In another life

14

One last chapter of bliss for my favs :)

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Carly left only a few minutes before Mia and Elsie walked through the door. Izzy was feeling a little bit better but was sleeping in bed by the time they got home and Elsie decided she wanted to make a card for her and ran right upstairs.

I made Mia and I a coffee as we sat in the kitchen,
"Thank you for today, you didn't have to do that"
"Oh it's no problem, I never knew a primary school could have so much boyfriend drama"
"Boyfriend drama?"
"Elsie told me about her friends boyfriend playing another girl, moved on to a new boy pretty quick though. It's like love island at lunch time"

"They're six year olds? Wait, does Elsie have a boyfriend?" She's far too little to even know what that means, Jason wouldn't like it at all.
"I'm not aloud to say" she smirks.
"Mia?"
"Elsie made me promise!"
"I won't tell her! Come on you're supposed to my friend"
"What if I don't want to be your friend" oh? Oh!

"Sorry" she smirks as I can feel my face go red hot. Shit. I drink some of my coffee to try and hide it which makes her smile even more. I do like her smile. She's gorgeous.
"Promise not to tell her?" I nod my head. Oh my gosh my little baby had a boyfriend doesn't she?
"Her boyfriend is a year older than her" she whispers. WHAT

"What? She shouldn't even have boyfriends she's only a baby!"
"Relax sweetheart it's just a little fun, they're kids. They don't even know what it means" I guess but still.
"She's growing up too fast I hate it"
"Just wait until she's fifteen"
"Oh stop it" I nudge her arm to wipe that silly smirk off of her face but it only makes it bigger. Ugh.

"Mum?" Izzy walks in the kitchen grabbing my attention,
"Hi darling, how are you feeling?"
"A little better. Hi Mia"
"Hey sweetheart"
"Izzy!" Elsie comes running in,
"Hi Elsie how was school?"
"It was good. I made you this" she gives her a little card and my heart just melts,
"Thank you"
"Hey girls, what do you think about me getting us some pizza, huh?"
"Yeah! And can we have a special sleepover?" The 'special sleepovers' was something I've done with the girls a few times. We would just bring all the blankets downstairs and watch movies in the living room.
"Sounds good to me" I agree. It is a school night but I think they need this, especially Izzy.

It didn't take long for Elsie to change into pyjamas and bring her blankets down to the living room, I went upstairs to my room to grab the things off my bed and change. Mia walks in just as I'm grabbing some clothes
"Need any help?"
"Sure, thank you. Are you staying? Do you need some clothes?"
"It's alright sweetheart I'll pick some up on the way to get the pizza" I nod my head and pick up my joggers, "is that alright, if I stay?"
"Of course it is. The girls really like you and the more the merrier"
"I really like the girls too. You know, we still haven't really talked"
"I know. And we should, but can we just have tonight?" I know we need to talk properly about whatever is going on between us. I mean, we're friends. But I've kissed her twice now and that's not exactly what I do with friends. Or anyone. It's so out of character for me I think I'm going crazy. Mia makes me crazy.

"Of course we can, but can I ask you one thing?"
"What is it?" She closes the gap between us,
"Can I kiss you?" I probably should say no but I find myself nodding as she rests her hand on my hip and pulls me in more. Her lips softly connect with mine and once again the world spins around us, yet it's like nothing else matters.

She pulls away slightly and I just want her lips back on mine, what the hell am I doing?! She smiles and steps back and it feels as though something's been ripped away from me. The feeling of her being so close to me is enough to make me crazy.

I stand there like an idiot unable to move as I watch her go towards my bed and grab my quilt cover. Jesus Christ what am I doing here? What am I thinking? Mia? Seriously?

I shake out of my thoughts and realise I'm still holding my joggers,
"I'm just gonna change, I'll bring the pillows down too"
"Okay sweetheart"

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Mia left after I changed and the girls and I set up the living room while she was gone. I still have the fairy lights up from Elsie's birthday as I thought they looked quite pretty so I plugged them back in. Elsie brought down at least 20 of her teddies, but her collection is a lot more. Her favourite teddy is the little white bunny Mia got her for her birthday, she has barely let go of it since. It's adorable.

Once Mia arrived with the pizza we watched inside out per Izzy's request. If only there was an emotion to describe how I feel about Mia. I care about her, she's fun, she makes me laugh. When I'm with her I feel free, happy, she's helped me a lot and I don't even think I realised it. But when I'm not with her I just feel alone and I don't know... empty? What emotion is that? Love? Do I love her?

Do I love Mia?

"You okay sweetheart?" My head snaps towards her,
"Yeah I'm fine" I smile,
"Mummy can I please have some juice?" Elsie lifts her head up,
"Of course sweetie, I'll be back in a minute" I can feel Mia's eyes staring as I walk out of the room. She knows I'm not 'fine' I could tell by her face when I said it. She knows me too well. I just don't know if that's good or bad anymore.