Nociception & Nonsensical Metaphors

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sometimes i'll tell my friends that i had a weird dream but i cant remember it.
why, you ask?
i knew the dream was weird but as far as the details... all i can ever think of is nothing... but you. the way your beautiful  eyes brighten your cute smile. and the way your smile gently warms my heart. i truly believe that you could bring me back from the dead by simply moving your lips.

i've never struggled this hard in my life. this fight won't get me anywhere. day after day even when you're away. i fight myself, i fight my urge to hold you. because if i did, i fear i won't be able to let go. this feeling inside me cant win. but neither can i.

i would be a fool to think that we could never be together. and i will die if we remain apart. have i ever told you i felt this way?? i didn't even know until now. i want to watch you live, to protect you, to be held by you and to let you know that you matter, that someone cares. i'll always be there if you let me be.

your beauty comes from deep within, perhaps farther than i'd venture, and shines brightly on the outside. the truth is that you had my soul the moment i saw u widen your lips. when your cheeks rose and your eyes narrowed and arched ever so slightly. you don't need to tighten your grip because i've surrendered my life to you. my soul i have given to you.

sometimes i find myself desperately searching all around to find something in the world that rivals your beauty. thinking that there is no way that my life has yet been completed so soon. but these endeavors are in vain for i need not look further than your flawless face. an image in my head i never want to fade.
could it be possible?
such unparalleled beauty in a single entity?
to gaze upon you. you have already repaid me for the life that you took.

i know now why i can't remember my dreams...
and it's because i would prefer to remember you over any paradisal  vision my brain can conjure.