Everything I Didn't Say (Calum Hood Love Story)

Chapter 31: F.W.B (Friends With Breakfast)

*Kalin's POV*

I know that my face probably said otherwise, but I truly felt bad for saying what I did. He didn't deserve that. I stood in the middle of his bedroom while he continued to stay on the bed. The silence was unbearable.

I could feel the tears start to form in my eyes, and soon they began to stream down my cheeks. Just as I went to wipe them away so he wouldn't notice my crying, he wrapped his arms around my waist.
I cried even more once he did so, I put my forehead against his chest. Calum tightened his grip on me and ran his hands up and down my back.

I placed my hand on his chest pushed him slightly away from me, "Calum, you shouldn't be hugging me right now." I slightly laughed.
"Why not? My babygirl is upset, I think this is the right solution." His plump lips were placed on the top of my head.

"I suck! I totally suck, why did I say that to you?" I took a step backwards.

He took a step forward, "You were just upset, it was my fault I was overreacting. I shouldn't have been mad because you were getting the help you needed." Calum grabbed both of my hands.

"You deserve better," I looked at the ground. He put his hand underneath my chin and tilted my head to look at him. "Why would you say something like that?"
I scrunched my eyebrows, "I mean it's true," I walked him to the bed and sat with him, "I love you, but lately things haven't been the very best. Since when have we ever had jealousy issues like this in the past?"

"We never have, but that's because we broke up because we knew the distance was going to be hard. But babygirl we aren't in the position we were in 2 years ago, I'm home now."

"Yeah and I'm in college, and I rarely come home." I watched as his lips turned into a pout, "I really think you deserve better-"
"Kalin! Stop saying that, it's like you're just giving up on us," he grabbed the hand that had my ring, "This is what that ring is for, I'm not ever going to give up on us. You're not only my girlfriend, you're also my best friend and you're always going to be. I trust you and I trust your intentions with my heart, and you should be doing and feeling the same way."

He wasn't going to give up, and that's just the kind of person he is. If he wants something, he's going to get it, one way or another.
I smiled as he kissed my cheek, "Dude, I just don't want to make you feel uncomfortable or worried when I'm there. Obviously you don't like Blake, but I really need the help. I can promise you that nothing will happen."

"Let me just ask you this," he leaned his back onto the headboard, "What were you expecting to get out of this conversation?"

I looked away from him and spoke a little quieter, "I thought we were gonna take a break, possibly break up."

"Is that what you want?" Calum crossed his arms in front of his chest. I didn't say anything, I couldn't say anything. I mentally prepared myself for the break up before I came over here today, I thought for sure that was going to happen.
"Calum, you know I absolutely love being with you. Us being together lately has been so toxic, and you know that. I think us breaking up the first time you went on tour was better for our relationship. I loved being with you on tour, but ever since I left we have never had trust issues like this before." Tears began to form in my eyes so I looked away from him, "You are my best friend, and you have always been and you'll continue to be. Right now I just want a best friend, and maybe we can try again later, but right now I just need a best friend." I started crying more than I thought I would have, I covered my face and cried into my hands.

Calums arms wrapped tightly around my weeping body, "It's okay, you've got a best friend."

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Right now we laid next to each other in his bed, he had his arm wrapped around my shoulder and my head laid on his chest.

"Kalin, no matter how you feel about me, you're still going to be my babygirl, and you're always going to be the girl I am absolutely crazy in love with. I want that ring to remain on your finger," I looked at it and twirled it on my finger, "I want you to know that all those promises I made to you are permanent, and they aren't changing for anybody."

"I don't want to be with anyone else, it's only you and it's always going to only be you. I just- I don't need space, I need like need-"

"You need space," he chuckled at my loss of words, "It's okay, you can say it, I'm totally blocking you from your crazy college days."
"Shut up!" I laughed, "I'm not looking for 'crazy college days' but I do need to focus. I can't have someone call me right as I'm about to start working, because then I don't get off the phone until after midnight. And I'm going to go to sleep if I'm tired, sorry schoolwork."

"What about Blake?" He ran his fingers through my hair. I groaned, "What about him?"

"Is he going to know the boundaries, that you don't want a boyfriend, just a study partner?"

"Yes, he knows that. I think he's got a new lady that he's all over now." I said and Calum sighed in relief, "Good. Hey, you know what really is going to stink about this 'best friend' business?"

I raised my head and scooted to the other side of the bed, "What?"

"I'm barely going to get to see you, or talk to you now. You're only gonna come home for holidays and stuff like that." He looked away from me.
"I'm still going to come home as often as I can," I smiled, "You could always come every morning and walk me to class."

"Yeah, like I'm gonna drive 30 minutes to walk some girl, who just friend zoned me, to class everyday," he said, "What kind of meds did the doctors put you on? You're talking crazy."

I furrowed my eyebrows, "Damn it was just a suggestion, don't be an ass." I threw my jacket at him. All he did was smile and laugh in my face.
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Danielle and I were getting ready for our first class of the day, which actually starts in 2 hours from now, but you know sometimes it's fun not rushing to get ready.
"I sort of feel bad for Cal," she randomly blurted. I brought my hands into my lap waiting for her to continue, "Only because I think he will think that whatever was going on with you and Blake last time, is going to happen again."

I sighed and shook my head, "I don't know why no one is believing me, when I say nothing is going to happen. I only want Cal, and he knows that." Dani put her hands up in defense, "I'm just saying don't get snappy at me, missy." She snapped the plates of her flat iron at me.

Someone knocked on the door 3 times. I looked over at Dani with a questioning look, "Who is that?"

She shrugged and laughed slightly, "Blake?"

"Shut up!" I chuckled as I stood up to answer the door. I opened the door and there stood Calum, looking all bright eyed and stuff.

"Good morning Kali! I'm here to walk you to class," he leaned down and placed a kiss on my cheek "Aw, you guys are so cute." Danielle cooed from behind us, I smiled.
Calum brought a bag from behind his back, "I also brought breakfast."

My eyes widened and I pulled him inside of the room, "You didn't have to come, I'm glad you brought the food but, you didn't have to come. You know since you made such a big deal about the drive." I said to him as I walked him over to my bed.

"I'm glad you brought food too." Danielle's voice sounded muffled as she stuffed something into her mouth.
"I'm glad you too are only happy because I brought food along." He hit me softly with my pillow. Several pieces of my hair fell over my face. "You're too kind." I blew him a kiss.

Cal ended up walking me to my fist class of the day, which I think was absolutely sweet. He walked me to class, and brought food? I am one lucky girl, who just let the love of her life go.

***OMG so guys, I'm going to see 5SOS in 8 days, and I could be any more excited. I'm gonna freak out I swear. Well thank you guys for reading, and don't forget to vote & comment ❤️. ***