The Way I Used To Be ❤🔥

He's my boy...🔞❤️‍🩹

Rain's POV:

I don't know why i agreed to accompany Payu in his training for the upcoming race,i never thought about taking my bike anymore our even visiting the racing track for any races in these past years 

But when he asked me to help him in his training something in me told not to deny it,I couldn't see him getting sad if i ever regected his request 
I only feel this way with Butterfly,when she asked something i will say yes without even thinking and now i'm being like that with Payu 

As i promised the practice session started the next day after our conversation 

I want to go to the hospital by 10 so we started his practice by 6.00 in the morning.The plan is that after practice he will drop me at the hospital 

The first day we reached there on time and after a couple stretching which we did together i told him to do a 2 laps just to see what he's got 

I thought it will be easy for him since he was playing everything cool till now but when he climbed on the bike and started it i was expecting him to start moving but the kid just stayed there staring at the race track as if he is lost in thoughts 

I got confused at first that i didn't went next to him but even after a minute he was staying there with his bike on so i slowly went next to him and for my surprise he was really lost in thoughts and the usual cool expression he have every time was nowhere to be seen 

Watching him like that made me concerned that i shook him by his bicep to bring him back to reality and it worked he jolted back to reality when i did this and i told him to remove the helmet 

When he did i got more confused,he was sweating like anything and his usual  demeanor changed completly 
"What happened...? are you alright?" i asked in a concerned way 

And to my surprise he hesitated to answer and when he did he just nodded slowly which definetly means he is not alright 

So i cupped the side of his face and asked the same question again and this time he gave a proper answer 
"Its just...I don't know why i feel scared for the practice for the race...Looking at the race track the only i could think about is the last times accident and i don't know why i feel nervous about that..." 

I gave him a gentle knowing smile ,because this happens and this is exactly the main reason i don't take my bikes anymore 
After what happened with me at that time ,whenever i took my bike the only thing i could see in my eyes was my butterfly laying consious on the road bleeding 

The thoughts almost made me tear up but not now..not at this moment when Payu needs me the most 
I can't be weak at this moment when he needs me so i patted him on the shoulder 

"I get you...But Just because it happened once doesn't mean that it will happen again and also you were tricked into this remember but this time everything is cleared and you are playing this game without having anyone to trick you...SO nothing will happen to you,Believe in yourself teach your mind that it won't happen again..."
"Your mind may not agree at first but you should be the one to gain its trust ,make it believe that it won't happen again...For now just think that your doing your usual practise session" 

He sighed and nodded ,after taking a minute to relax he became normal again and just when he was about to put his helmet i stopped him 
He looked at me in a confused way but i just smiled and my hand slid behind his neck and pulled him closer i pressed our lips together for a kiss 

He got surprised at first but then just leaned closer and pulled me towards him by my waist,we stood there kissing and sucking each others lips and as things started getting heated up i quickly pulled back and crossed my arms over my chest
"Ok that's enough now take that two laps let me see what you got..."