Against those fairytales

circles of manipulation

"Lily. Right?? You were quite good in the company of crytsal. Why did you resign??"
" From the starting, I was big fan of haruki. The moment I got the opportunity, I immediately applied it."
" your cv seems quite promising. But see, you are temporarily secratary, and act like one. Don't try to indulge in his personal matters. I will be back before 15 days. Then the company will decide your position."
"I will surely try to meet your expectation." She bowed her and left.

Haruki pov
I was checking my files and other details, I heard a knock.
" you may enter." I answer without even looking at the door. When i got up, i saw a strange face. Full bangs, short hair, glassses and some office chic outfit.
" Aren't you informed only Hana is allowed in my cabin."
She fixed her glasses and in soft way answered," I would be dealing as your secretory for 15 days."
" Ahh, I remembered Hana had some schedule over doctor." I looked at her and simply stated in one word. " I will handle most of my business, just check calls, appointment and meetings. I hope Hana taught you already."
" ohk, sir."

After a while, I got a text of Rachael.
" honey, you didn't pick my phone. What is wrong with you? "
I sighed and rolled and called back.
" What's issue? I am at my work, Rachael."
" Do you have any other girl there, stop over reacting, I just wanted you to bring icecream for me. Why do you find a reason to shout at me."
" I didn't even sh.." And there she cut the phone. I tightened the grip around the chair and inhaled deeply.
How dare she??
" Is something wrong ??" She asked in bit concerned voice.
" Check your plan and do according to it, i wouldn't pay you extra for sympathy." And I immediately left.
I saw those call and then sky, how dare she talk me like that. Calm haruki, just a child throwing a tantrum.
" Sir?? "
" How many times do I tell you to stay away from me." I roared and threw some bottle on some near her.
" I have to ask you about some details that only you could tell, it was urgent." She had a breaking voice. Her body quite shivering.
Her body was not calm, every nerve felt quite reckless. She was trying to exhale and inhale, I was bit worried but decided to walk away.
I shouldn't have reacted in that way, especially She is new, she might ruin my reputation.
But suddenly her legs tripped through stairs due to body trembling. I somehow managed to grab her.
How come a human person respond like that, with just a little aggression.
She immediately hugged me she was still shivering and crying.
I was bit shocked and bit skeptical.
She hugged me tighter, i tried to push away but she tightened the hold.
" I tried my best... I tried..."
"What are you babbling??" I questioned but she didn't respond.
And at last, i had no option, only to console her. I patted her head and asked her to stop crying, everything is okay.
I offered some water and gradually everything went normal.
" You wanna take some walk to ease your mind."
She nodded.
Meanwhile we were walking, I curiously asked, " I don't wanna be rude but you feel over sensitive."
" Might be, I have like clinically ptsd disorder as my all childhood spent between parents who are so close to divorce but never did. I am still taking medications. "
She paused for a while.
" I can't tolerate to shouting or any sign of hit, it either made me shiver or extreme defensive."
" Ohh, so sorry for that, I hope you recover soon. "
"Yeah, I wish my father died or never married her. I wish I was never born."
" At least,  you have a father to rely on."
". Huh??"
I saw her face with wide eyes, immediately put my face down so she couldn't read my face. Would it be right to say something to a complete stranger, what if it got leaked, what if I am trapped?
" Nothing."
" So funny of you to assume that man having a wisdom for that and my mother, she only remember my name when she is arguing with her man."
" Did your mother ever hit you?? I think your mother is real victim" i stated as I know what actually frustration
" you are talking like your mother did." She jokingly commented.
"She did, " I couldn't help but to utter, this small sentence added with conformation or as rebellion, I was myself confused.
" So you are comparing your two slaps with my lifetime nagging and fighting." She mockingly laughed.
It was an insult, a whole mockery on my life. I finally surrender, her words was forcing me to prove my hurt, to a complete stranger.
" Two slaps?? My mother was drunkard, for a minute, she never let me breath. There was not a single minute passed, she blamed me for her condition. "
" if you are comfortable, you can tell." She grabbed my shoulder lil bit for comfort.
" No, I am not. " I removed her hand, and tears began to flow out of frustration, out of pain.
I kneel down and tried to catch my breath
" ohk, we won't talk to, it's okay." She stood a little bit for something but I held her hand.
Maybe I need a comfort for a while.
She began to rub my back.
" it's okay, it must be hard for you but guess now, you are happy now."
" Happy?? What it is to be happy about, a life without mother and  an empty life with no one around to understand."
" you know,when I was child, she wished I was never born, for some time, she even tried to even kill me. Only I know, how I lived through that."
"Can a mother actually treat this horrible to her own child."
" That woman, I was so glad when she died. "
" As you said, you don't want to share your personal life. How about talking about something else like your music or anything else."
I exhaled deeper, facing other side so she wouldn't recognise my tears.
She slightly touched my hand and blink towards, assuring me it to be the safe place.

But I can't help but resist. The suffering in my body wouldn't easily be withered with mere words.

" I might not relate any of your part, but I can relate to it. How burdensome it would be with this brutality." She consoled.

I turned silent, I didn't utter a word. But the silence was loud.

I looked away, consumed in my thoughts.
She grabbed my tie, pull me close.
She fixed the collar and shirt button.

" It kinda looks messy, she said, while adjusting the shirt.
I looked at her, my heart skipped a beat.
I pushed her away.

" I am so sorry I should maintain the boundaries."
" No, I mean. I gotta go."

I relaxed myself bit.

Suddenly, I saw a call of Rachael.

Another drama

" So you haven't reached home yet. Where's the damn icecream?"
" What do you think me, your slave? "
" So now, your are the slave What about the promise of i will do everything for you?"
" You are acting strange. Are you planning something?"
" Wow. That is your problem, considering every human behaviour as a threat and always ignoring yours."
The moment, I tried to argue back, she cut my phone again. This woman getting on my nerves.
She feels bit changed, as if she found someone new. I swear if i find, I am gonna unalive her.

But thought immediately run towards that girl, maybe lily.
How well she understood me? Maybe because she crossed the same path as me, tha is why.

But this child, she only run after the luxury I own.

Days passed, and our relation turned more intimidate compared to corporates.
Our friendship grown, maybe more than usual.
This woman litreally feels like a woman I wished to have my side.
About Rachael, I rarely spend anytime with her. And day by day, she is getting crazy. Being crazily obsessed like i have no life except her.

" Haruki, you have a girlfriend. Right?"
" Yes. So??"
" I can pretend no longer. I don't like your girlfriend. And I love you."
" Huh!!"
" Make your decision right now. Me or her. I don't want to be anyone's mistress."
I pretend to have some call so I could ignore her question.
But isn’t she right?
That woman rarely got any love in her life and she is more grateful to that spoiled brat.
Maybe I should clear it.

I called rachael.

" I think it's not working. Let's break up," and I cut the phone before she could respond.
No drama,no nothing.
Just me and my future.

" Will you be my girlfriend?"
Her eyes widened and she immediately replied yes and hugged me.

Maybe this is beginning of good time.

But as days passed, she turned a little out of control.
Her actions depicts her vulnerability and she is trying her best to control it.

I bought her perfume. Some luxury kind of.
By mistake, she tripped it, ended up being pieces on the ground.
I was in rage, I began to approach her.
But she pushed me and it led to my foot hurt.

" Ohh god, i am so sorry, i didn't mean to. I am really sorry." And she began to crying.

I know how her eyes emotions overwhelmed her. I hugged and consoled her that everything is okay.

I thought to have my future with her but life doesn’t go as planned.
Her symptoms began to show nore and more frequently.

And her condition turned worse.

Until.

She decided to take her own life.

Her standing behind the guardrail, holding it firmly.
She was crying endlessly.

" I can't do this now, it feels my head is eating me. It feels torture."
My mind was whole shook.
" we can discuss, first come out of this here. "
" Don't come near me or I will jump."
And she jumped.

I took a look and she was falling from the cliff, I was trying to protect but it was no use.
Some people gather around me and hold me firmly, so j wouldn't act out of control.

And that day, I really lost my love of my life.
The grief was irreversible.

Lily pov

I was falling from the ground and rope around my leg tightened a bit.
It hold me.
I took my equipment, so I could maintain my grief around the cliff and don't get myself hurt.

He pulled me back and I climbed through it somehow.

" Wow, valentina, I really thought you are goona die."
" Ohh same pinch." I replied.

"Fuck this rope, see jade, these bruises," I said witha lil pout.
" Don't worry they will fade in no time."

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