Out of my Control

Chapter Fourteen

Katrina

He didn't mean to say it. Of course he didn't mean to say it! Just look at him, he looks freaked out. I on the other hand am ready to breakdown. I cannot do this again, I already been through this before and I cannot do it again. I should have stuck with the no dating rule; I was fine before I met him. It shouldn't hurt this much. To hell with that! I'm not going to let it, turning on my heel I walk away before he can see me cry.

"Katrina, wait!" 

To hell with that, and to hell with you! 

I take off running, I just know that I need to get out of here. What was I thinking coming here to Italy with him? I'm such an idiot! Knowing that he is going to catch up to me because I am not that fast, and he was a football player, so I know I can't outrun him, but I will try. Wiping the tears from my eyes, dodging all the people that think I am crazy, because who am I kidding. I am. No one in their right mind does what I have done, and for what? Some sick cruel joke. Get me to fall in love with him. Stopping in my tracks...

Shit! I'm in love with him. 

This just makes is even worse. Arms wrap around me, and I know it's him even when I just want to scream to get him away from me. "Angel." 

Whirling around to face him, anger takes over as I try to push him away. Try is the key word. This damn man is a beast. "Don't you angel me!" Shoving at his chest again. Whatever you do, I cannot not cry. "Let me go!" He does and I'm not sure if I want him to or put up a fight.

"I'm sorry."

"Yeah, so am I." More than you will know. "I'm booking the first flight home. Don't contact me again. Goodbye, Johnny." I walk away and when he does not follow the tears flow down my face faster than they ever have before. This is for the best, because if I keep this up with him, eventually he is going to completely break my heart more than it is hurting right now.

Thankfully the hotel was not too far away, and I was relieved that Johnny did not follow. I know now that this whatever it was is not meant to be. I really should pay attention to what I am doing because I almost crashed into one person, I hoped I wouldn't.

"Katrina, is everything okay?" No, not at all.

"I'm sorry Mrs. Meyers. I really need to go. It was really nice to meet you."

Before I can move past her, she grabs my arm gently, but I still flinch. She lets go instantly. "What did my son do?" I go to tell her it's nothing, but the stern look she gives me, I cave. "Men are idiots." This gets me to laugh for just a brief moment because I cannot argue with that. "I know he cares about you. I see it in his eyes when he kept looking at you." Maybe, I'm just not sure after what he just said. I mean Daniel told me he loved me and that was a lie. What makes Johnny any different? He didn't try to kill you, that's what's different. "I love my son, but like I said men are idiots. If you need to go, then go, but when you have a clear head give him a chance to talk this out with you."

"Thank you, Addy."

She pulls me into a hug and although it's strange, I welcome it. "Don't worry I will smack some sense into him." Please don't! It will just make this that much harder. Pulling back Addy looks into my eyes, and sighs. "Take care of yourself." Why do I have a feeling she was going to say something else"

"Goodbye Addy."

I barely know the woman and it hurts to say goodbye to her as well as her son, but it's better this way.

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Johnny

How do I always screw things up when it comes to her? The hurt look in her eyes almost killed me. I'm a fucking idiot! Who the hell says I love you and then apologizes for saying it? Me, that's who. "Fuck!" I don't take off after her when she begs me not to, even though I desperately want to. Walking slowly back to the hotel my phone goes off.