Dear Oppa,

Yifan's Letter To EXO L's

Note:

Bwisit ka Kris! Minumulto mo ko eh. Di ako pinatulog nito hanggat di ko nasusulat. Langya. Ayan na. May test pa kami bukas. Patulugin mo na ko please.[150719]

-Jihwanxxi

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Dear Aeri,

Remember when I was still one of your PETER PAN's? The times when I made HISTORY on EXO Showtime? Guess what? I never really forgot all of them. I tried but how could I forget something so BEAUTIFUL? Those memories were more precious than a BLACK PEARL. I know I've disappointed you but trust me, I never meant to HURT anyone of you. You've taught me WHAT IS LOVE and despite everything that happened, you still chose to become my ANGEL.

I'm sorry if you think I turned my back on you even if you begged so many times BABY, DON'T GO. It took all of my willpower not to stop and come back to whisper BABY DON'T CRY. If only I could use TIME CONTROL, I'd happily fulfill my promise to stay with them until the end. But you see, there are RUN AND GUN moments that prevent me from doing so.

I know that a thousand sorry's and thank you's will never be enough to answer the WHAT IF's that you have. I know that it will take a lot of CHRISTMAS DAYs to heal the wounds I've left but I'm still hoping for MIRACLES IN DECEMBER to find a way. I'm hoping that someday you will be as happy again as the sight of the FIRST SNOW.

I deeply apologize if you think I've taken Luhan and Tao along with me like a PHOENIX waiting to attack. But I want you to know that we're still here. That you haven't done anything wrong. You LOVEd ME RIGHT all along. But there are times when you have to obey your MAMA's words even if your heart says otherwise. It's sad when you have to choose between what makes you happy and what is right. I'm sorry for letting you feel an OVERDOSE of pain when we left.

I know you guys are just waiting for MY ANSWER. But if you'll ask me,  I will still do the things I did now because I'd rather disappoint you for leaving than disappoint you for not being able to perform well onstage. My members have worked hard for what they have now. I don't want to ruin it just because I can't perform like a GROWLing WOLF just like before. My health is already declining and I don't want you to forget me like a MACHINE that became outdated through time. Acting takes less energy than performing onstage and getting an hour of sleep. I just couldn't LET OUT THE BEAST anymore. Still, thank you for supporting me even if I'm JUST ANOTHER GUY. You will still be MY LADY, my FIRST LOVE no matter what.

I know that my decisions had hit you like THUNDER and the pain was worse than a HEART ATTACK. Sorry for letting you feel betrayed. But it pains me more knowing that you didn't know the reason why I left. I guess the pain I'm feeling now is my EXODUS. It's MY TURN TO CRY.

Please bear in mind that I'll never forget how it feels to become a part of your lives. Please keep supporting EXO. I'll always watch after them as their leader--even if I'm not part of them anymore. Words could not express how LUCKY I am to have you by my side. Thank you for believing in me.

You'll still CALL ME BABY, right? Thank you for the LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. I'll miss all the XOXO and TENDER LOVE you give me 365 days a year. Although I wanted to RUN and just go back, this is for the best.

I promise you that I will not become a PLAYBOY and flirt with LADY LUCKs while I'm away.

I'm still wishing upon THE STAR for time to become a TRANSFORMER and take me back to the start. I wish that someday I can finally fulfill the PROMISE we made under the TWO MOONS  and once again see their smiles that shone underneath the MOONLIGHT. The PROMISE to become complete and perform on the same stage again. To once again become OT12. And from there, as I watch them welcome me back home with OPEN ARMS, is where I can finally find my EL DORADO.

-Kris(Wu Yi Fan)