Is It Hate OR Love? Jodha Akbar

Chapter 10

Jalal's POV

Love!!! A sarcastic dim smile curled on his lips with disappointment.

How imprudent is she? She won't accept me until we both in love. Love and me not possible. Her sweet, sour, and bitter words were drumming in his ears again and again; her utterance touched his spirit. Jalal was in the court chamber surrounded by many talented administrators. Even though they were discussing crucial and sensitive matters, he was unable to concentrate. His mind was too distracted, and his ears were ringing repetitively.

Subterranean thoughts took control over his mind; he questioned himself, 'Why am I so concerned about what she said??? Why every word of her impact me to this intense? Do I have a heart??? Is it possible, can I ever love her with my heart? My hands never shiver while killing enemies. I know that I am cruel and harsh; I do not feel any emotion while punishing offenders. No, I do not have a heart. I cannot love anyone. Does that mean my people do not love me, just because I do not love them with my heart? I have given them my childhood, my day, and night. I keep them well-secured and worry about their need. Don't I deserve respect from them? Why does Jodha think that they don't respect me or pretend to love me out of fear? She is wrong; she does not know my people; they worship me, does not matter; I love them or not; they all love me as their king. He was utterly upset by her views and conclusion; one side court was running, and on the other side, his mind was occupied with analyzing her words.

But I have always seen the fear in their eyes, even most ministers, administrators' shivers while talking to me; I guess they have my fear out of respect. Queen Jodha does not know anything, and she is so innocent and divine even to understand real politics and power; in this game, no one is your friend or relative. If I start taking my decisions with my heart, people will have no fear of their king, no one will follow orders, pay taxes, and everything will be ruined.

Finally, he concluded that her thoughts are making him confuse and weaker, and She is not a good influence on him, so he better stay away from her.

But his heart was not ready to give up so easily and diverted his mind.

I have already surrendered my ego to her and accepted her as my queen, but what she wants is my heart, which has already been dead long back. She clearly stated that she would not accept me unless we both are in love with each other. But love makes people weak; as soon as the heart starts beating, the brain stops working. I cannot let my heart take over my brain.

Disappointedly, he said to himself in silence, 'Queen Jodha, we can never be together. You believe in love, and I believe in rule, fear, and power. I am the king of the kings. I want to see the fear in the common people's eyes, fear of The Jalaluddin Muhammad. I want them to be scared of punishment for not following rules. Jalal is famous for his cruelty, and there is no space for love in his life. Our destiny can never be together.'

Leaving her thoughts behind, Jalal was back to his cruel and merciless judgment. That is how he had grown up under the shadow of Behram Khan and Maham Anga.

At a very young age, he saw the cruelty on himself. When he was merely 13, his own uncle tried to kill him for power after his father's death. He was exposed to a callous life at a very tender age, which made him ruthless. Maham and The Military general Behram khan trained and molded the young kid and made him the king. He spent his entire youth in wars, betrayal, and blood and battlefields. These battlefields created a hunger in him to win power, Supreme power over the entire Hindustan. When this young kid needed his mother to nourish him, he was brutally killing people, and she was busy saving the kingdom for him. Her negligence generated deep silent bitterness and anger towards his mother and life. Gradually he got detached from her. Hungry for motherly love, the poor kid found comfort in the arms of his Badi Ammi Maha Manga; unfortunately, her motive was to use him to gain power. Little by little, he gained a lot of power with his hungry killer merciless sword and made himself a successful king of the kings at this young age. His long vision, commanding power, and multi-layered personality made him an expert in manipulation. He became a shrewd politician. Soon he got surrounded by selfish people. He shut his own emotions, closed his heart, and made up his mind that everyone loves him for his power or their own selfish needs, making him extremely egoistic, rude, and short-tempered.