Breaking Apathy

Chapter 21: Naked

WARNING: This Chapter may include implicit sexual references - minor (due to my shyness), if you are offended at such, skip this chapter. If not, do read and understand that it is part of my character and not my belief.

Note: The attached pic is my... perception of what Eden would look like.

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"The lights flash in the sequence of the rainbow,

the light shades and then the neon glow.

Glimpses of her body I see,

glimpses of her dancing to me.

Her skin's bare, arms, collarbone, thigh,

I try to be a gentlemen but it’s hard to keep my sight high.

Flesh to flesh, her arms wrap around my neck.

I forget all sanity and give in with no resistance- no not a speck.

Our breaths echo; Our warmth tear through the bands of colours.

But that’s when I woke to the reality... we are not lovers."

My eyes shot open and I sat up, panting and drenched. The silence echoed my breathing and I scanned my room, Taylor sleeping soundly on the floor and the faint rays of light shimmering through the curtains. On autopilot, I turned back in my bed and searched for my phone under my pillow. The screen lit up at my touch and flashed 05.00a.m. in neon blue against a black background. A groan escaped my lips and I planted my face in to my pillow to smother it. Why am I having wet dreams about Jordan? I turned my head to the left to breathe and bit my lower lip. Maybe that’s why they were shadows... so I don’t die of a heart attack. I moved to lie on my back. Maybe... the party will be a chance to... I shook my head and sighed. I couldn’t be thinking this junk so early in the morning. Not that there’s a specified time to think of such but no – not now. My hand pushed aside my blankets and I carefully jumped over Taylor. Discomfort settled on my pelvis giving a tingling, stingy feeling and when I looked down to put my hand to counter pressure the pleasurable pain, I found out why it was there. Glowing scarlet in the face, I quickened my pace to the bathroom and started the shower. I am so thankful that no one else wakes up that early.

My mind floated to her throughout my time in the shower. It was horrid especially when I found that the more I thought the more ‘someone’ stands to attention. I leaned my head on the wall and groaned.

“Get a grip!” I harshly whispered to myself and turned off the water tap.

I walked to the mirror and grabbed the hanging towel, wiping myself dry and staring into the mirror.

“Eden, you will not gross yourself out. You are normal. You are not Taylor.”

I sighed at that last comment. Is it weird that I’ve never did it? Like to myself? Hm.

Thinking about this was really lowering my self esteem so I headed to my room and changed into my uniform, stirring Taylor from his sleep but not actually waking him. I took out a blue shirt, not our traditional white and wore it as the under top. It isn’t allowed but since school would be closing and I’m the teacher’s pet, I decided to get away with something. I looked in to my mirror and tilted my head slightly to the left. Maybe a different hair style from the usual all down would be nice too. So I ran my fingers through my hair, pushing it back and up to stand. Another look and I was out of my room, buttoning my shirt as I headed downstairs to start breakfast.

Want to touch my monkey?

I smiled at the message tone I had and pulled out my phone from my pocket. It was quarter to six so it was a shock to receive a message. I opened it to find Nina’s text in capitals: