Straykids Sickfics and Onshots

Seungmin-Worth it? pt 2

Okay so @cutekitty63 and@Lavender_Mxtcha asked for a part so here you go

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self harm

suicidal thoughts

mentions of suicide

death

y'all be prepared cuz I don't think you guys are ready for this

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"Why hyung?" Jeongin says in a small voice. That makes me break and tears flow down my face as I keep my head down. "It's just that everything is too much. There's always some hate about me everywhere. Then I wonder if this is really worth it, with all the pain I've been through. I just wanna die..." I cried, while whispering in the last sentence.

After that moment Seungmin quickly retreated to his room away from everyone else. All the members tried to get him out of the room. They didn't know what he could be doing in their. For all they knew he could be cutting, or worse.

"Seungmin please open the door. We're all worried about you!" Han said. No response again. Han began to cry because of the fear of losing Seungmin. "Please Min, I need you. We all do..."

"Hyung, what should we do?" Jeongin asked Chan. "I don't...I don't know." He replied softly running a hand through his hair. 

It's been a couple hours since Seungmin locked himself in the room. The rest of them sat at the dining table and brainstormed. "Hyung, what if he-" Han started to say but he was quickly interrupted by Chan, "He didn't. He didn't." Hyunjin started to cry at just the thought of Seungmin doing suicide. "Hyunjin its okay. He wont." Minho said, trying to convince himself but at this point he didn't know what was true.

Felix went towards Seungmin's door and knocked softly. "Seungmin. Please we all love you don't listen to what other people say." No answer once again. "Seungmin, respond to me please!!!" Felix cried loudly. Nothing. Felix was certain that Seungmin had done it.

"You guys!" Changbin calls

Seungmin POV

I lock myself in my room. Now I'm sure I want to end this now. If I don't it will be just as bad. I'll be known as the psycho of the group and no one will ever see me the same. I don't want that. Then I hear knocking on my door. All my members are their asking me to come out and that their worried. "Seungmin please open the door. We're all worried about you!" I hear Han's voice. I don't respond and then he starts to cry. 

Gosh, I'm such a terrible person. What kind of member makes their other members cry. I'm such a jerk. 

If I die I wont have to burden them with my problems and my thoughts of death. 

If I die there's no more worrying my members, because I'll be dead.

If I die it'll just be better for everyone.

And I'm not being selfish technically it's for the best. Right?

And then I grab the pocket knife that I've been holding for and I go to the bathroom. 

(He has one of those bedrooms that have a bathroom in it)

I fill up the tub so it's filled almost to the brim. I step in the bathtub with my clothes on and then-

3rd person POV

"You guys!" Changbin yells. All the members rush towards him. Changbin holds up a key. "The key to Seungmins bedroom!" Jeongin says. They all run to the bedroom and Changbin unlocks it. There's nothing to be found in his room. 

Then they here Felix screeching from inside the bathroom. The 6 of them ran like their lives depended on it and when they entered they all wish that they didn't.

Because sure enough there was their second maknae lying in the tub. Lifeless.

I'm sorry for this chapter guys. It was a bit too much. Im not gonna lie, I literally cried while reading this.