You are my only choice:)

CH- 75

“You are thinking!”

Gemini voice take Fourth back from his world of thoughts, he removed his hands from his face while making eye contact with him, he don’t know why but feeling the concern and gentleness in his eyes for him, this always stop him to run from him, to stop him from loving him, to stop him thinking about him, he can’t handle his heart to beat fast everytime he look into his eyes, whenever he is around him the heart racing become more faster.

Realisation welcome him with in painful way something like more hurting him now, cause he don’t know exactly what happened with him but he can’t imagine the thought who he did but know it’s already too late to think cause they slept together already, the thought he always wished to be in love with him to give it to him everything of him but now?

He hate himself of the feelings and the reminder….Nini his one of close friend also gemini girlfriend said him to take care of his boyfriend in her absence, but he did what? Slept? Also with his friend boyfriend? He can’t be more feel distinguish with himself with all thinking these feelings.

And he feeling more disgusting at the thought of he is the one who make move first, who lure gemini in his beauty, he the one to kiss him seduced him these all flashback running into his mind, he know these all happened with the happiness of his brother marriage he drunk a lot but he hate himself at the thought he can’t control himself let his desire over him!

“Fotfot? Dear what are you thinking?”

He heard him again as he coming close to him hold him without breaking eye contact, he can feel his eyes turning into blur, he know tears start forming there, the thought of he will hate him more killing him insidely and he can’t take it, it’s more hard for him to handle with these thoughts he feel week at this point, his body becomes numb he feel restless as tears ready to fall from but he endured.

“Nothing…I’m just tried, want to rest!”

He break contact immediately and move to other side avoiding his deep gaze who still on him who always say to give into him, depend on him, but the thought he slept with his friend boyfriend is more painful than his all feelings all over these months to a year, he is not ready to face him right now cause he is weak…..at that point where he hating himself for doing all…pain and weakness is everything he feelings right now.

“Fourth! Talk to me!”

Gemini deep stern voice make him flinch but he don’t move, not yet! not when he know gemini will not give up and he distinguish at the thought anytime he will break infront of him, but gemini didn’t go down this time, he make him move to his side and look at him, wiping his upcoming tears who falls before he know but he avoid looking at him.

“What are you thinking? Please fotfot don’t cry na! stop…you are overthinking and it’s not good!”

The gentleness in his deep soft voice make him to cry more but he can’t break right now and go into his embrace to relay, he jerk his hand but hard under his cheek to be normal and try to move but to his surprise gemini make him in sitting position before placing him on his lap and hold his waist and hip tightly.

“Talk to me! I want to know whatever you are thinking right now…I’m really so sorry for teasing you but please stop crying I don’t like to see you in tears please baby talk to me!”

The surprise Fourth go stunned and heard him but soon recover himself and try to move from him but as much as he move his body giving his answer of the truth who he is not ready to speak!