What We Once Were

Part 9

Should I tell Tobin? I mean it's not exactly relevant right? But do you really want to live with guilt, come on Alex get your shit together. Will Servando really tell her? Gosh whhyy is this such a hard decision? Jeez for goodness sake Alex woman up!!!

Friday night:
The most important game of my life today. The scouts from Cal are going to be there, so I need to have a perfect game. This is my chance to show the coaches in person what I'm capable of. And I hope Tobin takes advantage of this opportunity to impress them too. From the intense conversation we had yesterday it sounds like we won't be going to the same college anymore.

Flashback:

I can't believe I'm letting Servando get in my head. As much as I don't want to do this she has a right to know. I pulled out my phone and decided to call her up , the sooner the better right?

"Hey Tobin are you busy right now"

"Na dude, why did you want to hang out or something?" She asked.

"Yeah meet me at our spot. We need to have that talk."

"Oh okay see you in a few then."

I waited for a few minutes before I seen her walk towards me. How does she always look so good in the simplest things. The black Nike sweats that I bought for her when we first started dating. The neon green training top from our club team when we were 13.

"Hey Lex, so we're having that talk right now then." She asked nervously.

"Yeah um but first I need to tell you something. It's kind of hard to talk about, so if you could hear me out please do."

"Of course anything." She said taking my hand in hers. God she's too sweet I hope she can take this well.

"So um when you were in Washington and when were fighting a lot... Because of Servando well do you remember when you called me a fucking slut and told me I should just screw him already so we could break up. Well that night I decided... I decided to go out that night because I was hurt by what you said. So I went out with Sydney and Dom and we went to a party. That night I drank so much so I wouldn't cry, but then Servando saw me and asked if I was okay and I completely broke down. At some point we started kissing and it started to heat up. I regret it so much Tobin please understand that I would change it in a heartbeat. I'm so sorry.

"You slept with him that night. When we were still together in a relationship."

"Yes," I sighed and a few tears escaped from my eyes. "Later that week was when we decided to take a break. I wanted to tell you right then and there but we were fighting so much about everything else. It's like I froze."

"You cheated on me when we were still together twice?"

"We were taking a break! We weren't together Tobin!" Just give up Alex or this is going to turn into a fight.

"We never called it quits! We never broke up Alex! Sorry for thinking I was the love of your life and you would wait for me! For fucks sake Alex are you telling me that it was okay if I screwed someone over there?" She exclaimed standing up abruptly.

"Tobs listen to me please. I couldn't have the talk we were originally going to have because I felt so guilty. I can never apologize enough to you, but Tobin you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Please don't go... please." I begged her.

"Do you really think I would stay after hearing about something like this? It happened last fucking year and you never said a word. Don't get me wrong I love you Alex god do I love, but there is only so much I can take. Give me sometime please, I thought I was ready but maybe I'm not." She started to walk away from me but I grabbed her hand before she could go.