New Horizons

part 32

"I didn’t understand" jungkook speaks looking at taehyung with a frown.

"I'm pregnant." taehyung repeats.

Jungkook sits up in hurry. "You are joking right? You said you wouldn’t be pregnant anymore!"

"That's what i knew but it happened.  I'm in 3rd month right now. "

"Taehyung i swear to god, Don't joke with me." jungkook speaks with frustrated voice.

Taehyung gets up from the bed and opens his bed side drawer. He pulls some papers and places them in front of jungkook.

"Why would i joke with you about this topic. Check by yourself." taehyung answers annoyingly.  Joking about his pregnancy would be the last thing taehyung would do.

Jungkook opens the papers with shaky hands and his soul leaves his body seeing the yellow highlighter marked "pregnancy test: positive". His face turns pale and he puts down the paper. Unconsciously he eyes go to taehyung's tummy.. It's flat. He looks up to taehyung who is looking back at him.

Jungkook immediately looks down. He rubs his forehead with his hands, not being able to think properly.  Not even in million years he thought taehyung would get pregnant.

" what happened? " taehyung asks, knowing what's the reason behind Jungkook's sudden change.

Jungkook shakes his head and Again looks at taehyung.  "You.. You said you wouldn’t get pregnant taehyung.!."

"If you knew i would get pregnant than you wouldn’t fvck with me?"

"I would at least use some fcking condoms you know?" jungkook sounds annoying.

"Jungkook look, i also didn’t know about it. After my last miscarriage the doctor told me i would never get pregnant.  Even byun and i kept trying after that too but it never happened.  I didn’t know how it happened." taehyung speaks with sincerity.

A long silence covers them. They sit on the same bed with distance. Taehyung speaks after 10 minutes, "what are you thinking? " he asks, almost knowing what jungkook is going to answer.

"I told you I'm not ready for another children." the man whispers with timid voice. But taehyung hears due to the silent environment. 

"I know.. I know what you are going to say but before you say anything..  I'm telling you I'm going to try my luck this time too.. Whether you agree or not." taehyung speaks before he gets rejected.

Jungkook frowns. "You aren’t thinking what i want? We both Have a say in this matter taehyung!"

"I know already that you are gonna ask me for abortion or something. That's what i cleared what i want."

"Taehyung! Please try to understand!  This wasn’t any of our plans. None of us was ready for it. You can't can't force your decision on me." jungkook states his points.

Taehyung frowns.  "When did i force you my decision?  Did i tell you that you are obliged to have a children because of me?"

"Aren’t your words almost similar?  I'm the one  who had sex with you right? Then who else you are referring huh?" jungkook is both angry and annoyed.

"Whatever I'm not doing anything to my baby." taehyung speaks tears with his eyes. He found out his pregnancy 3 months ago, even before jungkook and his fight started.  He was so afraid of his husband’s reaction that he hided the matter from him. But It's not like taehyung can hide it forever.  His past pregnancy experiences were brutal. But still he wants to try his luck.

Jungkook shakes his head in annoyance. "Taehyung I'm really not ready for it. Why Don't you understand?"

"And what about me? I lost my 4 babies even before i could give birth of them. I lost them even before i could hold them on my hands and kiss them. I lost my children even before bef-fore i could see their faces." taehyung's voice breaks, tears stream down from his eyes. "I- I want to try it Again.  I Don't care what you say. You already have children but i Don't Have.  That's why you can't understand my situation. "

"My Children are also your children taehyung.  Why are you even saying you Don't have any child? We have two children and we Don't need anymore tae."

"NO THEY AREN’T MINE.  THEY NEVER GAVE ME A CHANCE. HOW WOULD THEY BE MY CHILDREN THEN? I WANT MY OWN.. MY OWN BLOOD AND FLESH. AND I DON’T CARE ANYTHING ELSE." taehyung screams being frustrated. Why is jungkook thinking he would see his (jk) children as his (tae)? Having your own child abd having step children are both different.

Jungkook stares at taehyung's face feeling bad. He knows how brutal taehyung's past Was. He knows how badly taehyung wanted a child always.  He can understand taehyung's side.

"Listen, listen i do understand what you are saying.  But you also Have to think about my side too taehyung. I really never thought to have anymore child after seojin was born. They both Were enough for me. Also if i knew you Were able to be Pregnant then of course i would think a way to keep things in place.  But this is really sudden taehyung. You can't just demand to have a child like this after announcing your pregnancy 3 months later. "

Taehyung stares at Jungkook's face for a few seconds then Let's out a chuckle. "You wouldn’t have problem with having another child if i were sunmi right? "

Jungkook catches in offguard. "What are you even saying?"

"You Don't want any children now bcz another children wouldn’t have same mother as minho and seojin. You Don't want your children to Have different mothers right?" taehyung wipea off his tears harshly. "You are afraid of minho and seojin too right? That they wouldn’t accept it?"

Jungkook stares at taehyung without blink. He looks Down, lowkey he got caught by taehyung. "Tha-that's not the reason taehyung.  Personally I'm not ready for any children. I didn’t even have any plan to get married ever. But i did. But you told me you were unable to pregnant.  That's why none of us thought about any chances.  Now you just can't say you want children. We have to discuss the whole thing taehyung." jungkook sounds strict. He isn’t lying. He clearly Isn't ready to have any child... If he didn’t have divorce then it would be a different time. But his life changed drastically after his divorce, his everything changed. He never wanted or even thought for another children another than minho and seojin after divorce.

"Now you are fighting with me to have children,  God  forbid what if the baby faces the same thing as before?"

Taehyung looks away, out of the window. Deep inside him, he has the same fear. If he Again gets miscarriage then it would be worse than abortion. He is scared but he doesn’t want to give up. Everytime he sees little children wirh their parents, walking holding their parents hands, playing around, laughing - taehyung's heart burns. Everytime he sees a mother with baby of her arms, tears threaten to come out of his eyes. How he wishes to hold his own baby like this!

"Stop talking negative things. I'm having my child whatever you say."

"Do the fck you want. I'm leaving." jungkook speaks angrily and storms out of the room while putting on his pant.

(No proofread.
First of all, can you tell me do you get the emotions through my writing?  I really want my readers to feel whatever I imagine in emotional scene. But honestly I'm writing again after a month so I'm feeling like my writing seems robotic. Please give me your opinion about my writing style. I need to improve it.

And secondly,  i know all of you are gonna jump on jungkook. But i want to say that whatever I'm writing in this chapter, partially  happened to some people around me after Their second marriage. So yeah I'm writing whatever i saw people face in reality when they get into second marriage. I really Don't like to write any perfect story with perfect dreamy lead, or your perfect ideal taekook stories. I'm sorry for it. And if you look around you, i bet you will also find things like this.)