Not Perfect -Poetry-

Love

To feel true loves kiss is a once in a lifetime thing. That is if you have played your cards correctly and found your one true love. Cause even the smallest thing can mess up your chances of finding him or her or it if they define at that. But that's the thing. What if you have already insulted your true love.

Pushed them away and called them and faggot. What if you crushed their heart and ripped them to shreds leaving them bleeding on the floor for something as simple as a glance at you.

You could have messed up your whole life and never known of your true love. You will simply have to settle for the next person "in line".

I may have messed with those chances. Coming out as gay, getting piercings, wearing makeup, identifying as a girl sometimes. Hell my one true love could be reading this right now and we won't know it because we haven't met.

I have met many people and honestly two people have held my heart and they still are. Those two men have made me cry, broken my heart to pieces but kept every piece. Tossing them around like they mean nothing but it's everything to me.

I love them but they don't see me that way. I'm searching for my true love and I have found those two boys. Ashton and Jacob. These two people will never be second to each other or anyone else. I don't know why but I can't let them go.

I love them and I have told them so many times. I have held neither of them. I have not kissed them. I simply speak to them. I text them. I want to be in their life but it doesn't work that way.

My love will forever be one sided until I find the right person who steals my heart away from them and keeps it for themselves. To have and to hold. Through sickness and health. For as long as we both shall live.

I don't want to marry though. I simply want to hold them by my side. I will get engaged but marriage is too mainstream. I don't need a piece of paper telling me they are mine. I will truly know they are mine when I look into their heart and see that all they want is me.