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11.

- 6 months later –

Michael, Luke, Calum and Ashton are away on tour currently with One Direction and I couldn't be happier for them, they deserve this more than anyone else. They have worked so hard and they're finally getting everything they've ever wanted. I'm so proud of them but I don't know why I feel so lost and empty right now.
"Honey are you alright?" my mom asked as I sat on the couch.
"Huh? Oh yeah I'm alright." I said quietly looking down at the floor.
"Are you sure? You're acting kind of sad? Does this have to do with Michael and the guys leaving?" she asked.
"NOO IT'S NOT THAT!" I said, "Just leave me alone, please?"
"Alright, I'll go." she said and walked away.
I got up and walked back into my bedroom, I fell on the bed and began crying. I heard my phone ringing and I looked to see Michael face-timing me. I quickly wiped my eyes and answered.
His cheery face came across my screen, "HELLOOOO CAROLINE!"
"CAROLINE WE MISS YOU, MOSTLY MICHAEL BUT WE MISS YOU TOO." Luke said.
"Not as much as Michael does." Calum said.
"HEY I MISS CAROLINE THE MOST!" Ashton shouted.
I chuckled, "You guys are idiots."
"Yeah but we're your idiots." Luke said.
"Yeah... I guess so." I muttered.
"Hey what's wrong Caroline?" Ashton asked coming into view.
"It's nothing..." I said.
"It's definitely something." Michael said.
"It's nothing, honestly." I said, "It's nothing you need to worry about, okay?"
"Now that you tell us not to worry it's just going to make us worry more, you know that right?" Calum asked.
I rolled my eyes, "Seriously, there's nothing wrong, you don't need to worry about a thing." I said, "Now instead of talking about me, what's going on with you guys? How's touring?"
"Touring is touring!" Calum said.
"BUT THE BEST PART IS WE GET TO SEE AMERICA CAROLINE! IT'S SO AMAZING, AND THE FANS THEY'RE SO SUPPORTIVE OF US!" Luke said.
"It's what we've always dreamed of Caroline." Ashton said.
"And we owe it all to you, Car." Michael said, "If you didn't believe in us and gave us that extra push to move forward we wouldn't be here right now. We wouldn't be living out our dreams."
"THANK YOU CAROLINE!" they shouted, "WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!"
"BUT MICHAEL LOVES YOU MORE." Calum yelled.
"Calum you dick, shut up!" Michael groaned.
"Well, it's true." Calum said.
"Oh we have to go Caroline; we've got interviews to do before the show tonight." Ashton said, "We will talk to you soon."
"Bye Caroline!" they all said.
"Goodbye guys!" I smiled sadly and waved.
When the screen went black I sighed and fell back on my bed.
I got a text from Ashton later, 'you alright Caroline? You didn't seen okay earlier, you wanna talk about it?'
'Ashton, I don't want you guys worrying about me, you're on tour; you should be having the time of your life, I'm fine don't worry about me.'
'Why do I have a hard time believing that Car?'
'Because you want something to be wrong with me? I don't know!'
'Fine, but if there is anything is wrong with you, promise you'll talk to one of us about it, okay?'
'Yes okay fine I will.'
'Anyways, how's everything back home?'
'I thought you guys had a show tonight.'
'We do in a couple hours, I just wanted to make sure you were okay.'
'Well I'm not, there you happy?'
'What's wrong Caroline? You know you can talk to me about it.'
'I just- I uhh I don't want to talk about it.'
'You miss Michael, don't you?'
'Yeah, and he doesn't seem like he misses me at all...'
'That's not true, because he talks about you all the time, wondering what you're doing, if you're okay.. he even wonders if you're awake, or asleep and if you're thinking of him... he misses you and he cares about you, a lot actually.'
'You mean that?'
'Yeah I really do. I don't know what brought those thoughts on but just remember you mean so much to him, more than anyone.'
'Thanks Ashton I really needed this.'
'I'm always here for you, anytime Car. :)'

-The Next Morning-

I'm up getting ready for the day when I get a call from Michael.
"Mikey, why are you calling me so late over there?" I asked, "Shouldn't you be asleep now?"
"No I-I need to talk to y-you!" He slurred.
"Michael? Are you drunk?!" I asked.
He laughed, "Pfft noooooo!"
"Yes you are Michael! Where's Ashton?" I asked.
"It's always fucking Ashton with you, isn't it?" he yelled.
"What are you talking about, Michael?" I asked.
"Nothing, you just seem really into Ashton is all!" he said.
"What do you mean I seem into Ashton?" I asked, "I never said anything about being into Ashton for fucks sake!" I said.
"You didn't have to say it Caroline, you may have told me that you liked me but I know for a fact that you're into Ashton!" he explainers
"No I'm not into Ashton, he's just a friend." I stated, "I don't know where all of this is coming from but would you please shut the fuck up and find Ashton for me please?"
"Get Ashton yourself." he hissed.
"Michael Gordon-" I started but was cut off.
"Whatever, just go fuck Ashton; I don't fucking care about you anyways." he said, "I never did in the first place." he hung up the phone.
I felt myself go numb and the phone dropped from my hand and it dropped to the ground with a crash. I fell down on the floor with tears streaming down my face.
'No one fucking cares about me.' I thought, 'I'm all alone, Ashton was wrong; Michael doesn't care about me.'
I sat there for a while frozen and couldn't move. I heard my phone ringing but I couldn't move to answer it I was too shocked. It kept ringing and ringing until I finally was able to move my arm and grab it.
"H-hello?" I whispered hiccupping.
"Caroline what is going on?" Ashton asked.
"I-I don't k-know..." I start.
"Have you been crying, Car?" he asked.
"N-n-no." I said softly.
"You're lying Caroline." he said.
"I-I" I stuttered.
"Here's Michael, I'll just ask him." He said.

-Ashton's POV-

Michael walked in and stalked into his hotel room. I gave my phone to Luke and Calum and walked in after him and asked about Caroline.
"Why the fuck would you ask me about Caroline? I'm sure she doesn't want me, she just used me to get to you." Michael yelled.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"Don't act like you're stupid Ashton. You know exactly what I'm talking about." He said, "We're you in on it too? Did you know she didn't like me, and you made me think she liked me?"
"Michael what is going on? What are you talking-" I started but stopped when Michael's fist came in contact with the side of my face.
"Do you only want to hurt me? Huh?" He stalked closer and threw me into a wall.
"St-stop M-Michael." I stuttered, "Please."
Michael pushed me down and walked out of the room and out of the hotel.

-Caroline's POV-

"What was that noise?" I heard Luke ask.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"Nothing Caroline, go check and see." Calum muttered to Luke.
"Is there something wrong, Cal?" I asked.
"Nope, nothing's wrong Car, don't worry." he said, "So how's Australia?"
"Same as it always is." I said, "I've been hanging out with Alyson since she's back from school."
"Michael, what's going on?" I heard Luke ask.
"Nothing, just leave me the fuck alone." he roared and I heard a faint slam.
"Let me talk to Ashton, Cal." I said.
"Okay give me a moment." he said and I heard shuffling and mumbling.
"Hello?" I heard Ashton say.
"Ashton, is everything alright there?" I asked.
"Y-Yeah everything's f-fine Caroline, nothing to worry about." he said, "Are you alright?"
"N-no, no I'm really not." I said trying to hold back tears, "I-I uhm, Michael h-he said some things and h-he doesn't care about me anymore. Actually he told me he never cared about me."
"Car-" he started.
"I've gotta go." I said and hung up the phone, turning it off and throwing it on the bed and crying myself to sleep.

-The Next Day (Michael's POV)-

I wake up the next day and I don't recognize the room. I looked over and seen a random girl lying next to me. I quickly get up and pull my pants on and quickly left the room. I rushed back to the hotel and Ashton stopped me.
"Mate what the fuck was that last night?" Ashton asked.
"What the hell are you talking about I don't remember anything that happened last night?" I yelled.
"Michael, you punched me in the face and you threw me to the ground." he said, "You said something about me knowing that Caroline doesn't care for you; which is so wrong by the way; and that you're hurt."
"Ashton, I-I'm sorry I-I didn't know." I said sadly, "I-I'm sorry mate."
"It doesn't matter, where were you at?" he asked looking up at me.
"I-I don't know." I said looking down, "I didn't know where I was, Ash."
"Where'd you come from Michael?" he asked.
"I-I don't know; I-I slept with a random girl I don't know." I said, "I-Is Caroline okay?"
"She was upset when I called her last night... she told me that you told her something, but she's doubting your feelings for her Michael." he said, "What are you doing to Caroline?"
"I-I don't know what I did." I admit, "I don't know."
I fall back on the couch and hide my face in my hands. Ashton sits beside me and rubs my back.
"She told me what you said Michael, but I don't think you wanna kn-" he started.
"What'd she say, Ash? Please tell me." I pleaded.
"She said, you told her that you never cared about her." he said, "You were really pissed about the thought of her liking me; Michael what makes you think that?"

"I-I don't know; she just always talks to you, it feels like she doesn't care about me because she never tells me anything." I said, "It's like she doesn't care about me, she doesn't want to open up to me. I don't know."

I could feel tears well up in my eyes and I tried to keep them back.
"I fucked up, Ashton." I muttered in my hands, "I fucked up and lost the only girl I cared about."
I sat there for a while, "Ashton, h-how do I get her back?"
"Talk to her Michael." he said.
"But what if she hates me now?" I asked, "What am I saying, of course she hates me."

"She doesn't hate you, she's just hurt because what you said." he said.

"But I didn't mean it Ashton; I would never in a million years mean it." I said looking at the floor, "I love Caroline, so much more than I love anything else in this world, she's my world, and right now my world is slowly falling apart piece by piece; and I feel like I can do nothing about it but watch it all come crumbling down." "How do I stop it?"

"You fix it Michael." he simply said, "You fix it and build it back up again.

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