Don't save her,Love her |Calum Hood

Two.

I gathered my clothes and slipped them on as the rain began to slow down a little bit more

"I'll never forget how much I hated you at the beginning" violet laughed as she slipped on her shoe and began to tie it

I slipped on my shirt and smiled at her

"Yeah I remember that very vividly,you punched me once and gave me this scar on my lip when you were drunk" I laughed as I pointed to it

She laughed and leaned over kissing my lips,specifically where the scar was

"I'm just glad you turned out to be the opposite of what I ever thought" she spoke as both of her hands cupped the sides of my face,scanning every detail of me as she smiled

But I wasn't any different from what she thought and I felt guilty every time I received a text or call from that one night stand that ment nothing to me

I never told her about it,I was drunk and stupid and I hate myself but I loved her too much to tell her,to see her hurt again

She's been hurt too much,she's barely let down her walls for me,it would devastate her,crush her to pieces if she knew , I wasn't going to see her hurt again

So I kept it to myself

I didn't tell her a thing.

Every time I was with her,I felt different,she was blunt with her words but I admired that about her

She was the only one that made me smile, she was the only one I was my complete self around,I didn't have to try to impress her cause I knew she love me for me

She didn't care about my troubled past and I didn't care about hers

But when I was with her I felt guilty and disgusted with myself at the same time.

She's been hurt before,she's been through hell and I seemed to be the only one besides her family to know what it is exactly that she's been through

She hated me before cause she thought I was still the same ass-hole and she was afraid of being hurt.

I didn't want it to be this way,I was hoping she could change me,but only I could change me
And I seemed to still be the old me,just not to her....