Choosing Jada [Book 2]

Missing You

I jolted awake from the soft, warm bed. I didn't remember the last time I woke up, and Matteo had to be hungry. The room was empty, and my mind remembered that Alessio had taken our son for the night. It was the crack of dawn, light barely spilling into the room under the blinds. I moved around slowly until I found the door. 

My eyes adjusted along the way so I could see decently. I opened the door and was able to see Alessio sleeping on the couch. As I approached, I could see Matteo snuggled onto his chest, sleeping peacefully. Disturbing them was a bad idea, so I backed up and slowly went up the stairs into the main house. It was quiet, but much better to get a snack here than to wake up Matteo and Alessio. I opened the fridge, illuminating the dark kitchen. I used it as a light and went digging around softly until I found a cut. The second door had a water dispenser, so I used it to fill my glass and down the water. I drank the water quietly; the house was erie, but the silence was nice. It was hard not to feel on edge anyway.

After everything that had piled up over what felt like forever, I had not gotten a chance to breathe. I was reminded constantly how dire this situation was. It was hard to feel safe; the closest I got to that was Alessio. Even now he struggled, but he was trying. Everything was hard, and it was so much to keep up with. I kept running into death and falling just short. Everything that happened felt so surreal; it's like it wasn't me owning this. I felt the sudden taste of salt in my mouth, and I realized I was crying. I wiped my face, trying to compose myself, and took slow, deep breaths. The sudden arms wrapping around me scared me, and I pushed the person away and turned around wildly. My heartbeat was in my ear, and my stomach had dropped.

"It's just me, Jada," Alessio said softly.

I sighed in relief.

"You scared me; I thought you were sleeping."

"I was. Are you okay?" He asked.

I don't know why he decided to ask that now or why that triggered anything, but my eyes welled up. I was stressed out and been pretty tired throughout this whole thing, and all I wanted was for everything to be okay. I would take it all back. I would have stayed with Alessio; things would have been better and easier. The tears spilled out of my eyes, and I covered my mouth to stop the loud sob from escaping. Alessio quickly pulled me into his big embrace and hugged me tight. I had no idea what would happen next. More people would come after us, and I just wanted us all to stop. I'm tired of it. I just want it to stop.

"I'm sorry, Jada; I know how much harm this is doing to you. I promise you, I have been doing everything to protect you. From here on out, I promise you nothing but complete protection. No one will ever lay another hand on you or our child. You will be allowed to relax, and hopefully I can bring back a smile again," Alessio said to me. 

His embrace was warm, and I just felt more and more guilty about how everything turned out. How I made everything worse. I wanted it to end, and I wanted him to do it because he was the only person I trusted with my life whole heartedly. I cried more into his chest, for what felt like forever. He was gently to me and just held me until I finally calmed down, and we just stood there in each other's arms. I didn't want to fight this; I just wanted something to bring me happiness and peace. I had Matteo, and he was great but was a tough thing to handle alone. I wanted Alessio to bring me peace. I pull back and look at him.

"I'm sorry for what I did. For lying and for leaving. I thought I was doing the right thing at the time," I said.

"I know you did," he said, brushing my tears away.

I look at him for a moment, then lean in and kiss him. He kisses back, bringing the passion as we lock in close. My arms go around his neck, and his hands snake around my waist, pulling me flush against him. My breath is heavy as we kiss like this for awhile until I feel him lift me on the counter. His hands run up and under my shirt, touching my bare skin and causing a gasp. His tongue slips into my mouth and swirls around, and I moan against his lips more. He breaks our kiss long enough to pull my shirt off before capturing my lips again. He moved down to my neck, placing slow nips and kisses along me. I let out a low moan as my head went up. He grips my hips roughly, pulling me close to the edge.

"Fuck, I've missed you," he mumbles onto my neck. The vibrations were calming. He took a deep breath of me.I tilted my head upright and looked at him in the dark kitchen. I could make out his dark brown eyes as he looked up at me. I kiss him again, just wanting what we had before again. I pulled at his shirt, breaking out a kiss just enough to pull off his shirt. I felt along his chest, feeling his heart pound. I felt him pull against my pants. I hold on to his shoulder and pull up panting as our kiss broke again. He pulled my pants and underwear down. To both our surprise, we heard a door open.

"Shit," he says with heavy breath, picking me up off the counter and taking us both downstairs.

He sets my naked self on the couch. As I look down, my bra is wet from my milk.

"Give me a minute," Alessio said, heading back up stairs. 

I just nodded, incredibly turned on and embarrassed. I could hear some soft words from upstairs, and then a few minutes later Alessio comes back down with my clothes over his shoulder.

"It was just Justin and the crew. They got worried." He said trailing off. I turn my head and cover my face, feeling so embarrassed.

"You're so worried over nothing; I kept you hidden," he said, standing next to me, his voice still low.

"Come here," he said, taking my hand and pulling me and past the sleeping boy, then into the room, closing the door.

"I'll take you right here if you want me too," he said as he pulled me close to him.I bit my lip at him.

"I'm leaking," I say. He looks a bit confused.

"Milk. I need to pump. I don't have one, so I need a bottle for now," I say.

"Then we can?" Alessio asked.

"Yes. It's not super hot to leak milk all over people, you know?," I tell him.

"Says you. I don't care," he says with a familiar smirk. 

I shake my head and point to the door. He nods with a smile plastered on his face. A smile I had not seen since we got married, I swear. It was nice to see him like this again.

A/N- Thanks so much for waiting for me! I appreciate at every reader, every person who likes the chapter and comments. Ya'll keep me going. We have 4 more chapters left! I am hoping to finish soon! By the end of the year or the first 2 weeks of January! I am so excited to finish this story! Follow me for more too and all my updates! Oh new update next week before I forget. Already ready :)