its a FUCKING NIGHTMARE! || Blake Chorii I

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Okay.. I think.. I'm... bisexual. Yeah. I am.
For the past couple weeks, I think I kind of grew a crush on Vita. She's a lovely and quiet girl, and she's even pretty. I learned that her favorite color is light red and she's pansexual. I think I'm starting to love girls. Me and Vita are now friends on Instagram, and I feel supported now with her by my side, my follower, my friend. I.. I like her. Her light orange hair is.. unique, brushing against my skin as we sit by each other. I was gonna name it 'Extraordinary' But.. come to think about it, extraordinary is basically 'extra' and 'ordinary' put together. And ordinary means, same; plain and simple. My relationship with Florence the Torturous got worse, he bullies me a lot. But he doesn't mean it, I know this because sometimes he's really generous to me. I think he's trapped in a cage, because he's dating Constance. The annoying one, yeah, the one I told you about last time. Lynette spilled the tea and told me and Vita about her crush on Florence, and she told me not to tell anyone, but I know you want the tea too so I'm telling you. Thank you for listening to all my great memories. I'm not sure why you'd read this little chit chat of mine, I'm basically just talking lots and lots, like a chatterbox. I think you deserve some recognition to, so here's what I'm gonna do. brush brush. I hang the picture of me and you up on the wall, you're a simple mixed person, empty just like me. We're holding hands, and I like that. I hope you do too. You're amazing in my eyes, and that's the only thing that matters to me.
I told my mom I'm going to Vita's house and she didn't care. 
"Oh my goodness, Flor is so EEEE!! He's outstanding, right Vi?" Lynette says as I walk in Vita's room. I guess Lynette also came to Vita's house just like me. I see Florence sleeping on the bed. It's just like the sleepover night, huh? "Hi" I mumble. "ACK!" Lynette squeaked and Vita looked up at me and gave me a gentle smile. I smile back, blushing a little. "H-how long have you been here?" Lynette blushed. "I just came" I replied and sat down. "She's been squealing over Florence ever since he began sleeping" Vita told me. "Yeah...uh..I think I'm bisexual." I blurt. Lynette is surprised, and Vita gives no reaction. "Oh! Uh... yeah." Lynette shrugs. "Be who you are, hun." She then nods after a while and goes back about Florence. Vita looked at me and gave me an approving look. Thank God, otherwise It'd be a... homophobic disaster. What am I thinking? Vita is pansexual for fucks sake, of course she'd approve me. Haha, I'm so silly, aren't I? Lynette is straight though. Yeah, I mean I don't care if you're straight or not, but I rather talk about something else than Florence The Torturous. Suddenly, I hear a yawn. A big one.
I look around me and see Florence rubbing his eyes, and he immediately looks at me. "D-do you always have to be wherever V-vita is?" He mumbles and yawns again, getting off the bed, He has messy black hair, this time not braided, a black T-shirt and some jeans and he sits by Lynette, texting on his phone to whatever I think, its always gonna be Constance. He smiles tiredly at his phone in a loving way. He seems so deeply in love, but I feel like he's pretending in ways I will never comprehend. "Oh. Em. Gie, Flor!" Lynette hugged him. He hugged back, and patted her back. "Hey Lyns, how are you?" He says. Have I ever mentioned that their relationship grew a lot? "I'm thrilled!" Lynette replies and she reaches down for Florence's hand, intertwining with his fingers. His grip tightens. Vita doesn't say anything. I look down at Florences phone.

ML <3: Hey, wake up dirtbag <33
FLOR: Hello my luv!! Sorry babe I was asleep
ML <3: you're always asleep.
FLOR: I know, I know, I'm tired haha
ML <3: of course, you're on a comfy bed at your FEMALE FRIENDS HOUSE, leaving me to rot in agony and pain as I wait for your response
FLOR: I told you love, Lyns is like my little sister.
ML <3: Okieee, promiseee?
FLOR: Yes, promise ml!
ML <3: come over tmr 
FLOR: I will xx

Constance seems really annoying, and that, is in fact, a fact!
But before I could read the last 2 messages, Florence put his phone in his pocket. His fingers stop intertwining with Lynette, and he sighs. He looks at me, and I look at him. "What are you staring at? Dumbass." He frowns, and I get a little mad. Okay, if he continues this, I'm gonna-
"Florey, I missed you so much!" Lynette smiles thankfully and Florence laughs, still staring at me through the corner of his eye. I know this because I can sense it. "I'm not a dumbass" I mumble. "You sure are, since you basically keep staring. I'll have you hunted by my girlfriend and she'll chop you half if you keep on staring." Florence laughs cruelly to me. I feel.... I feel..
"Yeah, well I don't care if she chops me down, hunts me down, burns or stabs me, or even chokes me. I don't care, cause I know she won't. And I know you know that she won't." I snap. Vita looks at me, surprised, her jaw drops. Lynette stares and clings onto Florence. And, Florence snaps back. "Oh, shut up you dumb little brat, you're just an ungrateful piece of shit." He says. "And you're the one who has an annoying girlfriend" I yell back. "You jealous?" He smirks. I pause. "nnn..nghh.." I groan and cross my arms. He's right. I am jealous that he has a girlfriend. I'm jealous that he has a girlfriend and I don't have anyone to love. "...I am jealous. I want a girlfriend too." I admit it quietly. He continues smirking and laughs. "Oh, you little jealous brat, you want a girlfriend? No girl even likes you. It's gonna be one-sided love, and one-sided feelings, and you're never gonna make the decisions for yourself. Even if you had a girlfriend, she'd treat you like shit, a disgraceful little bitch. Because that's who you are," Florence pauses and grabs my shoulders. "A Blatch" He says, combining my name with bitch. Blatch Chorii. Make that Blatch Cuntrii. Every word he says hurts me, because I know its true. My love for Vita is probably one sided, and I don't respond. "I.." I try to think of a response, but nothing comes out. I push Florence away, and in slow motion, I see him have a look of surprise. and. resentment. I'm probably going crazy though. I march out the room and slam the door and I sit down on the bathroom door thinking. 
I think about last year, and him, and everyone that made me happy. I remember the dances and the love I had for him. That him is in another class that I'll barely see. And then I remember the memories, me sharing my lunch, and me feeling like a validated worthless piece of shit. And then I remember, that I have feelings, and I'll use them right now. I know you seen me cry a lot, but this time I start crying, and I can't hold back the noises. I sniffle and the tears start to sprout. This isn't stress, and this isn't sadness or any kind of Florence the Torturous resentment. This is something I need, something I feel so I'll use it. I try so hard to blink back the tears, but my left eye squeezes out a tear. It rolls down, and then  I start crying. I miss everything. 
The door opens and I look slowly at it, and its Vita. She sits by me and wipes my tears. "Oh, Blake... I'm so sorry" She whispers and hugs me. I start crying more and my hands shake as I put them around Vita. "I hate Florence.." I sob. Vita nods, understandingly. "I know, but he's always a jerk." she says. "I wish he had just moved away, from everyone." I grit my teeth. "Don't say that, Blake." Vita responds. I groan. "I know he's a jerk, but inside I'm sure he's a great person. Just spend more time with him, like Lynette does. If Lynette can do it, so do you" She says. "Vi, I'm not Lynette. And even if he is a 'great person', why can't he act like one? He should treat everyone equally" I make a fist. "Don't judge a book by its cover" Vita says, and I roll my eyes. What does she know about me and Florence? She's just a bystander. But then it happened. 

"Because one day that cover will rip, and then you'll have to read it."