Chuuya has come to a conclusion, Seoul is beautiful.
Chuuya has walked around the city for about two hours, he started in the Gangnam District, went to the Bongeunsa Temple and now he's eating in front of the Lotte World Adventure. He thought about inviting Dazai to come with him, but he ended up just deciding to leave him alone. The redhead ends up drinking his soju alone while eating bibimpap, and listening to the restaurants music.
Chuuya feels a certain level of uneasiness, seeing all this students who are around his age and using their school uniforms. He doesn't understand one word they are saying but for some reason Chuuya wishes he could participate in their conversation. He wishes he could be complaining about his final exams. He wishes he could be applying to university. He wishes he could complain about his parents to his school friends. He wishes he could be a normal person for at least one single day. He grabs his phone.
@LeFestin: I miss you
Sent at 23:03
Seen at 23:05
@LoveRedheads: I miss you too
@LoveRedheads: What are you doing??
Sent at 23:05
Seen at 23:06
@LeFestin: I'm eating right now, and you?
Sent at 23:06
Seen at 23:06
@LoveRedheads: Thinking about life and just laying in bed honestly
Sent at 23:07
Seen at 23:07
@LeFestin: Honestly I was kind of feeling sad right now
@LeFestin: You know just...
@LeFestin: I would like to be normal, just like a normal teenager
@LeFestin: I'd like to stress about exams, to go out with friends and other things they do
@LeFestin: I love the Port Mafia, I really do
@LeFestin: It really gives me a reason to live, like a purpose
@LeFestin: But I feel like I'm missing so much of what it is to live
Sent at 23:09
Seen at 23:09
@LoveRedheads: If you want, when we meet on Christmas, we can just wear some school uniforms and walk around like normal teenagers
@LoveRedheads: I know it won't change much
@LoveRedheads: we cannot really change our reality, but we can delude ourselves into believing we are normal
@LoveRedheads: But if you want to, we can leave the Mafia one day and became normal people somewhere where they won't find us.
@LoveRedheads: I would love to ust do taxes with you
Sent 23:12
Seen 23:13
Nakahara Chuuya is crying. Nakahara Chuuya is crying in public. Nakahara Chuuya can't stop crying.
Chuuya freezes, the tears spilling from his eyes before he can stop them. He puts his phone down hastily, trying to muffle the soft sounds of his sobs. People might stare, but he can't find it in himself to care. His chest aches with the weight of unspoken desires, and the bitterness of longing clings to his throat.
An older woman sitting nearby notices him and leans over gently.
"괜찮아, 얘야?" ("Are you okay, kid?") she asks in Korean, her voice soft with concern.
