Her return 

Remembering

Adeline's pov

I slowly open my blurry and tired eyes to the sun shining through my large window at my balcony yet again, I find my self all curled up in bed last thing I remember was watching a movie and then in Alex's arms I must of fallen asleep, I smile a little thinking about it how good it felt I must be getting comfortable with them-

I immediately cut if my train of thoughts

Wait- no I can't trust them, god what am I even thinking I hardly know them sure they're my brothers but so was my dad.. he was my dad wasn't he? He raised me didn't he? but he still did the unthinkable, I shiver at the thought I've only spent 2 days here and I'm getting way to comfortable I can't trust them, I can't trust..
anyone

I sigh and slowly sit up but stop when I get stinging pains in my back I bite down on my lip and Suck in a breath of air and take a minute before getting out of bed I make may way to the bathroom and standing in front of the mirror I gently lift my top slightly revealing my completely black and blue ribs I gently poke them but immediately remove my hand as i feel agonizing pain, well there definitely broken I sigh I take a look at the rest of me covered in bruises, cuts and burns,.. everywhere aches and one hell of a headache not to mention my black eye god I need to make sure that's covered first, i turn around a little seeing my back in the mirror and I feel tears well up seeing all the awful marks especially the carved in words John used to carve in words that he called me in my back with a dagger it hurts like a bitch

Slut
Burden
Whore
Bitch
Ungrateful
Annoying
Unwanted

There's just more and more all from my dad, guess the fucker really gave me a good beating before he died, well I don't think I can even call him dad anyways he lost that title years ago and made me call him sir and in my head I just referred to him with his first name John anyways, but either way I mean after I found out he wasn't even my real dad.. I was kidnapped and separated from my brothers and real parents when i was five this is just all so crazy my entire life was a lie and the man who had abused me for 10 years of my life wasn't even my real dad.. I should probably be happy he wasn't to be honest and I always hated him for what he did to me, and now that I think of it John and me look nothing a like at all he had ginger hair and was pale while I had wavy brunette and tanned.. just like my brothers

I do look a lot like my brothers the more I think about it, I think me and Roman look the most similar honestly if he was my age I would think were twins I keep thinking about everything how much of my life has changed and I missed, everything was a lie.. and I never got to meet my real parents they died looking for me I probably just fucked up this entire family their parents died because of me and deep down they probably hate me well one already does I know that I sigh

At the end of the day I'm not going to trust them just like that they may be my brothers but god knows what there capable of and after my past I'm good at keeping certain things closed off and hidden anyways, no one can know about what John did to me.. they would think I'm week and be disgusted or it might just give them ideas and in all honesty I'm a complete mess John managed to give me a good amount of trauma causing ptsd, anxiety, ed, sh and random waves of depression i also started to get Hooked on substances because of all the things he kept in the house it felt like a release from everything I didn't have time worry about a dam thing.. god it feels so good being numb.. now that Im thinking about it I really am fucked up

oh well at least I can joke about it.. right?

I could never let my brothers find all that out they'd judge me even more id be a complete burden and in the way and even if they happen to care I hate being pitied all my life I've been surviving not living and I for a fact know how to handle and look after my self I been alone for ten years since I was five and been though hell and back these strangers are not going to earn my trust that easily not gonna happen anyways with my trust issues and more I still don't believe that they won't hurt me but why wouldn't I after everything..