Love Trials

Chapter 35- A GREAT DAY

**Lunch**

My favorite time during a school day. Right now, I really don't feel like eating so I just grabbed an apple and went to the backyard to rest under the shade of an old oak tree.

I smiled as I looked at the familiar scenery, finally a quiet place to sit and relax. Not many people knew this place, but even if others knew no one comes here often besides me.

I quickly took a sit and started devouring my apple. I can't believe that Harold is really here. 

What game is he playing this time? Can't he see that I haven't moved on from him yet? Does he want to torture me more? Maybe he doesn't care for my well being anymore.

But..

If he doesn't. 

Then why is he here? 

I sigh not knowing how to answer my own question.

Boys are somehow very difficult to understand, so hard to read.

I thought back then that Harold and I were close to perfection, but like always I was proven wrong. I thought that we might have a very huge chance to last more than just years, if possible forever. But we didn't. And we never will.

I was out of my reverie when I heard someone cleared their throat.

I look up to see him. Harold.

Speaking of the devil.

I internally smirk more like an angel.

He looks at me confused and worried at the same time. 

Seriously tho? Why is he acting like this? Is he playing with me? Am I one of his toys? Why could he be so unpredictable!

Without my permission he took a sit beside me, I didn't react or anything I just simply want to ignore him. He sighs, exactly knowing what I was thinking.

"Please stop ignoring me"-he pleaded.

Silence.

I still didn't want to answer him.

" I know that you don't want to see me, nor talk to me but please just let me explain."

I just raised my eyebrow at him, looking straight to his eyes. Questioning him, and gesturing him to continue.

I am having a very difficult time to concentrate because of his eyes.

Damn those eyes! 

"I didn't think I can love you fully back then, I was afraid. I was incomplete, but now Fari I am already complete and determined to get you back."

There's this one thing that confused me.

"What were you afraid of?"

"I was afraid of losing you. That's why I tried to distance myself away from you so that if ever you would choose to leave I will somehow be ready"-he explained further.

"You weren't gonna lose me"-I told him honestly.

He never will lose me, he won't because I don't know how to survive, how to live my life again without him. It won't be the same again.

"I'm sorry"-he said sincerely.

I laughed without humor"So you think, saying sorry will fix everything that you broke-the people you left behind and the pain you brought? Are freaking kidding me? Don't you know how hard it was for me to survive without you by my side? Don't you know how hard it was for me!?"-I yelled furiously as my eyes formed tears that eventually fell down.

My heart is already hammering painfully inside my chest. My tears has flooded my vision.

I didn't care anymore.

I didn't want to care, because if I care too much I would just get hurt.

And I'm tired of feeling that way.

"You may have returned, but you will never undone the things you've done to hurt me."- I muttered coldly, I even surprised myself of the coldness in my voice, the worst part is, pain is evident.

With that I stood up, then I left never daring to look back.

***

      I ran as I try to locate the nearest bathroom, once I did I entered one of the cubicles and cried my heart out. To be honest, it actually feels good not the pain but the fact of crying making all the pain vanish temporarily. It makes my heart feel less heavy and I'm starting to relax.

     What the hell is wrong with that boy!? First he leaves then he comes back claiming that he is now complete and ready have me back. I AM NOT A TOY THAT HE CAN PLAY IT I AM A GIRL AND NOT A PRIZE OF WINNING!

"I won't allow anyone to hurt me without my consent"-I muttered lowly as a tear from my left eye dropped. I lift my hand to wipe and said "You are strong, you are beautiful. You can go through this, you already have. You are the daughter of God, and he will always be there to protect you"

I opened the door of the cubicle, then I went out. I looked at my reflection in the mirror.

Damn! I look like crap, and there is no other way to describe myself than that. I smiled and repeated the words I said earlier.

     Revenge. I am never doing that because I know that it will come back to me. Today is just another part of my hardships and I am never letting it bring me down. I am a strong girl, and I am proud of it. I won't be that girl who thinks to low and act as if I'm too weak. I will be that girl who will prove to everyone that has and will  hurt her that, they MESSED WITH THE WRONG GIRL!

This is just a bad day Sapphire, not a bad life. Remember, everyday is a great day.

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