Seeing Eye

Chapter 23

Chapter 23 (Emily, September 19th)

It was the day before the actual fight would take place. Things were getting weird. The fighting thankfully had stopped but now everyone wanted in on helping to go against Alex. We didn't know who to trust or who to not. Sometimes it felt like a life job, picking the good from the bad. Telling some they would have to leave or if they could stay. I didn't want to make a mistake and kick someone we could trust out and allowing someone we couldn't trust to stay. It made no sence and would hurt as all in the same minute.

I felt like everyone though wanted something like they wanted some kind of attention from me. It bothered me but I never did say it. I guess mostly becasue I was afraid they would go back to him. Back to the one who started everything in the first place. Back to Alex. I hated the thought of that and told myself that I would be nice to everyone no matter what. I kept my word too.

That night we had our final meeting, Amy told me to be extra careful this night. To keep sane and to keep all my heart. I was not to allow Alex get to me like he had a few short days ago. He was a distant memory for the time being. She would tell me that in the end we would win this was and would stop him and his ways. We would end Evil with him. I was glad to hear that, it made me happy.

Bri at times would tell me that I needed to watch out, to watch my every step and everything that I did. Derrick would say the same. I think that the only person that actually never said anything about me being horribly careful and watching my every move was Jason. He would just be nice and tell me to just live my life like nothing was wrong. He said that the best way to live life was to live it day by day, not by watching everything I did every minute of the day. That was not living to him. It was more like a death that could not be heard.

We also talked about Alex during our final meeting. Talked about plans that we had and how we would take everything. Jason offered to help all he could. He said he would protect me, and Zoey said she would protect him. He smiled at her and then kissed her.

Seeing him kiss her made me wonder, would I ever have my first kiss in this life or would I forever lose that too? But I never got to answer my own questions, they always somehow seemed to be answered for me, all I had to do was wait and find out. I hated waiting though, but that was all I had left.

After our final meeting of talking about Alex and what our plans were the next day we all went to bed. Time seemed to go slower and slower by the minute and it felt like it was hours before it had actually turned midnight.

Bri was in the room with me. She talked to me once in a while asking me if I was alright. I always seemed to give her the same answer even though it was a lie. "Yes, I am fine." I would say over and over, but I would never sleep. I would just lay awake until the next time that she asked the question.

By the time it was three a.m Bri had asked me the same question at least twenty times. I felt like it was old news by then and wished I could just fall asleep but sleep would never take me. Finally, after Bri asked again if I was alright I answered truthfully needing something to talk about because I could not sleep, "No, I am not alright," I said, "I'm scared."

"I can tell," She said, "I was wondering how long it would be before you actually told me what was wrong. But Emily you need not be scared. Everything will be alright."

"And what if it's not?" I asked looking her way in bed.

"But it will be." Bri said, "Look you need to get some sleep Emily. You need your energy for tomorrow."

"I know, But I just can't seem to sleep."

"Why?"

"I do not know," I said, "I guess because I am fearful."

Bri sighed, "Then I must say again, do not be, and get some sleep Emily. We will all need it tomorrow."

"Okay, I will try." I said.

It took another hour before I finally actually fell asleep that night, dreaming of nothing but the roses and lavender, sweet and happy thoughts for the first time in many nights. It was breath taking and amazing all at the same time.

Morning though would be a whole differend situation. It would be hell, and trouble for all who are there helping me. I only hoped they would be okay.