The Only Reason || Cake

Through The Dark

Calum

So it's the weekend and I am so bored I think I could die. Melanie is at Niall's probably sucking his dick or something and I'm stuck here bored outta my mind in an empty house.

Great.

A part of me wants to go back home and see my mom but then Zayn will be there. It's kinda weird my mom was okay with me staying here but if I didn't Harry would literally be dead so I guess she had the right idea.

But okay it's been a month almost since I left and everything and I'm kind of over it and a part of me feels like I should go and talk to him and hear his side of the story but then I think of what Harry did to me with Zayn twice and that makes me sick to my stomach and makes me feel like a fucking idiot.

Getting up and out of the bed for once I got dressed and ready to go over to my house. It's now or ever and I need to get this off my chest and over with.

The walk to my house seemed longer and more dreadful from what I remembered when I use walk home from Melanie's before everything happened.

Arriving at my doorstep I stared at the front door in anticipation as if something would happen that would stop me or take me away from here but I know that's not going to happen so I just sucked up everything and walked up to the double doors and rang the doorbell awaiting with closed eyes.

'Calum?' The person asked when the door opened and I knew it was Zayn.

'Hi, can we talk?.' I said opening my eyes.

'Of course please come in.' He said stepping aside to let me in and I walked in sitting on the couch and he took the arm chair across from me.

'Trust me when I say that I don't want to be here but we are brothers and I think we should talk.' I reluctantly said.

'Yeah we are and I just wanted to apologize for showing up out of nowhere the other day, I should've called or something before, I wasn't thinking and all I wanted to do was talk to you because I'm a huge jackass and want to fix what I did.' He said sadly with foggy eyes.

'You are such a fucking jackass.' I said raising my voice a little.

'I know.' He said looking down sadly.

'I don't think I ever hated someone so much before and the worst part was that you were my brother, my own brother who bullied me for being gay was fucking my boyfriend behind my back the whole time.' I said infuriated as I started to cry.

'I know! And I'm so fucking sorry for doing that to you, really I am but I was going through my own problems with myself.' He said trying to sound like he was the victim.

'Like what?' I asked unimpressed.

'I started to realize that I was gay or at least I had some feelings towards guys but I couldn't deal with that, I didn't want to deal with it.' He said.

'It's not like it's some horrible thing to be.' I said truthfully.

'I kind of understand that know but you have to know that Harry came to me first saying that he liked me or whatever and that he was only using you to get to me and first I didn't do anything cause you're my brother but he made me feel so special and I just fell for all his tricks.' He said starting to cry himself and I couldn't look at him anymore so I didn't say anything.

'And everyday it hurt me that I was going behind your back, he told me that we could be a secret and no one would know about us.' He said and I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.

'I just want-' he started but I cut him off.

'You're so selfish!' I screamed.

'Oh my God! So you fucking slept with my boyfriend because you were afraid of coming out? That literally makes no sense.' I said mad as ever.

'I know! And I realize that now it was an extremely stupid thing for me to do to you but please don't let this mistake ruin our relationship. I am truly sorry.' He said pleading.

'I don't think I can.' I said truthfully.

'Why?' He asked visibly annoyed.

'What do you mean why? You made my life hell cause you couldn't accept yourself and then fucked my boyfriend cause you didn't want to come out?' I said infuriated although it came out as a question.

'I'm trying to apologize to you and you don't care.' He getting mad himself.

'You're so stupid and selfish and one of the dumbest people I've ever known and for you to think I'll forgive you so easily after all that is probably one of your dumbest ideas yet.' I said getting up having enough of this conversation.

'Wait lets just take.' He said trying to stop me grabbing onto my arm.

'Have a nice life Zayn.' I said getting out of his grip and walking out the door.

I slammed the door and walked out and away from this damn house

Who does he think he is?

I mean really he's so selfish and just idiotic

Ugh!

I swear all men are idiots.

I didn't want to go back to Melanie's so I headed to Luke's because there wasn't really anywhere else to go and he said I could go there anytime.

After a long and exhausting walk I finally made it to his house and knocked on his door.

'Calum?' He said confused opening the door in his pajamas and glasses, which I didn't know he wore.

'Hey, you said I could come here to just talk or whatever.' I said shyly holding onto my arm awkwardly.

'Of course come in. I didn't think you'd actually take the invite though.' He said as I walked in.

'Me either, sorry for leaving you the other night like that I just don't know what to think anymore.' I said awkwardly standing in his living room.

'Well I'm glad you're here and if anyone should be apologizing it's me for the other night, I should've controlled myself better and not have done that.' He said but I wasn't mad at him if anything I wish he would do it again because who am I kidding?

I'm madly in love with Luke Hemmings and it's about time I do something about it.

'Yeah well it definitely was a surprise.' I said blushing.

'Well take a seat and I'll boil some water for some tea if that's okay with you?' He asked.

'That's fine.' I said as he walked away and I sat on the couch crosslegged.

His home kinda smelled like a mix of vanilla and mocha and it was absolutely delicious and made me feel good. A few minutes later he came back with two cups of hot tea.

'So what brings you here?' He asked handing me a cup and sitting beside me.

'Well, where do I begin?' I asked sighing.

'How about from the beginning.' He said sipping his tea.

-Hii

So I really hate Zayn in this tbh and I hope you all do too and there may or may not be some smut next chpater (-;

Love you