The Legend of the Savior

Chapter 18: Thoughts

Thoughts

I cannot believe that she just did that. She is risking her humanity to save me. I am not even anything to her; I was just the boy that brought her to this world. I had no idea what I was doing while I was in, for lack of a better term, demon-mode. All I know is that I hurt many people.

The only reason I ever was even willing to take the demon was to destroy my ‘brother’. I was blinded by my anger. I wanted to destroy the boy that is standing here right now. The boy with brown hair, my face and brown eyes. The boy that is clenching the lifeless body of the girl we both love. Holding her hand to his cheek while he cries; trying to tempt the demon, but I know it will never work. he demon has all the power it could ever want and it will try and get all of her power.

If her plan fails then I know we are all screwed, but I won’t leave her for the world. Still I’m not even worth it. Why couldn’t it have just been me again?

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I cannot believe she just did that. She is risking her life to save that boy. The one she has known for just a few weeks, but according to him he has known her since birth. That boy is a menace; for him she may just die. I don’t know what to do. When she took the demon I just followed what she said and I yanked the necklace. After that she collapsed. No show just fell. Her appearance faded. Her hair lost its hue and faded to a dull gray, the hair is no longer a wild mane but rather a pin straight flow, her eyes lost their radiance and shifted to a colorless white. She lost what made her.. her.

I am just sitting here holding her, waiting for her to come back. Watching the thing slither from inside of her. Going along her sin from her arm to her forehead behind her ear. It takes all my restraint to not try and punch that thing out of her. I’ve tried to take it into myself again, but it’s not working. I crush her hand to my cheek trying to entice it; still it doesn’t work. I cry caressing the once wild mane and wishing that it would have been me again.

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She is a f****** idiot. No one has been able to defy a demon since.. well.. me.

What is wrong with that girl? Sometimes I think that she has a loose wire or something. Seriously, she hears my story and then she thinks that she can just do the same thing. I have been harnessing my powers for years before that, and I wasn’t able to get out unscathed.

I just hope she makes it.

I can hear someone calling my name and turn to see Devon she is trying to get my attention, “Seriously do I have to call you from across the forest you little dolt. Sometimes Gerard I think your head is screwed on backwards, but that is why I love you. I can’t believe that she did that. That was either the bravest or stupidest thing that I have ever seen” I listen as she keeps babbling on and on. One of the things that I love about her.

I am still looking down on Ember and see that she has lost what made her; what she is. It pains me to see her like this. I rise to stand next to the boys and dip my head in respect for the girl who is giving her life for another.

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Ok.. three words for her. WHAT THE FUCK!!! Ember, you cannot leave your best friend and risk your life to save a boy that you barely know!

Seriously that is one of your main problems; you always care more for others than you do yourself, and yes I know that I am screaming in my head at a girl who cannot hear me. So, SHUT UP ME!!!

I watch as everyone gathers around her including Nico; the boy who I love. At the moment I am not sure if he is in Nico mode or Papa mode. It is probably likely they both found a common ground. I jump down from where I am and make my way towards my best friend. I can see tears in everyone’s eyes, and wipe away Nico’s. I focus on the shell that was once my best friend but is now just what I said.

A SHELL! A STUPID FUCKING SHELL! I want my friend back NOW!

Ember! You better come back or I am kicking your dead ass!!

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I watch as her life essence fades. I only knew her for a few days, but in that time she became my best friend. Why the hell did she do that?

I watch as Gerard has a look of sorrow on his face and ask him what is wrong. He is startled out of his state of mind and listens as I babble on about her.

I am thinking to myself would I have done the same thing? I come to the conclusion that yes yes I would. I respect your decision Ember just come back so I can kick your ass for leaving me

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I have nothing to say minus the fact that I knew this day would come. I am proud of you my little flame. Just come back so I can tell you.

Shut up old man, I want her to come back so I can tell her how stupid she is, and to squeeze the life out of her for leaving us alone, but I know she will be back. She always comes back.

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“We love you Ember!!! Come back to us soon!”