The Tutors Lessons |HS|

Chapter 55

JAS P.O.V.

It feels like your heart is dancing around your chest whenever you're with him, and like a hole you never knew was there has been filled. It feels like endless laughter, looking into his eyes and getting lost seeing oceans and cities. Its a sunrise. Its just knowing, not having to ask or figure out. It feels like when you win a contest, or when you kiss somebody and there's a fiery explosion instead of a simple spark. It feels like so much care, so much love that you never thought you could give but you want to. Its wanting to give everything you have to him, for him. Its trust and commitment and hunger for one another.

I wrote this a few days ago in class for a English assignment, I don't know where it all came from but being with Harry right now makes sense.

"Jas?"

I look up into his eyes, we've been here for quite a while now just taking in each others presence.

"Yes?" a small smile pulls at my lips.

"What are you thinking about?" his husky voice whispers as he tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear.

My feelings for Harry have always been a jumbled mess but I think right now he's the one I want to be with.

The people you care about the most end up leaving you when you need them the most.

Voices and flashbacks keep playing in my head but I decide to ignore them for now and focus on Harry.

"Us" I say truthfully.

"What about us?" he says, a bit of worry etched in his voice.

"Remember when we kissed at the sports field after I made a run and you found me making it all calm and said that you'd wait or give me time or something?" I exclaim.

He eyebrows furrow as he watches me speak carefully.

"Harry, What are we?" I gulp.

The last time I was in a relationship was just after my dad left, I couldn't commit with the relationship as much because I was caught up with all the stress.

I feel like I should be able to trust Harry enough by now to start some with him.

"I want to start something with you" he says to my surprise.

"I want to as well" I almost whisper.

I shouldn't be afraid to tell Harry how I feel about all this, about us being in a relationship. I shouldn't let that one person control my feelings for the people I care for.

"We're going to work on it, okay? I'm going to be here for you whenever you need me and we're going to make this work" he assures and I feel my heart melt.

I don't answer as I stare up at this beautiful boy and think what I did to deserve someone like him.

"I'm going to break those barriers down Jas"

Harry's eyes stay on mines as I take in what he said, what does he mean my barriers?

"You act like your fine, but I can see those barriers surrounding you not letting anyone in, letting me in" he rasps as my breath hitches.

He takes my hands in his before gently lifting up to his lips and kissing my knuckles making my heart jump.

"Be my girlfriend?" he smiles against my knuckles and my lips part.

I feel my heart pounding as I try and form a reply.

I've been imagining this moment almost every day, in my dreams and my thoughts since I first kissed Harry.