Everybody has gone through something that has changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person they once were.
(Dedicated to anyone with insecurities)
It's today. My date with Noah is today. I'm going on a date with Noah! Like literally the first guy to ever actually take the slightest interest in me. What the hell do I wear to a date. I hesitated but reached for my phone anyways. Who has a better style? They practically all wear the same clothes or at least black jeans and a band tee. I put my phone down and sighed. I eyed my phone from the bed sighing in defeat I sent out a group text.
'Hey I know you guys are suppose to come later but I really need help right now can you guys be here in 20?"
My thumb hovered over the send button but before I could even debate I pressed it anyways. Within minutes the replies of a yes filled my phone. I walked towards my closet in attempt to throw some ideas together to try on.
"Man we didn't know you need help with an outfit man we could be playing fifa right now" Michael groaned and sat on my bed. "Shut up" I huffed and turned back into my closet and shutting the door to change real quick. "Okay what do you think?" I walked out in a pink flowy top with white jeans that made me cringe to the bone. Definitely not my style. Luke's eyes roamed my room purposely avoiding mine making me a hint sad. Ashton piped up "it's nice but it's not you. You should wear something that makes you comfortable" Calum was a little too quick to add "you can see the discomfort in your face" as he chuckled. I nodded at Ash's advice but flipped Calum off before walking back into my closet. "Can you guys just like come in here and just like piece together an outfit?" Michael jumped up. "I've always wanted to do this" he smiled before running in my closet. Yet he was the one who was complaining? Calum and Ashton ran in after Michael leaving Luke still sitting on the bed slightly uncomfortable. I sat down beside him. " you okay?" I Asked concerned. "Yeah! It's just- nevermind." He shut his mouth making me disappointed. " Look i'm not one to pester into someone's business and force them to tell me. I believe if you wanted me to know you would tell me, but I do want you to know that you I'm always going to be here for you." I smiled and place my hand on his knee. Immediately internally face palming my actions as this just made it 10x more awkward I quickly withdrew my hand. "Thanks" he smiled the tension soon leaving the room. "WE GOT IT" I heard the boys yell before stumbling out of the closet with each one of them wearing one of my bras but holding a gorgeous outfit in there hands. "what the hell why are you wearing my bras?" They laughed before Ashton added "be glad it wasn't your underwear. I shuttered at the thought and grabbed the items of clothing to try on.
After hesitantly putting on the outfit out of experience I always loved an outfit but just simply hated it on me. I looked in the mirror a wave of nerves flooding me. I look fat. I can't wear crop tops like this because of my stomach. This was the most hated part of my belly. People say I'm skinny but I know they just say that because they feel obligated to. I hate this why can't I be skinny Like Britney. I nearly broke down. I tried telling myself it wasn't that bad that If maybe I stood more straight it would be okay but I wasn't so sure. My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door and I quickly whipped my head around and let the words fall from lips."come in" and turning back towards the mirror.
"You okay?" Luke slowly opened the door. I sucked in a deep breath before plastering a fake smile and turning around completely. "Yup never better" his eyes roamed my body making me cringe at the thought of him seeing me in this outfit that I probably looked like a jumbo shrimp in. "You look beautiful" he smiled. I felt a flutter at the pit of my stomach at the thought somebody could really like my appearance. 'He has to say that he's your friend' I heard the whisper in my ear nearly sending a shiver down my spine. I could nearly feel the cold breath travel from my ear down my neck. I shook it off before looking back up to Luke's smile. I forced another one. "Thanks" The words barely came out above a whisper and Luke's eyes immediately recognized the unhappiness in me. Him being the first. "What's wrong?" He asked before grabbing my hands and sitting me down on the floor where he took place next to me. We could hear the boys laughter fill my bedroom completely unaware of this moment. I could feel the gloss starting to build up over my eyes making me nearly want to scream at the knot in my throat. "I don't know." I stared ahead of me where the shoes sat and resting my body against my wall. "I just feel like a blob." I turned back to Luke. "Cara you look far from a blob, you look beautiful don't ever feel like you don't. Your perfect." He hesitated but soon reached for my hand which I took. I rested my head on his shoulder and took a deep breath. "Come here. " he pulled me off the floor leading me towards the mirror. I dug my heels into the ground." I really don't want to see my body right now." I groaned. "No come here" he said a little bit more stern. I gave up and followed him towards the mirror. He stood behind me looking into my eyes through the mirror sending chills to wrap over my skin like a blanket. " I want you to list everything you see on your body that you love." His hands moved to my shoulders gently rubbing them. "I can't do that" I whispered and looked down to the floor. "Why not?" He asked. I looked up and met his eyes through the mirror. "Because. I don't love myself" I felt the tear slowly roll down my cheek. "Then I guess I'm going to have to do it for you." His gaze never broke mine, not once. "I love your eyes. I love how when you smile your eyes, your beautiful brown eyes widen and I can feel myself falling deeper into them." I swallowed. " I love how your hair never falls the same way, and how you don't even try yet it still looks perfect. I love your body. Everything about it. Every flaw that you see is nothing but pure beauty and bliss to me." Another tear. He turned my entire body around brushing my hair behind my ear and wiping away the tears that had fallen. "Your perfect and any guy would be lucky to have you" my heart swelled. It swelled at the thought of Luke and the butterflies were throbbing after each sentence fell from his lips. I wrapped my arms around him hugging him for dear life. Almost like I would never see him again but I would. "Thank you" I pulled away and sniffled. I turned back to the mirror and something changed when I looked back. I was smiling. "Let's get you to your date." He smiled. "I'll let you finish." He smiled before walking away. And at the moment something inside me clicked. I don't know what but I couldn't help but think, Was I falling for this boy with blue eyes?
I walked out feeling the tiniest bit confident, something I hadn't felt earlier but that was immediately erased when I saw all boys now wearing a bra of mine, including Luke. I literally snorted which resulted us all in a fit of laughter.
However that laughter was soon silenced once all the boys scanned my body making me want to hide. "Wow" Ashton smiled. Luke his smile grew wider causing me to smile a bit. I was distracted by Michael doing a cat whistle making me blush slightly. "Does it look okay?" I asked tugging at the dangling strings on my shorts. "You look great!" Calum grinned. "NOW Let's do your makeup an hair! "Michael faked a high pitch girl voice before rushing me into my restroom.
We were now relocated and gathered in my restroom where I was now gathering my makeup onto the counter. I snickered as Michael grabbed one of my makeup brushes and brushed it across his face before shrugging and putting it down. Normally I don't wash my face in the morning/afternoon cause this girl right here gets dry skin! But knowing the guys were coming over and me being uncomfortable in my own skin put a layer of foundation and my eyebrows. Due to me wanting a fresh face I turned my sink on to warm as the boys took a seat randomly across the restroom, all four in the tub. I dried my face as they all watched me. I felt a drop of water slowly trickle down my neck and onto my chest causing goosebumps to rise. I brushed it of and began to apply my eye makeup first in case of fall out. "You know you don't even need makeup" I flinched at the comment. It wasn't true I was most insecure about my acne it was definitely noticeable especially on my forehead which would cause for an extra coat of foundation. I hated it. I know that he was trying to be nice but I knew it was only being nice. "Thanks but I just feel more comfortable with it" I smiled into his eyes through the mirror. His blue eyes bluer in the distance but still beautiful sent a wave of comfort over me. Stop it Cara stop thinking this way you have a date with Noah. I went onto foundation which made the redness slowly disappear as it was buffed into my skin in small circular motions. Concealer was placed on every imperfections that were obvious. I quickly blended and set it all in place nearly in content with my face. Next was contouring trying to reshape my face. Another thing I wasn't happy about. Bronzer and blush was applied afterwards which nearly completed the look. "Which one?" I held up a natural pink and a deep violet lip color. "Both." Michael nodded. I shook my head. "Do the dark one" Ashton piped up after thinking for a second. I nodded and applied it as it just completed my the look almost perfect. It would be perfect on another person's face. I swallowed hard and blinked. Hoping that the thoughts would go with them. I turned around to face the boys who all wiggled and tried to stand to there feet. I held my hands out to help them up. "Looks great" Calum high fives me as I smile. "Okay its 2:00 what do you say we check the YouTube video?" I rose my eyebrows up before running into my room and jumping on my bed opening my laptop. The boy's crowded around me and sat down as I typed in the login info. "Ready?" I made eye contact with every boy there getting their consent before hitting enter.
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9-3-15
A/N
Luke and Arzalea. I cry. But nope nope this is a place for happiness and that doesn't make me happy so Luke and Y/N. NOW THATS BETTER (cue wendy's commercial)
WHAT DID YOU THINK OF THAT LARA MOMENT!?!?!! I FREAKING LOVED WRITING IT BUT I WAS LIKE IS IT TOO SOON? BUT I WAS LIKE EH IM IN CHARGE HEHEHE
BUT I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS BOOK LIKE OMG I AM BRAINSTORMING AND YOU GUYS ARE GONNA GET EMOTIONAL!
MICHAEL AND HIS BLONDE HAIR! I'm a Luke girl but! MAN Do I swerve! Theres a pic of his belly!!!! And LUKE's he has a freaking happy trail *insert dead emoji here* I hope you liked this chapter I missed writing so much idk why I took a break!
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