What We Once Were

Part 4

I woke up the next morning feeling like complete and total shit. I rolled over to check and see if I got any text. Unfortunately I did but not from the person I wanted it to be from.

Kelley: Told you Karma is a bitch...

Lauren: You should have told her sooner... right now she's torn up really bad.

Servando: I won't see in the morning I have to help my mom with something's, but I'll see you at lunch.

Kelley: You really fucked up Alex.

Great my best friend hates me even more now. I reluctantly got up and got ready for school. I pulled into the parking lot the same time Kelley did, but she parked on the other side of the parking lot. I pulled in and really wished Servando was her so I at least had someone to talk to. I seen Kelley walking with Christen and figured this would be my only chance to talk to her.

"Hey Chris!" I said running to catch up with them.

"Oh hey Alex." She said turning to face me.

"Hey Kel." I threw out casually hoping for a response.

"Hi," She said not even looking at me.

Christen checked her phone and jumped. "I got to go guys I forgot about the student council meeting, I'll see you later."

"Kelley I'm sorr-"

"Just stop right there okay? You have completely ruined her you know that right? Cheney and I went looking for Tobin after Perry called us asking if we seen her. It took us two and a half hours to find her, but do you want to know where she was?" Kelley left the question hanging.

"Yes." I said without hesitation.

"She was at the lookout point just staring at the city. Now she wishes she never came back to this stupid place." Kelley sighed giving me a slight head shake. "Try to talk to her or at least try and explain your idiotic actions to her please? I don't want my other best friend to leave again." The bell rang telling us to get to class. Kelley told me Tobin's schedule and I was sad/relived I only had lunch and 8th hour with her.  I could tell from the way Kelley was acting around me I was on probation until I talk to Tobin. Lunch finally rolled around and I figured now would be my best shot. I sat down next to Ali and waited for Tobin to come to the table. Out of nowhere I felt hands on my back and a kiss on my cheek from Servando.

"Hey Al sorry I missed you this morning." He said sitting beside me. This is not going to end well.

"It's fine why aren't you sitting with your team like you usually do?" I asked seeing Tobin and JJ sit across from us.

"I felt bad about this morning so I figured I'd make it up to you by having lunch together." He said giving me a small smile. We sat in silence for a couple of moments when Servando decided to make things worse.

"So Tobin how does it feel to be back?"

Tobin looked at me then looked at Serv. "Things were not exactly what I planned them to be like when I got here so that sucked."

"What do you mean?" he asked nonchalantly not picking up on Tobin's tone.

"Let's just say I came back looking forward to having to come back to... but then coming to find out there was really nothing to comeback to in the first place." She said giving me a cold stare.

Servando picked up on the bitterness in Tobin's voice and decided to change the topic.

"So Alex what do you want to do tonight?  He asked turning the conversation towards me.

"Um I don't know what I want to do." I said trying to make the conversation go away.

Tobin suddenly started laughing and Servando gave her a questioning look.

"That's the thing about Alex, Servando she never knows what she wants." She said between laughter, but her comment earned her a smack from Lauren. "What it's the truth! Isn't that right Lex?"

Without thinking I got up and stormed out of the cafeteria. I sat down at the closest bench and felt tears forming I my eyes. I did this to Tobin. I ruined her and broke her heart. I broke my promise now this is where I am. I heard foot steps coming closer and closer, but I just buried my face in my hands.

"Lex?" Tobin said sitting beside me. "I'm sorry that was a low blow and wasn't cool for me to say." She apologized.

"Why are you apologizing? You have the right to say those things Tobin, I mean look what I did to us?"

We sat in silence for a few moment until she asked the question I have been waiting to her. "Why?"

"I don't even know anymore Tobin... I don't know why I stopped talking to you, I don't know what I want anymore? You were right I can't make up my mind."

She let out a deep sigh. "When I was there I hated it so much. I'm pretty sure I was the only one that hated it. But I kept thinking if I tried hard enough and kept looking I could move back here. I knew it was pointless to keep looking, but I did because I promised you I would. I decided to stop hating it there and try to live life. I was one of the best ones on the team there, I was scouted by good colleges there. But I promised you we would go to UCal together. I sacrificed so much and was miserable without you and kept looking forward to the day I would see you again. Only to find out you weren't miserable without me?  That you moved on pretty fast and didn't even tell me. That I will never understand."

She got up and walked back into the cafeteria leaving me on the bench. The rest of the day went on as normal as it could be. Tobin avoided me in 8th hour and sat next to Morgan instead. When practice came around it was as if things never changed between Tobin and I. Our passes and crosses to each other were always precise. I missed this with Tobin and I could tell she did too. When practice  ended I took my time getting my things together.

"Always the slowest one to get out of here Alex?" Tobin asked chuckling.

"Pretty much." I replied. The awkward silence was back again until Tobin broke it.

"Does he make you happy?" She asked slowly walking towards me.

"Tobs we don't have to talk about this."

"I know but does he honestly make you happy? That's all I want right now Alex is for you to be happy ." She said giving me a sincere smile.

"Not as happy as I was when we were together." I admitted truthfully.

"At least he makes you happy still." She whispered softly.  She took a small step forward and grabbed her bag that was beside me. She turned around and walked out the door and I let out a breath I have been holding in. I got my stuff and began to walk to the door when Tobin stormed back in.

"I can't do this." Was all she said before she pulled me into a passionate kiss.

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Once again it's super short and I'm sorry for that. It would have been longer but I broke my finger yesterday at practice and it hurt like a bitch to type this.Excuse my Language. Please vote and comment  I love seeing those notifications! And for those of you that think you know what will happen at the end of the story have another thing coming;)