On The Land of Knowledge and Conflict[ENG]

New Home Old Scars

It's been a few days, since Rashmu's long overdue apology, and the peaceful movie night, they've had after it. Tho he was a bit embarrassed after it, since...it is still a weird situation, and he's still a bit hesitant on how to think about it. I mean, he really likes them, that's not an issue. Rather...

They could've been considered enemies. Cyno killed his father...and because of his actions...the boy had to suffer for far too long in the hands of his adoptive parents... Then the boy started to hate him so much, that he began to despise anything related to either him, or to the Matra. He purposefully started to bully that boy, just because his interest towards desert people... He actually had death wish towards, not just Cyno...but towards Sumeru as a whole... And yet, despite everything...they still helped him. Gave him roof over his head. Food every day...tho at the first few days...he still had the habit of hiding away his leftovers, out of fear. But this wasn't for longer than a few days, since he didn't had any moment of starving. There were times, when he's even got some snack! That was something...he's got used to much more easily. Unlike the feeling of...being a part of this found-family. His past actions had evoke so much guilt within him... Altho he had apologized to all of them countless times, and it seems, all of them accepted it, he's still disgusted of himself.

Altho...he can feel himself slowly but surely, healing a bit. With tiny baby steps, he slowly starts to feel a bit happier and happier, little-by-little. But it is a good starting point.

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<Tighnari> ,,Okay, we'll wait. Safe drive!" Then he hangs up, and turns towards the others. ,,Kaveh just called me. He and Alhaytham'll be come to a visit in a 15 minutes."

<Cyno> ,,Well, that's a new. I thought Alhaytham isn't the type to socialize." He says, putting down another card. ,,+1 Health Point."

<Tighnari> ,,I can't believe you..." He says, both amazed and a bit annoyed, while stepping next to the table his friend and Collei are playing. ,,Tho i hope, this time it's not just for distracting yourself, like last time." He can see Rashmu looking up to him for a second in confusion, then back to the game.

<Cyno> ,,Ah, again no Electro one." He mumbles it a bit frustrated, but not seriously. ,,It's not, trust me." Then, he just stops in his tracks for a bit. Not even paying full attention to the game, only once he noticed that Collei won that match. ,,You're improving really fast, Collei!" He gives her a half smile, to which she just beams from joy. Then, he looks back at Tighnari. ,,Okay-okay...partially it is... But i mean...c'mon! After more than 3 months of nightmares it's natural that i want my mind to focus on something else!" He just shrugs.

<Collei> ,,Have you tried those...calming musics? You know, when it's just either a video of calm music, or noises of nature for like 2, or even 24 hours."

<Cyno> ,,You're might onto something." He ponders on it for a very long time. ,,This time i haven't...but...after the Festival...this method almost helped..." He trails off, as he remembers back to that day in Locapala Jungle with Nilou.

Except for the nightmare...that day was...so peaceful. No worrying about duty, there was no threat he had to look out for. And...Nilou's laughter... How adorable it sounded. Even tho...it was because she laughed at him. How alluring her aura was both then...and near that waterfall... How...it can be both calming and...frustrating in her presence. Calming...because...well...for oblivious reasons. But frustrating because...he can always feel his mood changing, heart beat rapidly rising...but he still can't put his finger on why...

SNAP

Snap. Snap. Snap.

<Tighnari> ,,Heeey, Earth to Cyno!" He snaps his finger directly in front of his friend's face, to which he grabs in an instant, to stop that annoying sound. ,,Finally!"