change | m.c.

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okay so i'm updating because i'm happy af right now. dsaghjkla,,, so my rowyso concert was yesterday and fuck dhsagjkdsf i'm so fucking excited. it was amazing and like they were in front of me fuck they were actually there. dshagkjdsf; i cried and had such an amazing time  hgsdjklf;,, omg. 

+++ okay sorry, anyways i hope you enjoy the update, this one is sorta better than the trash one i updated before. i hope you enjoy it, ily. ~

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The doctor walked up to me and said, "Your dad is doing fine now, I think he's going to pull through."

I nodded and wiped my eyes furiously, "Thank you doctor."

"But I think you need to go home and get some rest, he should be up in the morning, you can come visit him then." he said.

I nodded and walked back into my dad's room and said goodbye and walked out, getting in my car and driving home. When I opened the door and locked it I walked upstairs to my room and sat my stuff on my bed, then my phone rang. I grabbed it.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Carolineeeeeeeeee!" Ashton yelled.

"Ash, are you drunk?" I asked.

"Maybe just a tad." he laughed, "So I heard you snogged Michael!"

"Why are you calling me drunk to tell me that?" I asked.

"Because" he said, "Because I kinda maybe wished it was me, but that's something a sober me wouldn't say because I want what's best for you, and yeah maybe I can be good to you but I know you don't like me that way so I kind of push my feelings to the side for your sake because Michael loves you and you love Michael, and you don't love me the way you love Michael."

"Ashton, what are you saying?" I asked.

"I fucking love you Caroline, okay?" he yelled, "I'm fucking in love with you and you love my fucking mate!"

"I don't know what to say." I said.

"Of course, don't worry about it okay. Forget I ever said anything, okay? Just don't talk to me anymore, okay?" he said and hung up.

"Ash-" I started, but he'd already hung up.

I tried to call him back multiple times but he kept hanging up on me. I fell back on my bed and screamed. My phone rang again and I picked it up, "Hello?"

"Well, you're a big bundle of sunshine!" Luke said.

"What do you want Luke?" I asked.

"Well, I'm with a drunk Ashton and he keeps repeating something about fucking things up with you or something, I don't know." he said, "So what's going on?"

"I have no idea anymore, okay?" I yelled frustrated, "I'm just so confused now."

"About?" he asked.

"I don't wanna talk about it right now." I said, "I'm going to sleep now bye Luke." I hung up.

I fell asleep crying that night.

-Ashton's POV-

Luke walked back to me and sat down beside me, "What's wrong mate?" he asked.

"I-I don't k-know. One minute I'm t-talking t-t-to Caroline and th-the next I-I'm admitting t-t-to her I f-fucking l-love her." I admitted, "I-I don't know. I'm just s-s-so confused Luke."

"Why would you admit that to her?" he asked.

"I-I don't k-know I wasn't t-th-thinking." I stuttered, "I fucked up."