

But she knows we can never be friends.

She betrayed me and I'll never forgive her for it.

I get off my bed, find Shark and grab his leash. I put it on his collar before taking him out to the car. Once he's in, I start driving over to Finneas' house.

When I get there, I knock on the front door and once it opens, I immediately hug whoever is there, but pull away once I realize it's Kairi.

"The fuck? Why are you here?" I groan. "Finneas asked me to get the door, sorry." She shrugs sadly. "It's.. fine." I sigh. "Is Claudia here?"

"No, she's out, running errands." Kairi answers. "Are you... good? Why'd you hug me?"

"I would've hugged anyone." I roll my eyes. "Where's Finneas? I need to complain."

"In the studio."

I walk past her with Shark and he follows me into the studio. I walk in and flop down on the couch, groaning into the pillow.

"Well hello there." He laughs. "Let me yap." I reply. "What's up now?" Finneas sighs. "Let me guess... Kai?"

"Of course it's Kairi." I sigh.

"Billie, all she did was answer the door, you don't have to be m-"

"I feel bad, actually." I admit to him. "About what?" He furrows his eyebrows.

"I was rude to her the other night while she just wanted to make conversation. I was so mean to her and I shouldn't have been, especially when she's worried about her girlfriend. I don't like Naomi, but I know Kairi cares about her a lot, so.." I trail off.

"Why don't you like Naomi? She's so nice." Finneas says, feeling confused.

You don't like her because she's with Kairi, huh?

Shut up.

"No, it's not that, she just seems, like... condescending." I lie. "How?" He asks. "She's been nothing but nice to you."

"Umm.. she seems like she'd be a bragger or something. Like, she just seems like she wouldn't be good to Kairi, you know? And, like... I don't like Kairi either, but she should have a girlfriend that treats her right or whatever."

I'm literally rambling my fucking head off. I have no clue what I'm talking about.

"What the fuck are you even saying? You sound so stupid."

"I can have an opinion!" I huff. "An opinion that's wrong. You don't even know what you're saying." Finneas rolls his eyes. "And since when do you want Kairi to have a nice girlfriend? You said she didn't deserve it."

"Jesus, what's with all the questions?" I laugh nervously. "You're the one in my house, ranting to me. I think I have the right to ask you questions." He replies.

"Whatever. I don't wanna talk about Naomi anymore. What should I do?" I sigh. "Just apologize." He shrugs his shoulders.

"But.. that's so hard. I hate Kairi." I groan. "So why do you feel bad then?" He questions. "Because I have sympathy, okay?" I roll my eyes. "I know it's surprising, but I do!"

"Billie, you're a nice girl, I know that, just not when it comes to Kai. You don't even call her her name." He replies. "Everyone calls her Kai except for you."

"Nicknames are for friends, and Kairi and I are not friends." I shake my head. "Kai is her name for everything and for everyone. You're just weird about it." Finneas says.

"I'm not weird, I just don't wanna call her Kai, alright? Is that so bad?" I ask, feeling frustrated. "Okay then." He nods slowly. "Are you done ranting now?"

"Yes." I answer. "Thanks for absolutely no help." I smile innocently as I get up. "I told you to apologize!" He yells to me once I'm out the door.

I shut the door behind me and walk into the living room where Kairi is sitting.

"Ew, this show sucks."

"It's my favorite." Kairi replies. "Of course it is. You have the worst taste in the world." I roll my eyes and lay down on the couch. "Put on, like, Bojack Horseman or something."

"Hell no. That show is ass." She says. "Just like your face." I smile proudly. "Aw, thanks so much." Kairi responds sarcastically.

"Aren't you gonna call me ugly now?" I ask once she goes quiet.

"Why would I lie?"

"You.. you don't think I'm ugly?" I ask, feeling confused.

"Girl, no. Your parents gave you a nice ass face and I look like a whole ass mouse." She rolls her eyes. "No you don't. You're gorgeous, dumbass." I respond.

"You just called my face 'ass.'"

"'Cause I was being an asshole, dipshit. I think you're pretty or whatever." I sigh in annoyance. "Oh." She mutters. "Well thank you. So are you."

"Thanks."

It goes awkwardly quiet and Kairi continues watching her show.

Did we just get along for a second?

I think we did.

You know, sometimes it's nice getting to be nice to Kairi. Being mean all the time is so annoying.

Sure, I still hate her, but the one thing I can't deny is that she's beautiful.

But I still don't like her no matter what.

I don't think I ever will.

It's just impossible for us to be friends.

"Oh, and I'm sorry for last night. I know you were trying to just make conversation."

"It's fine." Kairi says. "I'm used to you and your bullshit."

"Thanks for putting up with me." I chuckle. "Anytime, Eilish." She rolls her eyes playfully and turns back to the tv screen.

I don't know what's happening. Why are we being nice to each other?

Did hell freeze over?