More Than Meets The Eye [Englot]

Chapter 72

Charlotte's pov

"Say bye to Engfa for me, ok?" Sun asked as he was gathering his things.

"Yes, sure. Sun, I..." I got up from my seat and walked to him.

"Mmm?"

"I know this is not really professional but..."

I went for the hug straight away, because I knew that if I kept thinking about it I wouldn't have done it. And now that Sun was hugging me back, I was glad I did.

"Thank you, Sun. Thank you for taking such good care of us."

"Of course, love. I'll give you a little time... but at some point you and I need to have a conversation." he said, patting my head gently.

I looked up at him, my eyes watering. Sun was like a brother to Engfa and it felt like he wanted to talk to me before he could give me his full benediction. He was so caring...

"See you tomorrow, Charlotte." he said before he left.

I stayed there, sitting on Engfa's desk, looking back to the last few days... and the rollercoaster of emotions I went through today... Today was... Today felt like... the start of something new. She finally asked me out and we confessed our feelings to each other... I almost couldn't believe it...

"Hey..." Engfa woke me up from my daydreaming, leaning against the door.

"Hey..." I replied with a smile.

She was so damn beautiful... The way she was looking at me was so warm, her eyes were shining with a new light that I'd never seen before.

"Sun is gone, he says bye."

"Oh... Ok. I guess it's time for us to go too." Engfa said, going to her desk to take her purse and her jacket.

Us... Damn...

"You're ready?" she asked.

I realized that getting off work would mean going to Engfa's place. Was I ready for this? Yeah, sure... Maybe? It felt a bit overwhelming to know that she finally wanted to open up to me... In weeks of being intimate with her she never offered me once to come to her home. We only spent time at my place... I didn't know what to expect.

Half an hour later, we got out of a cab and entered a large building. The lobby was fancy but not too crazy either. There was no concierge or anything. But yet, it was gorgeous. Engfa turned to me with soft eyes, as I was looking around everywhere. She bit her bottom lip and scratched the side of her nose while we waited for the elevator.

I could sense that she was a little bit stressed out to have me here, because it was the first time. So I took her hand when we stepped inside the elevator.

"I miss this." I said, caressing her skin.

She brought our hands up and kissed mine gently, looking directly in my eyes, making me shiver.

"Me too..." she whispered.

My heart started to beat louder and louder when we got to her door. Engfa opened it with her free hand and led me inside. Her place looked like it was straight out of a design magazine.


Engfa's pov

"I... It's not as pretty as your place..." I said, feeling the blush going to my cheeks instantly.

"What do you mean? Are you crazy? Did you design this place on your own?!" Charlotte asked, looking around with her mouth opened like she couldn't believe it.

"Y... Yes. But... It's... cold. It doesn't feel alive like yours... Do you know what I mean?"

"Mmm... I think I know what you wanna say but... Damn Engfa, you have great taste!"

"Thanks... I don't... invite a lot of people home... It's not really cosy."

Charlotte wrapped her arms around my waist, sweeping me off my feet.

"With you here against me everywhere is cosy." she said, with the cutest face ever and my heart melted.

"Oh..." I couldn't say a word, too caught up in the turmoil of feelings inside me.

"Are you blushing?" she asked, surprised by my reaction.

"Yes... Come on, let's go to the living room. Do you want something to drink?"

"Mmm what do you have?"

"Lately, I've been into plum soju..."

"Perfect."

I showed Charlotte around quickly and took a bottle out of the fridge. We sat on the couch and I showed her the trick the guy at the Korean restaurant had taught me. I managed to do the whirlpool and Charlotte clapped happily. But I made a mess when I was pouring the drinks... spilling some on the table and the floor. We laughed as I cleaned everything, kneeling down, while Charlotte was saying that she was relieved that I could be clumsy like her sometimes.

"I'm not! I swear I'm usually good with handling things!" I laughed, defending myself.

I gestured a little bit too much and knocked the empty bottle with my elbow. Thankfully, it landed on the carpet. I looked down, sighing, then looked up at Charlotte and both of us couldn't keep it in.

"Ahahahah!" she exploded, falling on her side on the couch.

It was so good to be laughing together like this... She opened her eyes, locking them into mine and I realized how close our faces were right now. I brushed a strand of hair out behind her ear. We stopped giggling as time suspended around us... I came closer, so slowly, until I reached her lips, kissing her.

It was soft, at first. Charlotte hand wrapped behind my neck, pulling me closer, her mouth opening slightly. My tongue grazed her bottom lip, asking for entrance silently. The kiss deepened, making us both moan. Warmth started to spread inside me, my body eager to feel more of her. But I stopped myself, pulling away gently.

"Mmm... I... We need to talk before I can kiss you more." I said, trying to not look flustered.

"Ahem, ok." Charlotte replied, sitting back up.

I joined her on the couch and took her hands in mine. There was a lot that I wanted to tell her.

"I already said it this morning but... I'm really sorry for what happened between us. If only I had been less of a coward I would have confessed to you a long time ago..."

Charlotte stayed quiet, listening to me.

"I was scared of the feelings I was developing towards you. I'm... well, I'm your boss and I also wasn't sure you like me in the same way... All of this... dating a woman, it's new to me... To be honest, it's like I fell for you right from the start... Being with you it's like everything falls into place... I felt at ease, secured... But that last time I got to experience that, it ended badly... So I built walls around myself... and you came and burst through them... It got scary but also felt so good... When we were on that beach in Phuket... I was so turned on and then as you made me come under the stars... I realized that we were... making love and... when you started talking I panicked. I'm sorry, Charlotte."

My voice started to shake and she squeezed my hand gently.

"That's ok, take your time." she said.

"I... I realized how precious what we had was and the more real it got, the more scared I became... Scared to lose it all... But actually thinking that I had lost you, that you were going... with Jeff... all because I couldn't open up to you... It made me see how madly in love I was... I never wanted to hurt you. In any way. I want to be here for you, I want to hold your hand and never let go..."

I was overwhelmed from getting it all out and Charlotte just pulled me in her arms. I let the tears flow silently as her warmth and tenderness were soothing me. She pulled back and her face was...

"Sorry..." she said, wiping her own tears.

"Nooo... Don't..."

We both chuckled as I helped clean our faces... though... Charlotte hadn't said anything yet, so I was pretty sure all of this crying wasn't over...

"I was so scared too... When you disappeared... I had no way to reach you..." her voice was fading.

"I shouldn't have done that... I was so hurt... It was like my worst fears were becoming real..." I admitted.

"I know... I'm so happy this is all over. It's crazy how hard I fell for you Engfa... Since my first day here... Something inside me wanted to... show you that I was worth it... I don't know why..."

"Oh, believe me you are... You're so much more than... Ugh... We already talked about that but... When you first started... When I saw you... I thought that I had been cursed. Don't laugh!" I said, pushing her shoulder.

"Sorry..." she giggled.

"No but for real, Charlotte. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen..."

She blushed, looking shy and proud at the same time.

"I'm sorry I was this hard on you at first... To be honest, you pushed on every button possible... You were so stubborn... I didn't know if I hated it or if I was amazed... Maybe a bit of both but... I'm so happy that you stood your ground... You made such a big impact on all of us... And that's what I love the most about you." I smiled.

"Ok, ok, please stop now. This is too much... It was supposed to be my turn to talk... Pfeww, my cheeks are burning." she said, trying to fan herself with her hand.


Charlotte's pov

"Sorry..." Engfa said, looking a bit guilty.

"That's ok... You also made such a big impact on my life, you know... And I was scared too... Because you're my boss and that... Well... We're not so great with communication... I was afraid... of being too much... What happened between us... It really felt like dating but I couldn't talk about it because I didn't want to risk losing you if you were not feeling the same..."

"We have been so stupid... just because we were full of fears..." Engfa said, shaking her head slightly.

"Yeah..."

"I can tell you now how mad I was every time I saw you laughing with Jeff... I was so jealous..." she admitted.

"And I was feeling the same from time to time when you were with Faye... Jeff manipulated me with this too, telling me he saw Faye kiss your neck one night in a club." I sighed but Engfa's face went blank.

She was like frozen in time.

"How did he know?" she breathed out.

"What..."

"Faye did kiss my neck at Elite."

My eyes got wide. WHAT?

"No, no. Let me explain. I was drunk and some random girl was bothering me, I tried to push her away, many times, I was feeling so nauseous... and Faye came to help me, saying that we were together and she kissed my neck to make that girl go away..."

"Oh..." I didn't know what to say.

"Faye saved me... Cause if she didn't have I would have either puked up on that girl or maybe attacked her or something... I wasn't in my normal state... But you know, there was never something between Faye and I... I couldn't never... It would be like kissing Plaifah, eww..."

"If I would have been there... I would have slapped that girl across the face... No one is touching my girlfriend." I said firmly.

Engfa blushed and all my jealousy went away, letting warmth spread inside again.

"Ahem... Anyway... What I needed to say to you is that... what we developed... It was never just about lust... I mean, you turn me on like no one ever did before..." I blushed like crazy as her eyes got suddenly darker.

Why was I getting affected all of the sudden? She used to tell me that I was bold but so little got me shaking...

"Ahem... b..but..."

Fuck... And now I was stuttering and losing track of what I was saying... I decided to put a hand in front of my eyes just to be able to focus on my thoughts before I would get consumed by her.

"What I want to say is that I fell for you because of everything you are. The way you take care of me, the way you listen to me, your cooking, your kindness, your dimples... Ugh..."

I was not helping myself talking about these...

"The... The way you're dedicated to your work, the way you try to make everything secure, the way you smacked the hell out of Jeff earlier... I love it all, Engfa."

She put my hand away from my face and I gulped as I locked eyes with her.

"Let's promise something. From now on, we will talk about our fears and doubts. We need to say it out loud when we feel hurt, or we need the other to give us comfort, or assert that we love each other... Ok?"

"Yes. Promise." I said, giving my little finger to Engfa.

She interlaced hers and we shook on it, smiling like teenagers.

"I don't want us to go through something like what happened in Phuket. Even if I take full responsibility. I want to be able to go there again and come back here with my heart full and content. And I want to go on adventures, dates, travels..."

I cut her mid sentence, pressing my lips against hers. Engfa gasped and her arms wrapped around mine... not to hold me but to push me away.

"Hey! I wasn't finished!" she giggled, faking being shocked.

I was going to mock her but a sharp pain in my back made me wince.

"Ouch..."

"What's going on? Did I hurt you?" she asked, worried.

"No... It's just... I had the worst sleep for the last few days... Because you weren't with me and... I was so tense about everything..."

"Oh... I did hurt you... I'm sorry, Charlotte. Let me make it up to you. Come here..." she said, spreading her legs, patting the part of the couch in between.

"Huh?"

"Sit down on the floor here, I'm going to massage you!"

It was my turn to giggle and I went down in between her knees. Engfa's hands came to my neck and their warmth soothed me immediately. She worked on the tensions there, then moved on to my shoulders. I had missed this so much.

"Take your sweater off, I can't get to that knot with it." she said at one point.

The cold hair made me shiver as it kissed my newly uncovered skin. I would have whimpered because of the sensation but Engfa beat me to it.

"You ok back there?" I asked as she put her hands back on me.

"Y... Yeah..."

I was pretty sure that not wearing a shirt underneath that sweater was the cause of this... And even if we didn't drink that many glasses of soju... her hands on my skin were starting to make me feel more than good... Engfa's fingers dug deeper into my muscles and I moaned out loud. It wasn't just because it felt great on my sore back... I could feel the tension rising between us... my skin getting hot... and flushed... the tingles spreading inside me...

It was all too much... and also not enough... I was happy to have her taking care of me this way... But this needed to stop... I needed to... Act. So finally, I snapped and turned around quickly, kissing her like my life depended on it.

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Good night <3