Against those fairytales

crumbled

Valentina pov

A loud music so I couldn't hear my heart but it was thumping harsher and harsher. The panic was surging.
The fast car, the traffic, unshakable music, all felt silent.
It was my heart and only heart that was about to get ripped. I was sweating heavily.
The Ac was already on.
It was cold sweat.

It was quite unusual for me.
I never thought a second before murdering anyone.
And this time, Why my heart was complaining?
Maybe it too knows she didn't deserve it.

If there would be a problem, she would have called me. I searched my phone. But there was no bit of sign. I checked again in every corner but soon after I realised.
It was too late. I didn't notice, my phone.
It was on viven home.
I turned the steering and u turn my car in the middle of the road.
I rushed immediately to her home.

While I was driving, I saw her place, it was all burning in huge flame.
I searched here and there.
The firefighters were cooling it down.
I asked one of them.
" There was no girl in the house. We searched it. It was all empty."

My heartbeat sank in disbelief, it lost its high poundness.
My hands were shaky. They were questioning my sin.
Did she? I asked myself again.

I asked repeatedly to everyone. To each one again and again.
Until someone reassured me she was saved but in critical moment.
I kneel down with a relief.
My body turned bit loose. My heartbeat was getting normal.
I took my pills. Checked my pulse a bit.
I beated my chest so i could calm myself.

I rushed to hospitals to hospitals so i could find her.
She wouldn't have gone too far. It might be burn.
Finally, I found her and stepped in her ward.
I saw Yuma, crying and shivering. Much worse than me.
I took small steps and he did notice. He grabbed my arm and pulled me closer.
It was tight grip, almost unbearable.
"Why are you here? " He asked. My eyes widened.
She told him?
"What?" I asked too.
He closed his eyes and in a almost lashed onto me.
"What are you doing with viven? Didn't I told you I don't like you."
I pushed him. With an ick. I replied." I was coming to ses her not you. Back off."
" How do you know? About viven. I mean about her condition." I was in cold sweat. " There was no one beside me was informed."
I looked at him, his eyes filled with suspicion. I clenched my jaw a bit.
I tried to ignore him, approaching to ICU. He grabbed my wrist once again. He grabbed it harshly, with no mercy in his tone.

" I was her friend." I replied.
" Was?" He pointed." I mean still." I looked away, he was checking me thoroughly.
He took me to the empty space of hospital. I was shaking in fear.
He touched my cheeks and asked me again in soft tone.
" Valentina, I am your friend. Didn't I? Your favourite writer. You even had a crush on me. Your might be first love. Right?"
I was still shivering.
His pupil enlarged, hoping for truth.

" Valentina, you didn't hurt her. Right?"
" You could never. You are my friend. You said you are hers too."
" Tell me how did you got to know? I know, you didn't.  I am sorry I was harsh to you. I was escalated. I was panicking like there is bullet inside me."
His cold hands on my warm face, almost like burning. I gulped my fear down.
I cried in a surrending stage. Words felt almost impossible to escape.
" I...I...did nothing. She... should...I.. close the...oven."
"Huh?"
"The oven was open. She didn't closed it." In one go. One breath. One sentence. I spoke.
I exhaled as if i was releasing some pain out of my body.
An impulse decision. How dumb and ashamed to think she stole anything from me.
Everything was normal.

My thoughts curling around my decision, and self sabotaging me over and over but it didn't anticipated a slap.

A big hand slap on my face. It was so hard that I fell on ground.
My nervous system still in shock.
A slap.

" You knew it You didn't even try to be save her. A cannibal is doomed to be cannibal, no matter how well it is fed." His eyes all red, carrying the shame I once carried all the way through here.
Same pity eyes as if I was burden to be kept. Same tortured eyes that were telling me how miserable for me to exist.

It was same eyes that I was  trying to ran away from. Whole my life only to running after it. The same man, with difference face. Same eyes, different name.

He left, letting me savour my own poison.
That the monster that I spent my whole life to kill, it was in my own blood, it was in me. Deep sunken. That monster was me.

Viven pov

My body was aching. Especially my cheek. The doctor were surrounding me.
There was some speech, I couldn't hear. I saw a tall figure listening to one of the doctor.

Before seeing anything clear, my eyes turned shut again.

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