Obsession Of Two

CHAPTER 20

"Chan!" I saw Jessica running exitedly inside Akala mo walang mga dalang bag.

"Oh hi, Jess" nagbeso- beso muna kami bago ako bumalik sa kusina.

"Where's my inaanak?" Kanina nya pa nakita si Chad, alam Kong nagkukunwari lang syang Hindi nya Nakita ang bata.

"Ninang! I'm hereee" Sumulyap ako sa direction nila at natawa ako ng bahagya Kay Chad dahil nakanguso sya habang nakayakap sa legs ni Jessica.

Jessica kneeled Infront of him at pinudpod ng halik ang pisngi ng anak ko, Hindi ko rin sya masisis kung bakit sya ganyan, I mean ..ang taba Kasi ng pisngi ng batang yan, dagdag mo pa ang mahaba nyang pilikmata at mamula-mulang labi.
"Chad, do you miss ninang?"

He nodded
"Opo"

"I have a surprise for you" Napa-irap nalang ako sa pag palakpak ni Chad sa mga bag na dala nang ninang nya, spoiled talaga ang batang yan.

"Jessica, we talked about this"
Dinalhan ko Sila ng juice at bagong bake na cookies.

She shrugs
"Can't help it"

She looked around the house as if looking for something or someone and I know what she will ask next.
"Where's David?"

"Work" these past few days, laging nasa trabaho naman yang si David, pero Hindi nya nakakalimutang mag laan ng Oras para sa Bahay at lalong-lalo na Kay Chad, Isa pa yang si David, inispoil din si Chad.

"Momma" lumapit Sakin ang anak ko kaya binuhat ko sya kahit na ang bigat nya, I put him in my lap.

"Hmm?"

He look serious this time and I can't help but to remember them, especially kamukhang-kamukha nya ang mga iyon.
"Where's Dada?"

Nagulat ako sa biglang Tanong nya, he never ask this question to me and I've wishing that he never question me about his fathers. Nakita ko rin ang gulat sa mata ni Jessica na kumakain lang ng chips.
"What baby?"

"Dada, I wanna see him"
Napabuntong hininga ako, I keep my eyes at him as he stared back at me with his intense eyes, kala mo hindi na Bata.

"You wanna see David?"
Mabilis ang pag-iling nya, oh no...I don't know how to tell him without hurting his feelings that's the last thing I could do, I don't wanna see my son to feel sad about his fathers.

"Dada" it hurts me to see the vulnerability in his eyes

"Uhm, he's...far" hindi ko kayang tignan sya sa mata dahil mas Lalo akong nakokonsensya sa pagsisinungaling ko sa kanya.

"When do I see him?"
I bite my lip, I feel my heart pounding.

He...he'll be back soon, sweetie. Just be patient, okay? Daddy just needs some time... I heard my own voice cracks a little as I try to keep up the pretense.

"Can you be a good boy and wait for him like a big boy you are?" I lean down, kissing his forehead reassuringly.

"Promise?" Tumango ako kahit Hindi ko alam kung pano sabihin sa kanya ang totoo. He smiled at me bago bumaba ng lap ko para mag laro.

Jessica is looking at me seriously na para bang may ginawa akong kasalanan.

"Chandrea, can we talk?" I nodded and headed back in the kitchen.

"Pinapaasa mo Yung Bata"

"Hindi ko alam Anong sasabihin ko"

"Sabihin mo nalang kaya sa kambal ang tungkol sa Bata?"
I looked at her seriously and shook my head, Hindi..Hindi ko sasabihin sa kanila, they bring nothing but danger in my life.

"No, I wouldn't do that"

She harshly sighted.
"Chandrea, stop being selfish!"

Hindi makapaniwalang tumingin ako sa kanya, how could she say that?
"Selfish? Ako ang makasarili ngayon Jessica? I'm just protecting my child!"

"No! You're just protecting yourself from them! Nangungulila na Yung Bata, you know how it feels to feel incomplete, you know how it feels kapag walang tatay, wag mo naman idamay ang anak mo, let him feel the feeling you didn't feel before."
She left me there in the kitchen, Naramdaman Kong may tumutulo sa pisngi ko.

I felt my heart ache for what she said and it struck me, she hit me with the truth. Nahirapan ako noon, paano pa kaya ang anak ko?

I just don't want to lose him...I can't lose him, mamamatay ako.

Maybe Tama si Jessica, maybe it's time to show up and I hope things get well soon.