If Only She Knew REVISITED

Chapter 10

   I sit lifeless upon my couch wrapped up in an old blanket Nolan found shoved in the corner of the room. However, Nolan is pacing around trying to escape his thoughts, but I don't take notice. Instead I just sit and stare within the same spot upon the cream coloured wall hoping the night would fade away for this to be a just distant memory.

He is now mumbling some nonsense I can't understand. There are only a few words I pin point.

"Why would he do this?" Is what I can barely make out.

Leaving my spot on the wall, I peer up towards him, now he has a stern yet curious display upon face.

"Nolan please just sit down, all this pacing is making me feel even more anxious." However, he does not listen to me.

Fed up, I forget to think and just blurt out the first words that come to my mind however harsh they may seem.

"You're not helping!" My words take even me by surprise as I take a small gulp afterwards instantly regretting my actions.

He stops his thought pattern and faces me with a blank expression, after a moment of his eyes lingering on mine he begins to take a seat gently beside me on the couch.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that." I keep my eyes forward as I speak at a hushed tone.

"Who was that guy Nolan?" I ask for what I think is the sixth time tonight as I move my body to his direction. He can't lie to me again, not after what just happened. He knows I want the truth.

He runs his hands through his now dark, greasy blonde hair as he smacks his lips together beginning to speak.

"He's well known around these parts of town, let's just say that." I don't take this as a proper answer, and I feel I owe it to myself to know the truth not another meaningless lie.

"Nolan, I know you know him, you both made it very clear to me just by the way you were looking at him, and also tackling each other to the fucking ground. Strangers don't do that. Not without intent." I say my last words sternly as his eyes rise to the left of the room.

"I don't okay, not personally anyway, word gets around this small town fast, and all I know is that he is trouble and I don't want him anywhere near you..." He begins to reach for my face delicately with what feels like love as I feel the passion running through his fingertips as they graze upon my skin.

"Okay, please listen Ava." His voice is stripped away showing nothing but his bare emotions for me.

Giving him a small nod his eyes linger down to my collar bone, remembering my bite mark, I quickly wrap the blanket over my shoulders shielding his view.

"We are safe now aren't we?" My voice trembles as Nolan's finger lifts my chin causing me to be pierced by his blue eyes.

"You don't need to worry about that. You're fine." Feeling the corners of my mouth rise into a smile it soon fades away as a fear grows inside me.

"Are you okay, what's wrong?!" His voice seems panicked as he watches my emotion take a sudden shift.

"No, nothing I just want to ask you a question?" I reassure him as I watch his fears fade away.

"Go ahead..." He signals me.

"I don't want to be alone, Nolan. Not tonight." Taking the risk I take a gulp and swallow my pride letting my emotions run bare.

"You won't be. I'll be here, However long you need, I'll be here." His words produce a small smile upon my face.

"That means a lot." Lowering my gaze I tuck a strand of hair over my ear feeling his eyes focussed on mine.

"Do you want any food?" He politely asks me.

"Aren't I the one meant to be asking you that?" I smirk trying to be smart. It doesn't seem to work.

Nolan rises and begins to look down towards the floor while he rubs his hands across the back of his neck awkwardly.

"I guess this is just my caring nature coming out to say hello..." He laughs awkwardly.

"I like it..." There is a moment of silence between us. I don't know what to do or say next. But I can tell neither does he. But then something magical starts to arise as Nolan takes a seat where he once was placed just a few seconds ago.

I noticed his hands as they begin to feel their way up my hand slowly making their way up to my arm.

My pulse elevates as I follow his hands with my eyes.

Fluttering my eyes down, I look towards his actions and bite my lip softly.

His touch is soft and contagious as I watch myself move closer towards him. The room is silent, the fire crackling to the side of us is the only sound and light shining upon our soft skins. Inching closer and closer towards him, I instantly feel an instant sharp brisk of coldness as I make contact with his body, gasping he notices.

Taking a deep breath, I carry on touching his cold skin. He slowly looks up towards me and moves his lips now closer to mine, now centimetres apart from my own. My insides turn velvet as I begin to feel weightless.

"I..." I begin to utter some words that probably won't make sense before Nolan thankfully pauses my speech.

"Shh..." I feel the vibrations of his words bounce off my skin as they contact.

"Don't... say.... another... word..." His lips are starting to connect with mine as I feel a fire emerge inside of me filling me with warmth. I can't take this much longer so I pull myself into him as our lips become fully sealed. He took a hungry possession over my mouth, almost like he was claiming it. He wanted it to be his, and secretly I did too.

We both start to fall more and more into a rhythm after every kiss, slow, hard and intense, my heart takes over as I begin to climb on top of his torso, I hear a silent whimper emerge from his mouth as I mount him.

My legs are now fully gripped round his thighs as I begin to move my hips gently making him desire more of me. I have finally got him right where I want him.

Never wanting this kiss to end, I continue with the rhythm we have got going, it feels freeing and electric to say the least, gripping his hair I pull his head back as I begin to leave kiss marks all the way down to his collarbone, making my mark upon his skin.

I leave wet trails upon his skin with every lingering kiss I plant.

This moment will live in my mind endlessly