Come Back, A Vikklan FanFic

Chapter 19 Stay

Lachlan POV

We finish up our trip to the park and head home. My mind has made up it's mind. Once everyone is asleep, I'll do it. No one would care if I die, they will be happy that they don't have to worry about me.

I bet even my parents don't care. I have been talking to them, trying not to cry, but it just bursts out suddenly. They take care of me, but I can tell that they are tired of doing it. Anyone would, actually.

Something keeps telling me that it is in my mind, but I know it isn't. I've been this way even before Vikk died. My life just wasn't that good.

Flashback

School was never kind to me. Sure, I got great grades and such, but it was difficult for me. I would get ignored, put in the shadows, be that one kid that never talked.

I never put up my hand to answer things. I never go called on to read. I would never get picked to be partners with someone because no one liked me. I would always do my work myself, and I think I did better that way.

I was a mute my whole life until I started to watch YouTube. It helped me so much, gave me confidants, realised me from my hole. It helped me for about two years, then the hole came back when I got into high school.

The bullies, the laughs, the torture, no one helped me. I was the only one that got bullied. I never did anything to them at all. I may be tall, but that didn't stop them. I was one of the weakest people in the whole school.

I could tell they also had a bad life, just putting it out on me. I try to tell myself that, but it never worked. It made my hole bigger until I couldn't get out.

The worst part is that I kept this all in. I never told anyone. I may have never cut back then, but I wanted to so bad. I wanted to find a rope and tie it to my neck and let me hang. I wanted to get a knife and stab myself. I wanted to be free, until I met Vikk.

He helped me so much. We met by him coming to me to see if I wanted to record with him. I took up the chance, and it was the best choice I ever did.

I never knew that he was going though the same thing. I wish that I told him. I wish that I told him how much he was helping me, and how much I gained feelings for him. If I did that, he wouldn't have fallen for Preston and killed himself for him.

Flashback over

I get pulled from my thoughts by felling the car suddenly stop. I look out the window to see the house. I un buckle and open the door. I glance at Preston, if looks could kill, he would be toppled over dead. He is the reason that I am depressed again. If he didn't exist, Vikk would be alive and well right now.

Rob unlocks the house door and we all walk in. I walk up into my room and I lay there, collecting my thoughts. I just wish I could go back in time to when life was easy. When I was fine.

But most of all, I just want to see Vikk. Would he want to see me, or would he want me to live my life. You never know, he could be trying to come back. Oh well, the world would be so much better if I was gone.

I lift my head and look out the window. The sun was just setting. I stand up and go by my window to look at it. The suns glare being a red and blue gleam, looking like Vikks logo.

It is as if it is telling to keep trying, but I lost my own fight. I can't do this anymore. Once depression hits, it hits harder than ever before. It keeps you down when you are trying to get up.

I am trying to stay, I really am, but my fight just won't last long. But I'll try. I need to keep going for as long as I can. But you never know when I will snap. I'll try to stay for Vikk.

He has helped me stay this far, he wouldn't want me to fail yet. So I won't, I won't take my life. I'll just man up and deal with it. That is what Vikk wants for you.

"Lachlan! Come down here! We want to play some smash bros!" I heard Mitch call. I sigh, putting my fingers though my blond hair, and walk down the stairs.