When Fix said sorry to me I was really surprise, I felt like I was the one that needed to apologize. He moved up into a sitting position and I followed his motion. He looked me in the eyes then looked down at his hands. His hands were a shaking mess. I knew he wanted to say something, but I also knew he was unsure to.
"Take your time." Was all I said and he nod. Fix took a deep breath and tried to sallow but he couldn't. He just stated shaking again. At that moment I wish I could have done something to make him calm down, but I couldn't because I was utterly helpless.
"Okay.. I-I think I just need some water first." He tried to get up but I pushed him back down.
"I got it, just keep taking deep breaths. Yeah?" He nod once again. I got up from the bed and walked over to the mini fridge and got out two bottles of water, and walked back to the bed. "Here you go." He looked up at me from the wall he was staring at, I'm guessing he was in deep thought. Or the pill he took has taking affect.
"What."
"The water.." I said a shake it in his face.
"Oh right, thanks." He took the water from me a drank almost half of it, before I could even sit back down on the bed. About thirty minutes pass before he spoke again. "I guess I'll start from the beginning then.. Um so my real name is D-"
"Listen you don't have to do this." I put my hand on his shoulders to reassure him.
"It's okay. I'd kept it in for so long only Danielle knows about me, well the real me you know." I nod putting my hands to my side and he continued. "Okay so my real name is David Noel. And um life going up was just your standard middle class upbringings. I had a two bedroom home one for my mother and father the other for my brother and I. " He said giving me the basics.
"Yeah I understand."
"Then when I was about fifteen or sixteen I can't really remember what age I was, but anyways... My mother died. My whole family was so heart broken. At one point I even wanted to go and die along with her." He looked down at his hand when he was taking about his mother.
"If you don't mind me asking how did you're mom die."
"She um killed herself by taking sleeping pill. I found her and called the hospital. The doctor said that she was depressed and was under a lot of stress. Back then I couldn't understand how, you know. She was always happy! Always had a smile on her face. But now I know how fake all of it could be. Sometimes I see my mom in me. Always having to put on a smile even though you feel like crying." I put my hand over his shoulders again and then he rested the back of his head on my chest. "My dad remarried a year later. And sometimes I feel like he loves her more than he did my mom. He would always pamper her with gifts and kisses that he never did for ma. I know it's bad to say this but I feel like he caused my mother to end up the way she did, and I could never forgive him for that. Till this day." He clinched his fist and looked up at me with so much anger in his eyes. As he left his head from my chest.
"Um so how was your new mom. Was she like the evil step-mothers in movies." I tried to joke but he wasn't having it.
"No. But she was kind of cool. Like she would basically let us do what we wanted, but that also had a bad effect because later that year I was beating to a pulp and ... And was raped" He said nervously.
"Wait, what?" I asked even though I knew what he said.
"I was raped. At first I was disguised with myself. Like I used to take hot showers to burn off their hands on me.Even though I was bruised But that was short lived because my dad would always tell me to stop wasting the hot water. After that I started to take cold showers and it's not as bad as I thought."
"So like did you tell anyone in your family that you got raped, like they must have saw a differences in your behavior and the bruises?" I questioned.
"Yeah and was I suppose to say? Hey Dad ,Nicole, Daniel you know the crazies thing happened to me three weeks ago, I was-." David said and I stopped him.
"Okay find maybe you couldn't tell them. But did you ever try?" I questioned once again.
"I did tell my brother once, and the next question that came out his mouth was 'So are you gay now?' And after that I didn't talk to him for a month. I did also think about what he said. Before the rape, I never really question myself I never really saw an interest in girls or boys. He said looking down at his hands then back up at me when I asked.
"What do you mean?"
"I never felt so wanted in that way before or wanted anyone Ever since my mom died I became quite, not really wanting talk I just wanted to think. The crazy thing is that I would still be invited to party's and shit, but never really socialize with anyone I just kept to my own got high and basically just chilled. I wanted to talk to more but I felt like if I did the right words would come out. I just end up crying again." He took another large drink of water and continued shortly. "After what happened to me it open my eyes to a new possibility that I could be wanted again. But I know in all the wrong ways. I-I don't know I just felt like I need something like that would like fill up what gaping whole I had in me."
"What your mom left." At that his head shot up.
"What did you say?!" He said getting up from the bed. I tried to grab he back but he pushed me off he and my head hit the back of the headboard.
"Agh! Fuck. L-look David-"
"Don't fucking call me that." He gave me a don't fucking dare look. I put my hand up as defence.
"Okay sorry. But Listen Fix from what I hear is that your doing this because of your mom, her death left a whole in you and you doing whatever you can to patch it up." I got up from the bed a walked over to him. He shook he's head repeatedly. "Look I understand-."
"No no no, that where you wrong Zayn. You don't understand shit! You barely gave a shit about your mom killing your dad. You never called or talk to her after that! I do what I do because I love it!! You got it I fucking love it. A whatever whole I have, has closed long before I met Danielle. So shut the fuck up, grab your money and let's leave before they try to charge us for staying in this fucking place for too long." He walked out the room with his clothes from last night and headed for the elevator. I did the same and met him at the elevator doors. When the door opened I was about to walk in with him but he push he back. "Take the stairs or wait for the next one, I want to be alone for a second." He press closed on the elevator button and I headed for the stairs. fuck I don't even think what I said was that bad. Or maybe I should have just kept quite and let him figure it out himself. Damn and it was going so well too!! I was on the last steps when I saw David talking to Mr Read. He looked up a me a gave me a nod to come over, and so I did.
"Alright boys. My wife sister had a wonderful birthday, mostly thanks to you Clark." I Nod faking a smile, while David rolled he's eyes. "Okay so my butler Carl would take you two back to the location you were in." David and I both nod and said our goodbye to Mr Read and made our way to the door. Once we were out a car was in the front with someone smoking a cigarette next to it. He noticed us a apologized for smoking.
"It okay." I said speaking for both David and I. We got into the car and all I though was that I hope I don't have to see this house again, because it made David and I friendship flushes halfway down the toilet. Hopefully one day he'll forgive me, but until then I'm in neck length water.
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Take My Advice A Short Ziall Story
Storie brevi"Niall." I said in a serious tone. "Take my advice; go home, clean yourself, and change your act I can't always bail you out of jail, I'm a college student for fuck sake!"
