My Favourite Unfinished

Chapter 8

I felt a hand pushing me, it was Kai.

"The fuck are you doing? Follow her, idiot!"

I nodded frantically as I strided out of the hall, following her.

Once I was out of the hall, I saw her, rubbing her elbows briskly.

The music was muffled in the background, and my chest was heaving up and down.

"Aadhvita...", I called gently.

No response.

"Please talk...", I pleaded.

No response. Again.
I exhaled sharply, walking towards her.
I stopped at a convenient distance.

"Aadhvita.. I am sorry."

I gripped my dress tightly, trying to keep myself grounded.
I exhaled shakily and tried again, "I am sorry."

She turned around, finally.
And she was crying.

"Oh god— I didn't mean to make you cry. I am sorry. Please... Just..", I reached out to touch her but couldn't.

"Why the hell did you do that?", she asked, her voice cracking.

I swallowed, "I couldn't hold it in anymore, it's okay if you don't feel—"

She cut me off, "What's your goal?"

"Huh?"

"What do you expect from this? If we get into a relationship", her voice was more firm now.

"I... I don't think it's an expectation but I want it to be serious", I said locking my gaze with her letting her know I was serious.

"Serious as in? You want it to go till marriage right?"

I was caught off guard, "Yeah.. yeah of course if you feel the same"

"I can't give you that future."

Her dad. Yes, "Wha- why?"

"I told you, my dad is strict."

I thought so, "How will he know!?", I asked my voice raising just the slightest.

"If we want it to be serious, we have to tell our parents in the future"

"Yeah but—"

She shook her head, "He will never approve me of marrying you"

I walked closer, the distance just millimetres away.

"Why are you worrying about it now? We are just 18"

"I am right though, am I not?"

I took a deep breath, it's getting to me, "I know we have to worry about the future and all but can't you see the present? Like what's going on right now"

"What's the point to see the present if you know there is no future?"

Okay fuck it.

"For God's sake, Aadhvita! Fuck the future I want to be with you now! Hold you, pamper you, kiss you! If we are serious, if we are meant to be, I am ready to face the hardships as long as you are with me!", I yelled, but thanks to the music no one actually heard it.

"Ami, I understand your emotions but—"

I cut her off this time, "You didn't answer my confession"

"What?"

"You heard me, you didn't answer my confession, Aadhvita", my heart was beating fast. My emotions were on haywire, anger and desperation mixing with vulnerability.

She looked down.

"Look at me and answer my confession."

"Calm down—"

"Calm down? Calm down...? Oh my god...", I ran a hand through my hair, frustrated, "Seriously... You are being so paranoid"

She took a deep breath, "Whatever you think, I am avoiding this so that we both won't get hurt"

"Just because you think your dad won't agree to this. Right?"

She looked down.

I continued, "It's shitty. Honestly."

"I am sorry... Okay? I just don't want either of us to get hurt."

"Listen here, your dad lives in India, which is 9 hours 30 minutes ahead of USA"

"I know that"

"So chances of him finding out unless you tell him? Zero"

She exhaled, "I dont feel the same, happy now?"

"And you want me to believe that after you were being paranoid about us"

"I don't care what it sounded like. Thats all that is there to it"

I bit my lip, taking a deep breath, "I said it once, I will say it again. All I care about is, now. I want to be with you, I don't care if I am sounding desperate. I just want to be with you..."

I continued, "You are driving me crazy, Aadhvita. Since the first time I saw you, you never exited my mind. And God knows how I wanted to feel your warmth... I don't care what the future holds for us. I don't care if it's temporary. I just wanna feel you. I just wanna know what it's like to be with a girl as amazing as you."

"I like you, Aadhvita. And I am serious. It's not a fling or an attraction, I genuinely like you. I fought with myself, doubting my sexuality for you. And I... I wanna be with you even if it's for a short period of time..."

I was crying already.

She exhaled shakily, "It would have been different if you were a guy."

And that, is the best thing you could ever say to a girl who mustered up courage for months just to let you know she liked you.

I frowned, "Oh... Just because I am a girl my feelings dont matter right?"

Yes. I lost my composure and was talking purely on instinct.

"No that's not—"

"Yes you did! May it be intentionally or unintentionally, but that's what you meant!", My voice rose again.

"Ami—"

"Stop calling me that!"

I was afraid if I was there any longer I might say something reckless, so I wiped my tears off my face and walked away from her.

"It would have been different if you were a guy"
Yeah right.

Then, we went into a temporary 'no-talking' period.