Straykids Sickfics and Onshots

Hyunjin-Nightmares

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Bullying 

Nightmares  

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Hyunjin POV

"OMG is that Hyunjin from Straykids???" "Yeah, he got so fat." "He needs to leave straykids...for good this time." "Yikes, you call that a visual." People kept whispering about me nearby. They think I can't hear them but I can. Loud and clear. Maybe their right. Maybe I'm just a failure and a burden to this whole group. How could I have been so blind not to see my ugly smile.

" I think he should start eating less." Yeah I probably should start losing weight. "Ew his teeth are crooked." I perhaps should get braces then. "Hahaha look at him what a loser. He can't even dance right." I could practice more. 

Everyone comes up to me and saying rude things about me. "You need to start rapping better." Someone says. I realize that voice is Bangchans. My members are insulting me too. 

"-jin. "Hyunjin!" I hear someone yell my name, its Han. I shoot up and sit up straight in my bed. I notice I'm breathing heavily and I'm also sweating quite a bit. "Hyunjinnie are you okay?" Han asks. "Huh? Oh I'm fine. Just another nightmare." I tell him. "Again? I'm gonna tell Chan-" Han says. "No! I-I mean I'm fine, honestly." I shot back. Han eyes me for a bit before saying, "Okay..." Then he leaves the room.

The truth is, I'm not fine. Not one bit. I've been having these terrible nightmares lately and very frequently. LIke every night I would try to fall asleep but end up dreaming about people hovering over me and calling me names and bullying and yelling at me, even my own members. I know there not real but is what there saying true? Maybe I am just a fat, talentless, ugly Korean boy.

"Hyunjin! For the love of God, get your ass up and get ready to leave!" Lee Know shouts at me. This sounds a lot like my nightmares. "G-get ready? For wh-what?" I stutter. I was never told that something was happening. "Oh my fucking gosh seriously!? That's it, Chan can deal with you." He muttered and then left. 

Soon, Bangchan came to me and he looked annoyed. "Hyunjin do you seriously have no idea what's happening?" He asks me. I shake my head. Everyone hates me now. I'm just holding them up. He sighs, "Well today we have to film for a episode then we have rap practice. We were supposed to get to the set at 3:00 and what time is it now?" I swallow and check my phone, "3:26..." I mumbled. "Exactly. Now hurry up and get ready we'll be waiting in the car." He glances at his watch and then says,"If you're not in the car in 5 minutes, we're leaving." He informs me and proceeded out the door into the car with the other members.

Bangchan POV

What's going on with Hyunjin? He won't tell me anything. All he told me was that he was sleepy but he has been saying that every day. A more bigger problem is going on with him and I'm determined to find out what that is.

"Where's Hyunnie?" Jeongin asks. "He's still getting ready." I say sighing. I pull out my phone and checkthe time. 3:34. It's been 8 minutes. Where the hell is that guy? "You guys I'm going to go check on Hyunjin. I'll be right back."

I go back inside the house to find Hyunjin. I can't seem to find him anywhere. But suddenly I hear muffled sniffles coming from inside the bathroom. I'm positive thats Hyunjin. I knock on the dorms. "Jinne are you there?" I ask in a soft voice. No answer, just more sniffling. "Okay, I'm coming in now okay?" I said. Still no response so I slowed open the door to find Hyunjin sitting on the ground, his knees pulled up close to his chest and his face burried in his knees. And he seems to be... crying?

"Oh Hyunjin what happened? Is everything okay?" I ask sitting down beside him. He shakes his head aggressively while saying, "No nothing is okay!" He's really upset. "Can you tell me what's wrong?" I asked. He takes a deep breath and lifts his head from knees revealing his red, tear stained face. "Hyung, I've been having these dreams about everyone saying how terrible I am and that I'm putting the group down. Even you guys were saying it." Hyunjin admitted. 

"Hyunjin do you believe that?" I ask him. He just shrugged. "Well, I don't. I know that you're an awesome and talented guy. You shouldn't let random people tell you otherwise. And we'll never say anything like that to you." I reply. "Yeah but this morning I woke up and everyone was just shouting at me." He starts to sob again. "Well me and Minho we're just a bit stressed this morning. I'll tell him to manage his anger better and so will I." I respond, dabbing his tears away with a tissue. 

"Thanks hyung." He says. "It's not a problem Hyunnie, just tell me when you have those nightmares again, yeah?" "Ok I will." He answers. Without thinking much about it I begin to hug him. He hugged me back and cried into my shoulder. 

I'm still taking requests btw, but I won't be writing a lot this week due to Thanksgiving. So have a good rest of your day/night and have a great Thanksgiving! (if you celebrate it) 🦃

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