Breaking Apathy

Chapter 9: The cradle

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“Mock me and toss me aside,

But don’t take my foundations from me is the place I reside.

I grew up alone but had my father,

I grew up with two sisters and had to raise them without a mother.

I tried not to break life’s rules but it seems that I can’t do such.

I hoped and cared, I did both too much.”

I now knew the truth. My father had just confessed to my worst fears and justified everyone else’s retorts. How could he go so far as to rape a child? I don’t think I’d ever want to understand that. Sitting with my eyes glued open and my jaw slung ajar, I stared at my father’s face. It was full of remorse, shame and embarrassment, but somehow that didn’t stop my lips from saying:

“You fucking asshole.”

Almost immediately, my dad’s eyes watered as he looked up to me. His grip on my hands got tighter, reminding me that they were still encircled around my own and that disgusted me. I yanked them away and stood up, the chair falling behind me as I tripped backward slightly. It was then he stood up.

“Eden, please-“

“No!” I gave in a throaty shout. “How could you do that to her? And to someone so young?”

My mind couldn’t contain all the things that raced through it. It was one thought after another and each spending only a seconds grace in the limelight of main thinking. My hands flew up to my hair and grabbed a clump full of strands, pulling to gain some sense of sanity in all this madness. He took a step towards me then another. I launched my hand to his chest and held him afar. His expressions somewhat grew worse and worse, but I wasn’t in the mood to weigh our anguish.

“Stay away from me,” I said stiff in my speech.

“Eden, I’m sorry. But I nev-“

“’Never’ what dad? Never wanted me to find out? Did you know she’s in my school? Everyone knows,” I informed him before shoving his chest.

“Eden, list-“

“Listen to your lies?” I said softly, my anger weakening as pain hugged my heart. “Why?”

He finally gave up. His silence adorned with the drop of his head. I leaned on the wall and gave an audible shaky exhale.

“Mom was right. All of us are bullshit and you’re the one to lead the mistakes.”

“Don’t ever say that again,” he sternly warned from nowhere.

“Why?” my eyes focused to him as I asked. “The truth too confronting for you?”

“Eden,” he met my stare. “Your mother was angry when she said that and not a word of it is true.”

“Well, you seem to be proving her right. I mean you’re in jail right now,” I started as I looked to the ceiling. “She was right. You are the worst. Maybe ... she’s right about me being a mistake as well. You probably touched the twins too... or maybe I did. Everyone mu-“

That’s where the sentence hung. Pain surged through me as my father delivered the hardest smack I’ve ever received in my life. I had actually fallen to my left as the strength behind the hand surpassed my own by far. Pushing on my palms till I sat up, I saw spots of blood on the ground. My right hand immediately flew to my head, checking my hair but it came back clean. Unless.... I touched my nose and found my source. I had a bloody nose from that hit. I turned to look at my father, reliving my anger.