And I'll call you mine { Paige Bueckers}

Part 20

Paige bueckers

Loving Jj had never be a decision I made. It's an instinct. I've never known anything other than love for her. But as we've grown so has our love. It's changed. I don't love Jj the way I loved Jj when we were 13. When we were young she was just my best friend. I loved her in the way that friends do.

But now it's been so long since I have felt that way for her. Since we were 15 I haven't felt that way for her. I've felt more. I want to kiss her. And hug her. I want to do things with her that best friends don't do.

She's never had an opportunity to be with someone else. Not that she's not beautiful it's just when she was in high school she never had time for meaningless relationships. Even now in college she's had meaningless hook ups but no one has ever shown genuine interest in something more with her.

Partially because if anyone knows her they also know me. And considering she tends to be more into masculine women they aren't huge fans of our close relationship. Not that any of the more feminine women I've been with like our relationship very much either but you get the point.

No one has wanted something more from her. Until Morgan. Morgan has shown more interest in Jj than anyone ever has. At least around me. Like the other day when Jj had that meeting and she was dresses up. I thought she looked very sexy and apparently Morgan agreed as she said something about her out while we were at practice.

Then Jj told me that Azzi had complimented both her and Kayla on their outfits something along the lines of you two look sexy. And Morgan replied with hell yeah she does. Like I'm sorry what.

I don't know if Morgan is just blind or stupid. But maybe both if she can't see that me and jj are obviously more than just friends. Well not officially. I don't know really. Things right now are complicated. All I know is she doesn't want me to die a miserable death anymore so that's something.

I know Jj is beautiful and desirable. But my own teammate. I mean Morgan knows nothing about her. Maybe her major. But me I know her inside and out. I know that she hates onions in her pasta and her favorite place to be is with me.

I know she has always wanted to be a big sister but never got the chance to be one. I know that because of that Drew is like a brother to her. Even though she moved away she would always call him. They would sit on the phone together for hours playing games and laughing.

I know that she hates distance. It always affects relationships no matter how much you try. That's why whenever we were together again I would try so hard to catch up on everything I missed. I never skipped a phone call or took too long to respond.

Because I knew she needed me. I know she feels unwanted in her own family. Things she won't even say out loud like that. Like the fact that she won't go back to Minnesota because she's never known those places without her grandma or grandpa. I know she hates when people call her Juliet because that's what people call her mom. And she never wants to be like her mom.

But she sleep hates to be called Juli. Because that's what people called her grandma. And she thinks she will never be kind enough or as good as her grandma.

I know she hates to be alone.

That's why I'm always there for her. Even when I'm a dick. If she called I'd always answer. It doesn't matter if she's hours away from me I'll be there as soon as I can. It doesn't matter if she calls day or night. I'll be there. It dosent matter if she hasn't talked to me in days weeks or even months. I will always be there.

But how do I show her that I really care.

That I'm really here. Show her that I'm gonna stay on her worst days. Hold her like I'll never leave.