Batfamily oneshots

survivors guilt

Dick had always felt responsible. You may be asking what for? Well, he was the only Robin that hadn't passed away, or you know had never come too, too close to it. However, all of his siblings had.
Under his title.
They had looked up to him, and he made them want the life of a young vigilante, one in which he wished they never had to endure. He hated the fact that he was the reason. I mean, they didn't think he was, never. They could never truly hate Dick cause he's their big brother, the person who's always been there for them. Always just a call away, and will drop anything to help them when needed, and has done so before.
Dick was in the bat cave after a mission where he almost lost his life. He had come close to death before, but never like this. All of his siblings, his younger brothers and sisters. They had seen him falter. He never wanted them to see that, yet they had. The villain had known stuff about Nightwing that no one else did. How? That's what Tim and some of the others were trying to figure out as quickly as they could. Dick would help. He wished he could. But he just couldn't get himself to move from where he was stood. He was staring at Jason's old costume. The one that was ashed and torn. He wished he had gone with him. He wished he had never become Robin. He wished he had just been a normal kid. Not one that was angry and ready for revenge. On....Tony Zucco...that fucker.
Dick rushed over to the others in front of the computer.
"I- I know who it is."
Dick says he's gone paler than usual, I mean, what he went through was traumatic, so he would be.
"Who is it then?"
Tim asked, genuinely curious as to who Dick thinks it is.
Dick grabs the mouse, and after clicking on the search bar, he types in, "Tony Zucco."
"Who is that man, Grayson?"
Damian asks, turning to his brother.
"The...the man that killed my parents..."
All stunned, they stay quiet. They knew his parents died, but they knew nothing else of his past as he didn't like to talk about it.
"I was a part of the Haleys Circus... grew up travelling. As an acrobat."
They all continued to listen. They knew he was an acrobat but never knew what he did it for.
"The circus owed him money, and since they hadn't paid it back, he decided to take out their best act...me and my parents."
They all stay silent until Jason speaks.
"They tried to kill you too, Big bird?"
Dick simply nods.
"They intended to kill me as a warning, but they loosened the wrong rope so my parents fell...and we had no net."
All his siblings grimace at the thought, Steph bringing a hand to her mouth with Cass placing her hands on the blondes shoulders.
"I thought he died... but apparently, he's just been watching me.."
Dick stops thinking about the thing he whispered to him. Curious Duke speaks up.
"Uhm, if it's not too personal, what did the guy whisper to you?"
Dick looks at Jason, the only one who knew of the assault.
He mouths, "Tarantula."
Which is all Jason needed to get angry, his eyes a bright green.
"He saw? That fucking bastard."
He said through clenches teeth. The others remained confused.
"Saw what?"
Tim queried as the others all nodded, also wanting an answer.
Jason placed a reassuring hand onto his brothers shoulder and nodded. Dick sighed but spoke up.
"There was this girl...Tarantula...she killed Blockbuster while i was trying to get her on the right path. I'd had a really rough day and ended up going to the roof...it was raining, and i had a panic attack... she also went up and then... took advantage of me..."
Dick gets a bit choked up near the end, and all of their expressions soften minus Damians as he doesn't entirely understand. Steph notices and looks at him and whispers.
"She forced Dick into sex."
Damian then looks disgusted and whispers back,
"He didn't consent?"
"No, he didn't."
Now, in full understanding, he walks over to Dick and hugs him around his waist.
"It's not your fault, Grayson. She didn't reslect you, tou cousnt be at fault."
Dick calms down, a hand on Damians head.
"Thanks, Dami."
"No need, Grayson. All I did was say the truth."
Dick then smiles.
They would sort out Tony Fucko later, right now they would be there for their brother. Jason then clears his throat.
"Dickhead?"
"Yeah, Jay-bird?"
"...do you feel guilty we all died as Robin...and you never did?"
Dick is taken aback, how did he know?
"W-why do you ask?"
"I see how you look at my costume and the others too. You look at yours in disgust and ours with a sorry expression."
Dick sighed.
"How can i not? The legacy i created. Named after a name my mother called me. Killed. It killed some poor kids, and all they wanted to be was heroes. You guys looked up to the first Robin. When all i was was a broken, angry, and disgraceful 9 year old at the start."
They all look at him baffled.
"Why would you think that?"
Tim asks. He loved Robin, but he loved Dick Grayson more. Ever since day one.
"Well...i could've fought harder for you guys, and i didn't, and even since, I've just gotten more useless."
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(It's not your fault the DC writers can't write your amazing character for shit. Sorry ya'll ♡)
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Cass loves her older brother so much. He helped teach her English and how to pronounce words she struggled with. He sparred with her and so much more, too.
"Dickie...not true...amazing."
Everyone knowing exactly what she said agreed.
"Exactly, you're amazing. You're the reason most of us are still alive and have an amazing older brother."
Steph says.
"So stop beating yourself up about it. You're the best brother, person, officer, detective, and vigilante. Bro, you can do it all."
She adds. They all chuckle but agree. Dick wipes tears from his eyes.
"You guys..."
They all go in for a group hug.
Did they all love each other all the time? No, but what siblings do? They were family without the blood but no less than if they had the same blood. They would always be there for one another when the other needed it. No matter what.
They love each other, they are siblings.
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