His Sword || Edmund Pevensie x reader

Chapter 4: WHAT IS HAPPENING

That night, I rushed into my room, freaking out as the moonlight filled the room.

It's getting worse. We were just having a normal conversation..When..My heart..My stomach.. My actions..My mouth..My brain.. I couldn't function normally.. Not around him..

WHAT

IS

HAPPENING?

I don't know what is going on..

But I need to figure it out before it gets worse and he starts to think I'm weirder than I already am.

My spiral of over-thinking thoughts were interrupted when Susan came in and knocked on my door.

"Y/n," She called and I turned around and replied in a hum, "We're all at the garden if you want to join us,"

The garden.. Memories of yesterday flooded in about Edmund.. He actually liked talking to me.. Me thinking about that made heat flush to my face.

"Oh," I began, "I'll join you guys" I said and painted a smile on my face before following her to the garden.

"Should I ask her about..it..? Maybe she knows..?" I thought to myself "I need to crush these feelings before it gets in the way of normal lif-" then it hit me..Crush..? I heard the girls in my class talking about..

Do I..have a crush on Edmund..?!?! NO WAY..right..?

I felt my heart skip beats as I thought about it while walking next to Susan.. My stomach feeling like it's tied in knots and my face feeling..strange.

I..Guess I have a crush on Edmund..But..What do I do..?

I guess Susan realized I was stressed out as she suddenly stopped walking.

"Y/n," She began "Is everything okay? You seem..stressed..?"

I wanted to tell her, to get advice from her, but.. Wouldn't it be weird if i were to..you know..have a crush on her brother..?!?

But when I saw her gentle expression, I knew I could trust her, trust that she wouldn't judge me. So..

I told her.

Everything.

She wasn't judgy about it, rather..understanding?

"Oh, I see." She said,

"I just," I began while leaning on the wall, knowing I was about to ramble on about him. "I never felt this way before and i'm not sure what to do.."

To my surprise, she gave me..advice? Like..Actual advice.. On how to process my feelings and what to do with them..

After a long time of..that conversation –which actually really helped me with my feelings and helped me process everything from getting advice from someone older than me– She realized that we should get to the garden soon.

"Come on then," She said while stepping forward "We got our friends waiting on us.

I nodded and followed her.

I'm so glad I have Susan as a friend, and at least I know I'm not weird..Well..Not THAT weird.. 

A/N: Hey guys! Sorry that this chapter is short but I guess I'm in my Hamilton era since I've been updating like crazy! I hope you enjoyed reading as much as I enjoyed writing this. Thanks for reading!

~Signing off