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Part 31 BLAST TO THE FUCKING PAST

April 23 2015 calla is 10 years old and axisha is 11 their parents are 34 MOM 36 DAD

TW SH ED DESCRIPTIVE GORE

Dad arrived home drunk again this shit sucks I just wanted to be a happy family for once but nope axisha was at a sleepover and my mom was 'at work' I didn't believe it she usually gets home at 2AM so I barley see her but I also kinda have insomnia so I'm usually awake but I have to pretend to be asleep or else I'll be in trouble

it was 12 at night my dad went to the kitchen and he grabbed a bottle of vodka "CALLA GRAB MY CIGARETTES" I heard my father yell from downstairs and I was scared so I did as he said "here you go dad anything else? " I gave him his cigarettes and a lighter "grab me my ash tray or I'll use your hair as one" he said so i quickly ran upstairs and grabbed his ash tray and brought it back down my dad then yelled at me to go to bed so I did

I was up all night and at 3 I heard my mom come home and I heard dad wake up and he started to yell at her wondering where she was and why she was gone do long

"LISTEN IF YOU WANNA GO STAY OUT LATE NEXT TIME DON'T FUCKING COME HOME SLUT" I heard my father yell I felt like crying but couldn't I had heard this argument to many times it's hard for me to express how I felt "I WAS AT WORK CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND WE NEED MONEY AND ALL YOUR LAZY ASS DOES IS DRINK ALCOHOL DRIVE HOME DRUNK AND SUCK ON ANOTHER STRIPPERS TITS " I heard my mother yell I covered my head with blankets pillows and my favorite stuffed animal it was a koala I named him Coco I have had it for 9 years pretty much since birth 1 year and 8 months after I was born

I fell asleep but then woke up 2 hours later and my mom had bruises on her face and cuts on her body I didn't think anything of it only because she looked like this all the time "CALLA FUCKING DO THE DISHES" my mother yelled at me "I HAD YOU TO BE MY LITTLE MAID SO DO YOUR FUCKING JOB OR YOUR GROUNDED" she yelled again so I just nodded and grabbed dish soap and begun to do the dishes

my mother told me to do whatever she wanted or else I was as bad as a prostitute on the street so I just did I never wanted to end up like that in life I wanted to attend college for law school and become a lawyer but my mom and dad said I would be better off as a maid or stripper and that the only thing I had going for me was my looks I was the child who got the looks supposedly so my parents often made me show off my body when I went to school or when we went into public

my parents often yelled at me for being to fat so I didn't eat often and my parents brought me to a doctor when I was 8 cause they didn't understand why I wouldn't eat and I was told I had an eating disorder I didn't understand what it was I just didn't like eating

"CALLA I BOUGHT YOU NEW CLOTHES YOU LOOK LIKE A HOMELESS PERSON" my mom yelled it's not like my family didn't have money they just didn't really care enough to do anything nice we live in a 2 bedroom house with 1 bathroom I hate it here it fucking sucked bull ass

"try them on see if they fit make sure to show me" my mother rushed me into my room to change so I changed into a very tight skirt and a crop top "mom I don't like it it's uncomfortable" "OMG IT LOOKS GREAT CALLA PERFECT MWAH" my mom yelled she didn't even listen to me I assumed she was drunk sometimes she was caring but only when she was sober I remember this one thing so vividly in my head I was 4 my sister was 6 and my mom and dad were actually happy I stood in the middle axisha next to my dad and my parents were in the back they had real smiles that's the main thing i remember when they were sober

"calla come on let's go to eat we will be traveling to Canada and we can go to olive Garden I heard it looks nice so pack clothes also call your sister she hasn't come home yet also go clean the living room the cat shit on the carpet I'm about to give away the cat so go clean chop chop oh one more thing pack your sisters bag then clean the bathroom bye sweetie" mom said this was a time mom seemed nice but really she just wanted me to clean so I did as I was told and cleaned the house called axisha made sure she was on her way back then I packed her bag then I packed mine