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Reasons Why I Don't Love You

Here are some reasons why I don't love you

I don't like how you know more J.Cole songs than me

Or the way you're first person to call to hear my poetry

I don't like how every time we pray

You move me to tears

I don't like how you pay attention to my feelings

Then hug bravery down my soul

I don't like how you can bring calm to my storms

Or use my affirmations against me when I'm feeling low

I really dislike you to be completely honest

You remember the little things

Let me put you on blast for a second

You give me space so that I can watch WWE

Then when a commercial comes on

You'll say that we'll always be a team

You let me watch Drumline, Black Panther and Great Gatsby

Without any interruptions

Then have dinner and a massage prepared for me

I'd ask you what I did to deserve this

You'll say that you did it because I'm deserving

You think you're a celestial being huh?

You think you're so cute because you copy all of my sayings

Steal my hoodies and take my food

Because you think it just tastes better from my plate

You're annoying

I'm sick of it

You make perfection to be existent

Poetry becomes even more eclectic when you're the muse

I can craft creatively a comely creation when you're the mosaic

And you know what else I can't stand about you?

How you quote scripture to win an argument

Knowing that instead of turning my face to the world

I can turn my face to God

Reminding myself that He's an ever-present help

In my time of need

Even when you're not guilty of doing something wrong to me

You take accountability

You see how you get on my nerves right?

I can't even stay mad at you for a long time

I hold you in my dreams

Then you tell my nightmares goodbye

You wipe my eyes before tears can fall from them

Smiles sing softly, sweetly, seraphically knowing that we're the reason

For each other's happiness

Not to mention

When you get mad and roll your eyes

When it looks like smoke is coming out of your ears

When you giggle at my dad jokes

Then call me bro

But get an attitude when I call you sis

How you clap your hands when you get passionate

You really think you're an Angel?

Maybe you are

I was taught that angels get tired

And deserve to rest

Deep down

Too many times we try to be that perfect lover

When we don't have to be

You've trekked in sadness but found safety in me

I lived in lust

Mistaken love with infatuation

Gave myself so freely to women who were not worthy

Wrestled with God

Waited and mourned until your appearance

Now

Here you are

I've found a home in you

My prayer request answered

My best friend and woman crush everyday

I wanted to remind you of these things you do

To reassure you that no one will take me away from you

I'm yours

You're mine

As long as we have each other

Our days on this earth will be fine

This is what we categorize as love that is equally yoked

These are the reasons why

I love you.