Not Perfect -Poetry-

Restless Night

Laying in bed and thinking of you as the words run through my mind. What did you mean to me? We have only been friends for a week but you have already taken ahold of me.

What have I done to deserve this? The time is 11:16pm and I don't know what to do. You have messed up my whole being. Usually I'm asleep by now dreaming of a better place, just trying to escape but I don't know what to do because I just want to be with you.

I know it makes no sense in the end but then again love never does. I am so tired, this is day three of no sleep and I'm losing my mind. Correction you are taking over my mind. Sleeping is no longer a thought in my mind because it never sleeps.

"Sleep is for the weak" I whisper as a song flashes through my mind for a brief moment before you consume the thought once again. I want to be free from not only life now but I want to be free from you. Such a small part of my life you have taken yet it left me broken and scared. I can no longer function without you. 365 days a year and I have spent every one of those day looking for someone to fill a void but little did I know that they would over power me.

'My body has lost control' I think and I get up and walk out of the house. I remember all I memories together as I walk down the road. We would hold hands and speak of our future. The bridge where we had our first kiss.

'It hurts to think you'll never come back' I thought as I climb the railing. Sitting down I look out on the horizon and watch the city lights illuminate the sky so unnaturally it looks sickening. Like when I broke my wrist when we were wrestling. I'm sorry I yelled at you.

"Secretly I love you" I whisper and I fall to the water. I here a scream but then total silence. Yet my mind never sleeps because I'm still thinking of you.