My understandings

ch.16

Austin POV

I woke up and looked around noticing the room still lit dark, street lights Shinning through the window. Getting up and throwing on my clothes I headed outside to my car. I turned on the ignition, it roaring to life. Fuck! 3:27am I looked at my phone and seen 3 missed calls and 2 missed text from
jaz<3: babe where are you?
jaz<3:it's really late and I'm worried, please come home

I turned my phone off and threw it on the floorboard. Damn it Carlile what in then hell are you doing. You just cheated on the person who loves you more than her own life. Who you love more than your own being and existence.

Pulling out of the drive way and making the short drive home I just was trying to find an excuse for myself. Anything at all.

Crawling into bed beside a sleeping Jaz I looked at her face. She was smiling a huge smile. I frowned at her happiness knowing when I tell her what I did she may never smile again. Well never smile because of me.

Jazabel POV

I woke up with Austin beside me asleep, look at that angelic face. I got up and plugged his phone in when I seen a text. Lacy. Who's lacy? I opened it out of curiosity.

Lacy: thx for dinner last night. I had a wonderful time after too ;) I guess it's out little secret. Shhh!

I put the phone down and took a deep breath. Well that totally put a damper on my big news. I got dressed and wrote Austin a note.

Dear Austin,
Hope you slept well, glad to see you're okay. I'm going to see Alan for a bit. Hope your band stuff was fun and worth every second you were gone away from me. I sure as hell missed you. Text me to let me know if we are still meeting at Remi for lunch. Xox I love you, your kitten. Jazzy.

I left the note on his phone, I wanted to tell him my news before I accused him of cheating on me. I know if he did I'd be hurt but I'd forgive him.

All I know is I needed to talk to Alan if anyone knew Austin more than I do it's him.

I knocked on Alan door about 30 minutes later. He answered it, I felt like I was interrupting something. "Alan is this a good time to talk? It's important. Well, two things that are."

"Yeah, everything okay? Austin okay?"

"Well I am not sure, I have news and then I have a question. But I think I should tell you what I have to tell."

We sat at the dining room table, the coffee pot made a weird gargling noise and I jumped. He looked at me funny.

"Well what I want to tell you is I think I'm pregnant and do you know if Austin is cheating on me or know of a lacy?"

"Omg! A baby! A motherfucking babe! A little Carlile!"

"Ashby! I said might be I'm a few days late, I took a test and it was faint but I took one more and it was negative. I'm confused about it."

"I see, and what about lacy? Lacy Stews?"

"I'm not sure all I know is a girl name lacy tested Austin thanking him for dinner last night and something about fun afterwards and that it's their secret."

"Lacy is the girl who Austin cheat on Gielle with to get back at her for cheating on him. Lacy gets around a lot with the band's. I've been with her a couple times. Not the relationship type. I don't think he'd cheat on you, not with her if he was going to."

My heart dropped. "Then why did he want it to be a secret and why did he lie and say he had a band thing to go to and why did he come home after 2 o'clock?" I was in tears and all Alan did was hug me and apologize refusively. I got up and went to the door getting a text from Austin.

Aussie: yes lunch, I have to talk to you also about the band thing last night.

I turned my phone to Alan and his face went blank

Jaz to Austin: Ok babe, see ya at 1

"Just be careful with him Jazzy, I would wait to tell him. Secret safe with me."

"Thank you Alan I know I can count on you. Don't ever tell him... okay? Let me. Just forget I told you."

He shook his head in agreement and with that I left and headed to my oldest sister Josie house to ask to move in. No way was I staying with him. As far as today goes if he did cheat on me with her of all people there was no way in hell I'm forgiving that. No way will I let him get hands on this baby if I'm pregnant.