When Two Stars Meet

Chapter - 33. Disheartened Hearts & Revelation

Rakshit had tears in his eyes after listening all this. Advit was trying to know the things . All he could understand that there are something that had happened with Shreya in the past . And perhaps she is still not able to forget it and she had guilt . Because of all these she is still suffering . Suddenly Shreya started saying ..

" Tujhe pata hai , hamesha hamesha aisa lagta hain jaise ki koi mera gala aise aise pakad ka baitha hai { while strangling her neck } main kuch bolne hi jaati hu lekin bolte bolte aisa lagta kisi ne mera muh band kar rakha hai. Kabhi kabhi saans tak lena mushkil ho jata hai mera . Main...... main..... kisi ko bata bhi nahi sakati . Aakir sunta kon hai meri ? Koi nahi ... Sabki zindgi barbaad hogi meri wajah se . Tujhe pata hai mere gharwaale tak mujhe galat thehraate hain unsabko lagta hai mujhe bachpan se itna pamper kia gaya hai ki mujhe attention ki adat hogai hai. Aur agar mujhe attention nahi milta to me aisi harkate karti hun .........Sabko aise lagta hai mujhe acha lgata hain jab har koi mere aas pass rehta hai aur sabka attention mujhe milta hain . Lekin aisa nahi hai . Mujhe har kisi ka attention nahi chahiye . Mujhe bass thoda sa , us samay bass thoda sa bilkul thoda sa support chahiye tha . Aur yaad hai Sparsh Bhaiya ne kya kaha tha ki Unke exam ke karan unhe jyda attention mil raha hai to mujhe acha nahi lag raha hai aur me drama kar rahi hun . Lekin aisa nahi hai . Me sach me kasam kha kar kehti hun mujhe nahi chahiye mujhe attention , nahi chahiye kisi ka bhi saath me ..... me akele sab kuch handle kar lungi . Tujhe , Riya aur Mani ko bhi lagta hoga ki me tum logo ki zindgi me bass ek problem hu . Me us paltu janwar ki tarah hogai hun jiske saath rehne se sabko usse attachment ho jati hai aur phir hum chahte na chahate hue bhi uske lie sab kuch karte hain. Gale ki wo haddi ban chuki hu me sabki zindgi mein joki na ki niklai jaa rahi hai aur na hi ugali ....."

Ye sab sunkar Rakshit fatafat Shreya ke aansu pochta hai , use gale lagta hai aur bade pyaar se bolta hain ....

" Jaisa tu soch rahi hai waisa kuch bhi nahi hai. Tu koi janwaar nahi hai samjhi . Khud ko itna downgrade kyu kar rahi hai . Pagal . Tujhe yaad hai tu hamesha bolti thi ki Apni baatein unhe samjhao jo unhe samjhana chahate hai, unhe batao jinhe aapke hone na hone , khush rahene aur dukhi rehne se sach me farq padta ho. Aur tum koi aam insaan nahiho samjhi . Ye ( khud ki taraf ishara karte hue ) ye jo ladka jo Maharashtra , Goa , Chandigarh me itna famous hai wo sirf isilye kyunki tune , JOJO tune uski jaan bachai , use jeena sikhaya . Ek acha dost , ek acha inssan , ek sacha doctor sab tune banaya . Riya ki parents ki care tune aise ki jaisi ki wo tere khud ke parents ho , Mani ko ek family tune di , teri zidd thi tu use ek achi zindgi degi . Aur aise hi naa jaane kitne logo ki tune jaan bachaii.."

" Todo, Nahi aisa nahi hai . Me bojh ban chuki hun , tujh per , Riya per , Mani per bhi . Meri wajah se kai baar tu apne rest time ko bhi chod kar mere pass aya tha kyunki mujhe teri zaroorat hoti thi , Riya kitni baar apni family gathering to chhod kar meri pass aai hai , Apne na jane kitne weekends per sab kuch chhod kar mera dhyan rakha hai . Aur Mani hamesha meri medicnes ke liye raat bhar bhataka hai . Agar me na hoti to ye sab kabhi nahi hota , Tu bhi apni zindgi me khush rehta ...Me sach me sabki life me bhojh ban kar reh chuki hun , na apna career ache se set kar paai aur na hi aur kuch ....."

Itna bolte hi uski saans uper neeche hone lagi .. Rakshit scream...

"Jojo ....Jojo saans le ...."

"Calm down , look into my eyes .. Mein hun yahan . Shhhh . Breath in breath out ..."

Advit was froze for a moment after hearing this name . He was hoping that she is not the Jojo that he was looking for . He came back into his senses . Rakshit ne hadbadate hue pucha ...

" Yaha se medical store kitna dur hain....."

"Thodi dur hai ...."

Rakshit hugged Shreya very tightly and she was crying profusely . She keeps screaming and crying after all , all these thoughts were kept inside her for many years . When she got drunk , she fortunately gets chance to express what she was feeling all these years ....