Paradise In Your Eyes (Street Series #6)

Chapter 10

Chapter 10: Death

I don't know what to say or how to react. I was too stunned by the betrayal that pierced through my heart. 

Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko at naging blangko ang utak. My heart started to crumple like paper and it's painful due to the poke of a pen. 

They're both happy and enjoying the kiss under the moonlight and in the dark. How romantic. 

The guy is handsome and tall like me. I watched how Arkus' arm snaked around her neck claiming the comfort that a one person could give. 

Nakita ako ni Arkus kaya ganoon nalang ang gulat niya at muntik na niyang itulak ang lalaki. 

I smiled painfully as I turned my back and walked away from them. 

Tulala ako sa tricycle hanggang sa makauwi ako ng bahay. Nagsimula ng bumuhos ang mga salita at sitwasyon sa aking utak.

The image of him kissing the guy was framed and put on the wall of my hippocampus. It....hurts.

Never in my deepest thought that Arkus would do that to me. I guess that expecting too much is idealistic especially to someone who, in the first place, didn’t allow you to know him. 

Kilala ko ba talaga si Arkus? Ang sagot? Hindi. I may know his facade but the inner core of his personality is foreign to me. The fact that I expect too much is a foolish part of me. 

Should I cry? I felt so betrayed! This feels like someone who I trust with all my heart pushes me to the cliff. This is the feeling when someone points a finger at you in a court even though they know that you’re not the suspect. This feels like the greatest betrayal. I'm so hurt.

I'm hurting but I didn't cry and I don't know why. I woke up with an empty mind and didn't know how to feel. 

My mind was clouded. Hindi ko nga namalayan na tulala na pala akong naglalakad sa campus. Iniisip ko pa rin ang nasaksihan kagabi. Panaginip ba 'yun? 

"Huy, Miko!" umakbay sa akin si Sam.

Doon palang ako natauhan. Kumurap kurap ang mga mata ko at tiningnan ang kaibigan.

"Lutang? Kanina pa kita tinatawag! Hindi mo pa nasintas ang sapatos mo! Ayos ka lang?" He said like a rapper.

Tumingin ako sa sapatos kong hindi nakabuhol ang sintas. I sighed and swallowed hard so I felt the bitterness of my throat. 

Tahimik ako buong araw. Maingay ang dalawa kong kaibigan at kabaligtaran naman ako. Aksidente akong napatingin sa bintana nang makita ko kung sino ang dumaan.

It was the guy he was hugging and kissing last night. 

"Siya ba yung kapatid ni Felix?" narinig kong usapan ng mga tao sa likod ko.

"Oo. Si Auger. Ang pogi no?" 

"Totoo. Mas pogi pa kay Felix. May jowa na kaya 'yan?"

"Wala ata? But he looks so nice and friendly. Hindi dito 'yan nag grade 11. Nag transfer lang," 

Auger. What a name. 

Nakaupo lang naman ako pero hinihingal ako at madiin na ang hawak ko sa pen. Am I mad? I am.

I’m so mad seeing him because I saw how Arkus' eyes were glimmering that night while staring at him. He was so fucking amused. 

However, am I allowed to be mad?

Class has ended for that day. I'm emotionally tired when I should be physically tired. 

Bagsak ang balikat habang naglalakad sa corridor. Papunta na ako sa dalawa kong kaibigan. It's the two of them after all.