Good Boy, Sad Girl

12: Danielle

This whole situation has brought out a whole new side of me. I'm a lot meaner than I thought I was.

I'm sitting in my trailer, looking outside the small window. The sky is a dark gray like it's going to rain again.

It's the perfect weather for how I feel right now.

I scroll through Instagram and check my DMs, and many messages from fans. I reply to a few people, and it helps lift my mood.

I open the following message from the author of Eyes Full of Stars.

HueyEugene: Hello! I'm so glad Eyes Full of Stars is being adapted into a movie, and I'm so happy with the cast they picked. You fit the role of Iris perfectly.

TheDanielleWoods: Hi! Thank you so much. Filming has been so much fun! Your novel is so beautiful, and I'm happy I can help turn it into a movie.

HueyEugene: Thank you! Those words mean a lot to me. I'm going to be there for the next two weeks to watch all of you guys film. I'm arriving Thursday, and I can't wait to see the process.

TheDanielleWoods: Wow! That's awesome. I can't wait to meet you!

The author is going to come to watch our film. This means I have to be on my best behavior and be nice to Noah.

I want to let him explain, but I honestly don't care anymore. I feel like things are beyond repair.

After a few minutes, it's officially time to film a scene together. I don't think I'm ready for it, but I don't have much choice.

I walk onto the set, and Noah sits on the bench waiting for me. I reluctantly walk over there and sit down.

"Hello, how are you?" He asks.

I try my hardest not to roll my eyes or make a snarky comment.

Allison calls to action, and Noah leans over to my shoulder and whispers something in my ear. I laugh and playfully push him away.

I will not let this whole situation phase my work, acting is what I've been working towards for six years, and I've finally gotten my lead role.

Noah and I hold hands as we walk through the built park set.

We have to do that scene about five times. Holding Noah's hand that long made me feel disgusted.

I don't even know if I'm just mad or if I just don't like him anymore.

We both had crushes on each other, which makes me wonder if he still likes me.

During our next break, I walk over to the snack table, grab a few things, and go to sit down. I take a bite of my bagel, and suddenly Aniyah sits down across from me.

"Good morning!" She says.

"Good morning," I mumble.

"What's wrong."

"Nothing, why?"

"Because you seem pissed off, you look like you want to murder me."

"Oh, I'm pretty sure you know why I'm mad."

"I do not. Do you care to tell me?"

"I liked Noah, and then you just came and stole him away from me."

I quickly get up and throw the rest of my food away. She tries to say something, but I walk out of the door before she can finish her sentence.

I march over to my trailer and slam the door behind me.

Nothing can ever just go right for me, can it?

I didn't expect the acting to be this stressful and problematic. I didn't expect to fight with every single person I worked with.

I hate everything.

I feel tears prickling at the corner of my eyes.

Noah Beck... what have you done to me?

We're at a new set, and it's a flower garden surrounded by bushes and trees.

There is a bench and fairy lights, it's a gorgeous set, and I'm so happy to get to film here.

I ask Noah to take a picture of me sitting on the bench. I pick up an iris to smell for the photo.

He takes the picture and hands me back my phone.

"Thank you!"

"You're welcome!" He smiles.

His smile is so bright, and I love it. However, I am still mad at him.

I posted the picture: I found my twin on set today! (An iris flower, my character is named Iris... you get it?) Only a few more weeks of filming. This has been such a fantastic experience.

I want to forgive Noah, we weren't dating, but I just wish he would have told me that he likes Aniyah.

Am I unreasonable?

I sit in the middle of the flower garden and run my hand through all the flowers, and Noah sits down next to me and does the same.

"It's a beautiful set," He says. "It reminds me of you."

I feel myself start to blush, but I keep a straight face

"That's nice of you," I say.

***

I grab Noah's hand and drag him into the secret garden. We're both smiling.

We sit on the bench, and I rest my head on his shoulder. I inhale his cologne because I've missed that scent.

We look at all the flowers, and he picks one up and hands it to me. "Beautiful, just like you," he says.

I smile and look into his eyes.

"CUT! That was perfect!" Allison exclaims.

Maybe this won't be too bad. I just have to take some time to prepare myself to film with him.

I am having fun filming this movie. No matter what happens or happens next, I am ready.

Noah Beck will not ruin my debut movie.